I got several invitations to go to California where all the raw food is at. I met Anthony, a raw ice cream business owner in L.a. He has convinced me. He told me about when he lived in Miami how bored he was.
I am trying to be consistent and stay, but there isn't any thing here for me anymore, unless a miracle happens. I might as well be in IRAN.

I am going to Paris next year. Maybe the spring.

Father's Day I mailed : Hemp seeds, Sapodilla RAWIE, Dried Blueberries ans raw Snow Balls.

Friday I ate Kim Chee with Tahini. Raw Claifornia Bread from the Dehydrator room for Breakfast and quarts of Coconut water made fresh.

6/9 I had sprout salad with Tahini/ avo and tomato

6/7 spirulina smoothie,dates, banana lunch- I cut Dandelion from the farm and mixed it with a garlic raw lemongrette and had it with a quart of raw mint lemonade.

6/8 Farm Lychees huge and juicy
Coconutwater

I have gone to daily 8am Catholic mass every day, missing one day for Star Wars. I meditate. I do not chant really or sing. That is very private time for me.

I bought some e3 live .

When my sister came I gave her
raw sugarcane, some raw Ice Cream sold by the pint, Hand Shelled Cashew Vanilla bean. I got her Date coconut rolls, dried Blueberries and California Bread.
I like the dried Mulberries.

My hair is more golden.


I am reading High priest Kwatamani's book. A very spiritual raw food book. He has a harem and lives in florida teaching about divine love and being children of the sun.

I bought wheatgrass juicer and juice it daily

June 14th
Healing from MBH. He sent me an email and I responded. " I awaken at night thinking it was a mistake ( us separating)"
I shouldn't have and yet my mind couldn't rest. He wrote he sent me a package I never received. What package? Curiosity killed...I had to answer after a few days.

He is crying , I am so mean he says, and he has weird intestinal pain/diarheea. He was in Ecuador for work doing whatever he does.

Too late, but Now I realize I don't want us communictaing. I felt so good and finally able to move on.
I love him so much . 
 
E3 shots today and two ripe persimmons so far. Thai coconut water qts. I am bringing home a lb of wheatgrass.

Coconut water.

I cry at mass, I sob like a baby before communion... and girls give me gifts like rosaries and stuff afterwards.

Today I am going to 7 pm mass to meditate. It is in Spanish so I don't know what they are saying. What else can I do?

All these mexican workers are in love with me. I am so cold.

I want to heal. Break free from bad people who want to hurt me.

Message from Evil Unicorn to visit her.  I still have not spoken to her since. Why should I?

I knew mbh would go crazy after a while from not seeing me. I knew it, I am too vulnerable though and will always be. He will lose it when I get another man but there is no other option.

I feel like taking one just for distraction but that would be wrong. I want to do things right!

I am a good girl!

I am at work now sneaking this..ciao.
June 15 2005

I am reading about consuming the death energy verses the energy of the divine love in kwatamani's book. Consumption of death, lust, lies, etc will lead to misery and degeneration.
Consuming thoughts of death, foods, spiritual energies..etc. Today I will focus on the nurturing feminine and not on the corrupt dominant predator male energies out there.
We all listened to an e3 live cd at work yesterday. We all drink it and our toenails fly off there is so much energy.
I cannot wait until I am in Paris! Sleep in and walk around all night! Speak in French and forget everything.
These days I want to be a fruitarian except for my green drink. I open up coconuts with a screwdriver.
I am happy, I feel sexy and beautiful. I want to consume divine love.

My Work: I do Quickbooks and Secretarial
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I am nice to myself and I love it.
Baby bananas for lunch. I wanna make durian custard pie.
I only have access to computer at work

June 16 2005