Early morning walk to work

My office where I work

Making Coconut waters

Cutting Lychees

My source  follows me
I am very important to me
I have my connection to source
I empathize with me
I will teach myself how to have good vibrations

I will hook up with who my source is, me

I am wanting to be good
and always reaching

I do not languish in anything but love for self
I empathize with abundance and inner wealth and health
I empathize with the best of ALL PEOPLE
I have made the connection to me

I am in the feeling good state and am making a connection
I meditate on me
My goodness is active
I have chosen the best for me

The best will come to me
My decisions will all be good
I
will grow into beauty
I have achieved a dominant feeling of connection
energy moving and tingling

I am a fast finding connection..not fast losingI=

I love this process and will deal with it another day
I have no resisitance in me
I soothe myself
I make nothing out of everything

There are no vibrations of resistance
I am so cute today
My tan looks, makes me 1000 times more attractive

I got it at my wonderful job
in the garden noontime
Between the grass and the rows of vegetables

I offer my good self to me
I offer it to do good in my thoughts
and the choice over my direct thoughts and self circling energy

Words do not teach me, only my life experiences
more meaningful than any words

I will always make it out on top

I no longer chose bondage because I think it will make me feel good.

Everything I imagine is mine.

I entertain only good thoughts and only good things are attracted to me
and
I will never die..I am everlasting life,,I cannot go wrong on that one!

I am understanding and send loving love to me, I send all the greatest emotions I can throw at me

JULY @
2
More work pictures
Baby Pineapple in the Pineapple Papaya patch
 
Lychee Tree


Baby Papaya Tree


Where I sunbathe during my break


Monstera Deliciosa fruit, ripe next week
 

If I ever have children
-I will teach them permaculture and how to grow fruit trees and garden. I will teach to grow organically and with strong seeds. It will be lots of hands on love work. Plus alot of food that nature will give us free because she loves us!

- "Homeschooling program" classes at the Science Museum and Communtiy Colleges for like Trig/physics/chem ( I have heard of 9 year olds excelling in ) etc

- Music teachers twice a week either Piano or violin or whatever they like

- I will teach Literature ( by reading), French ( textbook/ tapes), Spanish( same), English ( by textbook and writing articles, stories and eventually novels)

Art ( going to ART museums instead of in books)

-weekends field trips to Museums and Art Galleries ( to see hands on )

- I will make the father teach easy stuff like US History, Government, Wars, business..it will be so great to see both be interested )
(Plus I will suggest the father take his kid to work during off hours and learn/help out for his self esteem/earning pay)

- I will buy them gifts such as classic greek all famous books, maps ( to copy and draw and memorize for fun), real microscopes (to see blood and learn together), telescopes ( to see stars and other galaxies and learn together)

-Nature / Herb walks ( to learn about nature and edible stuff)/ History around us walks ( about our surroundings)/ Camping hikes..walks across the pacific crest ( for excercise and bonding)

-Ballet/dance lessons for girls and football/soccer/baseball camps for boys

-Trips to all the famous places of the world ( to see different worlds)

- teach them how to prepare good healthy wholesome raw food dishes ( so they can feed themselves and get creative and take pride)

-no vaccinations ever ( that is cruel )

-a lot of love and a lot of other brainy homeschooling friends

( I will have homeopathic natural non toxic doctors just in case for show and most probably a midwife for show too..)

I hear homeschoolers get so into it they wind up teaching themselves most of the time.
Plus when it is one on one teaching it is truly taught.

I went and bought Red bananas, Apricots , Avocados Flax seeds and Ginger and Lemon.
I am going to make Ginger Tea tommorow.

I went and bought pretty stuff for me at Urban Outfitters. I got all these pretty earrings and shoes and a dress and some shirts. Two books for journal stuff.

I am glad. Everything is nice and special. I am going to hear many beautiful things. I am going to see awesome stuff. I feel good. I want to love the world and see it's magic. I wish people could see how they have become and change into beautiful angels by eating the way nature intended.

I love my job.

Today i went to the Farmer's market and had raw Nori rolls, Curry almond pate with veggies and two Raw Basil Vinaigrettes to dip.

I bought my mom Thai Coconut water, raw Strawberry Shortcake, raw Cashew Vanilla Bean Ice cream, raw Stuffed Mushrooms, raw Marinated Corn and some raw Peanuts.

I have these bags of Walnuts, brazil nuts, crystallized Ginger, dried cranberries sweetened with Sugarcane juice and Black Hunza mulberries I do not know what to do with!





I love you
Tommorow I am going to do something beautiful. I am going to have so much fun and feel really good.
I am going to stay good for a long time. I am going to be pure and love with only my mind. I am going to send good energy and heal myself by healing the world.

I give all my energy to the good world.

There is no evil. Evil only exists in my mind. If one person is a scammer, than everybody is, and that isn't true!

if I am pleased at one person then I am pleased at the world. If I love one person then I love everybody. If I can get along with one man then I will get along with anyone.

I am going to make a MAMEY smoothie right now. YUM

Cassie came up to me at the farmer's market , held
my arms, hugged and kissed me and had a real heartfelt discussion. She is nice.

I am going to learn how to be the best that I can, I give myself the trust I need for a positive future. I put my trust in me that I will take care and protect myself from thoughts from the energy of the opposite. That is all I have to do ..and it is an easy task.

I wish someone would call me.

I want to do something

I love you
thank you

I love Glaser Farms.

I love the darkness because people do not change for good
until something really bad happens. bad is so we see what happens when you are cut off from GOD.

I need to branch out and where loving myself has been the greatest gift, I have grown and loved and learned. I can say what is good for me. I can know who loves me..for if it is true love I will know

I will respond to true love and give it to me in return.

I have a nice tan it makes me look good no matter what. I will have a good summer.

I want a raw food
man, 100% raw,to be my love. That way whatever I make he will eat it and whatever he makes I will eat and we can both go beyond what is normal love like I feel so much

I want to be with someone who wants to be with me without second's hesitation. The greatest.
harmony. Power truth.

I am eternal and have forever to fix what needs fixing. I am fixed. I am perfect. I am perfect for any man. I am woman and I am good.

I am the woman you want and to be

I will leave my body pain free this time around and continue it even purer and more beautiful next time around unless I am forever me which I am.

FRUITARIAN VAMPIRE
hahaha
I bite into fruit and drink it's blood.

I thought that no matter what you do good or evil you die all the same..if you have a rich life or a poor one..in the end it doesn't matter ..good man, poor man..it's all the same..

so if that were true..then why not spend our lives in love with every hair on our body and love with our hearts and mind and no more wars or killing animals or hurt. Just goodness. If nothing in the end matters anyways what is
there to lose?

Pluck daisies and caress your true love in the grass

Fear not but love pregnancy

Trust everyone 200 percent

Take chances see the world make 100 friends at once fall in love honor thyself and give all

//

I love you so much
it is truer than anything I have ever said

I
LOVE
YOU
WITH
MY
HEART
AND SOUL
AND I MEAN IT

I am actually crying.

////

I need a hottub and a massage, but a real deep tissue one!

A hotub under the dark skies with stars out would be perfect
I would like to sit in it and just smile and go AHHHHHHHH


P.S.
Thank you for every one who comments sweet things
on my journal. I haven't been able to respond because of work or my slow internet. I cut and paste it from my notepad and don't even read them mostly but I know you humans
are there..reading the energy off my words..I am being my best friend with an audience. I know all you guys love me because I feel it. I am going to show you all how to live a happy life. I am in a life transition into the best I can be and the best I can love. You will see.

Goodnight. I am sleeping
goodnight forever
may the present be always filled with all the love I can hold.
May the present always contain everything to make me complete.
I am complete
I need nothing because all I need is right here.
My heart glows and I will sleep in tommorow.

Love Me. I was am and will be everything wonderful. My thoughtways I will create will be bigger and brighter.

There is no balance in me because I am growing better and the worse is becoming non existent just like it should be for everyone.

I feel more euphoric and high on life than ever. I am grounded and focused and I can think. I can hear what it feels like not to think too. beautiful.

Time is nonexistent. Forever is now. I will forever live in NOW. When I am 115 years old, it will be NOW.. when I was born..? It is NOW

My prom night NOW my wedding? is going on NOW My children? NOW

As a raw foodist I can hold a leaf and feel with it. It radiates, shines..just like ripe fruit and veggies. Beauty.

JULY 3

I love you


I am sitting here with a
mess called love. Love in it's purity and love swelling me and eating me.

The love I need, The love I have. Holding you in my arms.Crying because it feels so good.

Thank you for sticking up for me and not believeing all the bad things I may have done in another lifetime.

a red rose jagged with thorns drowned. a rose was drowned.

I give you everything I have.

I give you the world.

GINGER TEA
2 in ginger pressed
1 qt water
4 tbs HONEY
3 slices Lemon
3 cinnamon sticks

I am bringing to work tommorow.
I ate a Sapote.
I had Guacamole earlier

Short story
Merissa ate her Cashew Apple looking at the blue skies. The clouds were so big they filled the sky. Tiny drops fell on her flesh and that of the apple.
Her blue eyes looked up as high as she good. She closed her eyes. The water drops felt so good on her skin.
She has blonde hair that was getting wet. Her shoulders heaved as she breathed.
"If only I could forever stay in this eternity" , she thought, smiling. Her cheeks warm. She was everything. She felt warmed..warmed by the drops and the sun behind the clouds.
Everything was nice. She was with her boyfriend waiting for her on the go cart.
She knew in this second she had everything. Forever. This moment would last her all her life and it would be a scene she replays.
Her Boyfriend, Ereven had on a dark blue pullover and red sneakers. His dark hair and plaid scarf stood out against the backdrop of green grasses, marshes and exotic trees with leaves as big as gorillas that were shades of Blue Green.

He walked over to see what was going on. He could see the smile on her face. "what's up? Blueberrygirl"
" I am standing here..and wishing I was forver a beautiful flower under these raindrops", She said.
"oook" he looked up, " do you want to go see the mangoes?
" yes, in a minute.."
A duck with all it's little babies walked in front of them, so regal, so beautiful..The father nearby had ruffled it's feathers to look big.
"It's raining..do you want to go under the gocart?"
"no, it is just water"
" I know.."
" Ok.. I will meet you in the mango groves."+++++++