nori roll dulse

cookies raw


mom loves to make me salad


raw cake I made


glaser farms raw cake




my painting




tracy made this for a class I was in


me

my cake


starfruit


I am going to see War of the Worlds in the Movie Theatre

I am wearing a Lilac dress.

I might see the fireworks too

This morning I made a smoothie

4 Red Bananas
2 White Sapotes
Ice Water
Honey

I opened up some of MBH's coconuts and filled a pitcher.

I surround myself with good feelings. Everything is as I want it.
I learned while I was by the pool sunbathing the art of blanking out. The ART OF NOTHINGNESS.
What a great way to live.

I am listening to the cure cd. It makes me feel so good. This song BREATHE is gonna make me cry. OHHHHH pooor me!!!!! It's raining in my brain! It feels good.


I have to put on some Urban Decay..earrings and some shoes.

I am happy and feel good.
there is only me. Always, and I am in such a great mood today!!

I look like a gem. I am too cute.

I bought a new paper journal at Urban Outfiitters for 4 dollars. I was not aware that they do sweat shops. I do not even know what that is. I know half the world lives on less than 2 dollars a day. I grew up with Urban Outfiiters. It's the only store I like. I buy everything there. And everything I buy there I take care of.

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I saw WAR OF THE WORLDS

It was great
I was so happy
It was really nice to get out
I was surprised
I enjoyed myself

I am not scared of aliens. I know they want us to protect our planet and not pollute it. They have warned us.

But it would be very impossible for them to live here because of microrganisms.

Anyways, Tom Cruise was hiding from aliens. You can't hide from them, they are psychic!


Things are going to be OK.
I have a warm light in my mind.

I love you. I am fine. I am good. I will be good.

I want to only attract the best. I believe the best is already mine.
I deserve what I get. I give love to whatever is healing for me.

I am spring in a flower
joy in a rainbow
a spirit who loves horses
I love beautiful people

I am so precious
My light is going to be very strong
I shall follow it
I shall remember what love feels like even in my sleep
I shall understand my life
It means for me to be as good as a creator as possible

My weapon against any so called thing BAD
is love
Love makes gardens grow out of cement
Love is our soul job..
our only job is to create love

ATTRACT to me
follow me
I am good, I can heal everything
I can heal you with a touch
I can give you a list of 1000 reasons to stay with me

From me to you
feel the goodness

I am a garden I am topsoil
I am alive
I eat what is alive and teeming with life force
my heart pumps with sustenance for the soul
I feed it

I am the fruit off the tree
I am a shiny cherry waiting to be kissed
I will be the prettiest energy because that is where my thoughts are

My thoughts are living in the garden of eden
Perfect weather
you are my adam
The cows telepathically tell us stories of the holocaust
the snakes tell us it is going to rain
the monkeys play with us

I have the world in my mind
It wants to satisfy my juicy heart's need
MY HEART IS A BEAUTIFUL piece of FRUIT
flawless plum, ripe mango
beating for you, beating for life
young forever..innocent love given freely

The light in my mind will bring me places.

My mind is brilliantly vacant
It is hollow and cool
refreshing and happy
I am beauty
I am cute
I am fresh

I am making STRAWBERRY RAW ice cream in my ice cream maker now
that only I will appreciate in person


I made coconut mylk in Vitamix and strained and mixed with pint of strawberries and 10 dates

I give it to you in thought
taste it sweet!

I read GOOSEBERRIES by ANTON CHEKOV
I liked that..I read one about a lady and her lap dog too

I came home instead of fireworks..because I thought I left my door open and didn't want my brother to download porn on my computer!

One of the things on MBH's list why I am not good enough for him to be even my boyfriend, is my "criminal " brother.
If he is waiting for Josh to change that will be forever!

I am good enough for anybody. I am so glad I see that.. I am wonderful.. I really am great.

I love myself.
I will look back on where I am right now with fondness.

I love, I really do, and it is better everyday ....I am for the first time INNOCENT
My head is getting clearer and better every day
as the days go on my mind opens up more.

The things that happened to me when I first went raw,
the miracles, shocks and surprises
will happen

I have cleared a major blockage to my spirit
I have lifted the chains off my neck that have been
there because I thought they would make me feel better
What a surprise, I am even more in love with me.

FOOD TODAY
breakfast
-Strawberries and Ice/Water Smoothie
-E3
-half a bottle of OLIVICO spicy italian organic
raw OLIVES ( I question because it's preserved)
( a tiny bit of tummy ache after eaten)
-alot of water with lemon
-Lychees 1 lb

-Hand Bananas covered in Living Tree's Macadamia Butter

Lunch
-Kim Chee ( I question too) Mixed with Tahini
( a little nauseous after I ate)
-1 lb Lychees

For Dinner I am going to Vitamix all organic:
2 Cucumbers
first
1/2 head Kale and Celery
then STRAIN in Nut mylk bag
Maybe I will add one coconut water

I am going to make green juice/wheatgrass DAILY
It is really important

I worked really hard and did not go on the internet
at work. I felt so much better because I wasn't
sneaking around plus I am almost catched up

My friend ordered my FRENCH VANILLA and JASMINE
oils from Starwest Botanicals.
So yummy. I smell beautiful. I love Vanilla.
I smell so good I wanna eat me!

My brother is a chef/cook and he loves that
I bring home all these exotic ingredients.
He uses my Vanilla beans, Coconut Oil,
my fresh herbs, Uses all my organic ground spices.
I have to hide things in my room

It was so hot today walking to the bustop.
I need a shower.
I hear crickets, cicadas and mosquitos allll day.
I work in a jungle.

After I drink my green juice while I still
have the buzz I am going to slip into the
shower and fell really beautiful..

One of the Mexican Kitchen ladies snuck up
to me and asked me about e3. I offered to give her
a shot the next time I got a bottle. Spread the love
, wealth and health. It feels like the
fountain of youth sometimes.

My computer is on the floor next to my
dark wood bed. I have cds next to it and
some drawings and diaries.

I have a bedside table with a globe and a
lamp made of marble. Fake orchids and a
framed picture of Diva princess,
http://www.geocities.com/vanillafairyangel/Diva.html
my chihuahua.

I have a collection of Rose quartz
and Blue Green Agate like rocks from Brazil
etc I have a frog with an open mouth filled with pens.

My closet is filled withthe COOLEST shirts and
dresses. Each one bought in a space of its own.
Some clothes I can't wear until I go thru and
BLESSING of them to release certain energies.
Haven't figured out how to do it.. I may just
throw them out.

I have a ton of my paintings in the closet.
Each one a meaning. I like a neutral one of
a purple girl who looks like the virgin Mary surrounded by stars.


My christmas List
1 oil paints that are this colorful
2 Phase contast microscope..with the video camera
3 nikon d70 camera
4 trip to Paris
5 deep tissue massage
6 horseback riding
7 an engagement ring,
18 my prince too!

July 6
Good Healthy day today
I took this this moring
RIPE ORGANIC FRESH PICKED MANGO ANYONE??





I modeled for my brother today. It was fun. I posed with all the little latchkey girls in the neighborhood who love me. They all wanted to come home with me and eat mango smoothies.

I would never leave my child out until 8 pm at night.

I want to save a few pics on here so I never lose them

My mom went shopping at Wild Oats and gave me 1300 and I am going to see if I can buy my Paris Ticket tonight. I will check out the prices. I am thinking of going in beginning of March.

Today I had GREEN JUICE ( Kale , Cucumber and Celery)
1 lb Lychees
1/2 raw California Bread
and an Arugula Salad with Mango Passion Dressing Tracy Made up

Mango Passion dressing
4c Mango
1 1/2 garlic
1 c juice of Passion fruit and OJ
1/2 c raw oil
1/2 c Lemon Juice
Salt

On my lunch break I took a nap under the shade of an Avocado Tree. The wind was blowing. The sun Shining.. I really loved alot, it was so awesome I laid on my Boston Ballet sweatshirt. I curled up in a ball.. It was so peaceful. I just listened to the swishing and followed the shadows of the leaves on my arms. I was surrounded by tall grass so I had privacy. I was far away from everyone.

I worked really hard today and just did work. I really like it. It is an escape from my waking life.

My mom picked me up at 4:30.

Her bday is Friday. I have no idea. Maybe I will buy her a raw mango pie and some organic beans, rices and peas and lentil stuff. Some gift huh? She likes cooked food stuff.

Oh well, her and my brother are both dying..slowly..from eating cooked food. It is sad. The years go by and they age quickly.

I need to eat dinner now. I am going to make a Pate and roll it up with Lettuce and chopped veggies and sliced carrots.

I met a Raw Foodist Anthony from Miami Beach, he called on the phone to place an order. I recognized him from the raw foods bulletin board. I told him we needed an Office Position. He might take it. He likes to go to the Ocean and walk around barefoot.

Here is a profile pic of him

http://www.rawfoodsupport.com/profile.php?f=12&id=3544

I am for the first time realizing that everything I want is inside of me. It's all her in my mind.. to love..to listen and to be.

I appreciate all. I feel great things coming upon me.

I am going to be, AM a good girl

painting of mbh


. superfood smoothie phycomin



aloe banana avocado

salad