Ducks-
SURINAM Cherries are in season again..
( this pic is from the internet)

the purple ones are the sweetest.
There's a tree by the Kitchen
I like to pick at.
The bushes are all over Miami
almost on every other two blocks.

This morning I walked across
wet fields in my pink rubber
boots while the sun rose at 6
am.

Silence and early light. Glow
orange. Every thing thick and
wet.

Bathsheba to the farm she
inherited . Tess D'urberville
to the farm after her exile .
The mango farm in Wide Sargasso
Sea where Mr. Rochester's first
wife started to lose her mind.

I hear Cock a doodle dooooo from
every direction and birds
singing and a chorus of
insects.

It was moist and warm
when the sun rose.

Ducks weren't even moving,
awake until I chased them, into
the canal where they made
pretty designs in the water
like fingers dragged across
them lightly.

The males like to open their
mouths.. like that looks scary
to me!

Every thing is alive and there
are animals moving and shaking the grass..
and a city on bugs as you lie
in the grass watching.. and I
bet you many long worms too
underneath.

I saw a red Cardinal two days
ago eating a worm in our
birdbath .

I watched a Gecko, (not an
Anole) eat sneak up on bugs and
ravish them, when I was doing
the market bags on the porch.

Check out this spider , taken
after it took a bug and rolled
it into a cocoon to eat alive
later.

Today the sugarcane juice is
Made..actually grass juice
because cane is grass
..sooo sweet! It puts me in a
real optimal mood.

I feel like a meteorite hit me
this morning. A good one.

I woke at 5 before the alarm,
as usual and jumped out of bed.
I was so excited to be awake. I
can't remember when I fall
asleep either!

I am good and healthy

On my way to work I thought
about my life. I thought about
Paris.
I know when I am at the top of
the Eiffel tower something is
gonna explode in my brain, it
will..EXPLODE! POOF! and I am
going to change forever for
the better.



My Paris list

-Vitamix
-Mac Knife sharpened
-Small bamboo board
-Big bowl
-chopsticks


I had a

Blueberry/Banana/ice/water
smoothie this morning.
7/14/2005

My life is getting amazing and
better. I just give up
imagining what is next.

It's like time stopped passing
and every minute is the same,
every day its the same with a
new number. GREAT.

I am so sensitive to foods that
after I eat them I can tell
what is good for me and not by
my reaction.

Last night my mom made me a
salad with love with Greens and
Grapes and etc..She loves me so
much and she is going to go raw
again since she got back.

I look in the fridge and she
bought bulk Blueberries,
Cherries, Greens and Pine nuts.

A Mexican worker cut me open
Coconuts last night with a
machete, (they fall on the
ground too!) And I fed my
chihuahua the meat.

Really good things are going to
happen and they are going to
take me by surprise. I won't
know about them until they show
themselves to me.

I am going to think good
things, only discuss what works
in my life, only write about
what is working..and I trust my
life will be like a dream.

I will befriend many really
intelligent well read people
and they will be my mental
stimulation. I love it.

I want to imagine. I want to
see things in my brain. I want
to be told beautiful things and stories.

I want to be taken on
adventures in my mind, see what
possiblities I can invent for
myself.

I want more and I want
everything. Always.

I want to hear "I love you"
I love you.

je t'aime
s'il vous plait, m'aimer pour
eternite

I will always love you into
forever.

I really want to buy Florida
Bee pollen and eat it with a
spoon and a jug of ice water.
it is so delicious...I eat it
in two days a jar.

LOVING IS COMING OUR WAY
My new favorite Green :

BABY ARUGULA.

I never tried before a week
ago. It is so crispy and fresh.
I mixed it with Mango Salsa.

Zippy and sweet with Cilantro

There was all this juice left
over that was red and I drank
it.

Later on my tummy felt a wee bit heavy.
I think fruit is the easiest to
digest for me.

I laid on the grass staring at

the sky, feeling good as usual.
Thinking about nothing. My head feeling
heavier and heavier and then I fall so
deep into a nap. Swatting a few bugs off me.

I found these on the file server at work, this girl
who used to work
here took these photos of the Farm.
Tracy said she worked in
a big city and took off for a
couple of months to learn farming ,like an
apprenticeship.

I emailed them to me.


BLACK SAPOTE


SAPODILLA


LOQUAT


GREENS


I am grateful I can cry. I am so glad.

I am so about to go to sleep, goodnight and thank you so much. I am so happy.
Today was really nice.
I really am luck

thank you .. I love everything about you!

Tommorow I want to work better. I want to only talk about great things. I am getting there.
Maybe I will buy bee pollen. It is so good.

Please show me the right things to do and feel and think. I really honestly, and genuinely want to be real and good.
I want to deserve what I dream of. I want cleanliness, spirit, love that fills up my entire person, friendship, trust and honesty given freely. Space to fly and home is everywhere type stuff.

i want the world. The world in my heart and feeling.

I want to go everywhere and do everything.
I am home.
I really love.

i am so grateful for everything, I can feel just enormous things. They are so big and the energy I get from you is enormous. It is tremendous and swelling.

Goodnight I will sleep now

It's like learning a new language
I have so much more to learn please teach me,
I promise to be a good
student!

I promise to be everything..always and ever.

I feel very safe. I take good care of myself.

I give myself things I always wanted.

I am so happy I have found the way to my dreams.

I have so much more to learn from you, and I will be good I promise!
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I took this screaming with delight!


A TREE -ripened Jakfruit cut fresh this morning! Look I am pressing it
because it is ripe !
Soft and ready..
TREE RIPENED!!

( You cannot buy them tree ripened , they are sold hard ~ Vietnamese
people cut them up and cook them that way..What I have is real
gold....They do not ripen well when picked hard at all)

It is NOT a Durian or even close tasting!!!!

It's like meaty grape apple tastey

It smells like a now and later!


Yesterday we had PH strip tests fun. My coworker who drank celery juice
hers turned black..the most alkaline.

Lately I have been in the middle-ish, my last one was 6.2.

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Picture from the internet:


The other day Nutcracker Suite was playing in the office and Tracy, also
an ex ballet dancer ( she gave me her pointe shoes she used to dance in
a few weeks ago)
was talking about dancing ballet and then this other girl said she
wanted to try a beginner ballet class..

NOW I HAVE A BALLET FEVER..

I want to go on a grand antique stage and be at the barre and stretch in
every direction feet, arms, neck, down up , back, over.
I want my arms to move like a feather.
I want my posture to be perfect and the energy to shoot out in every
postion I hold.

I want to look out over my arms out in front of my nose reaching over
forever away.

I want to be in a room with Ballet dancers who are thin, strong and
usually always perfect looking.


There is such a peace when I do ballet as a raw foodist. I do it better
without practicing for months, raw , then I did actually in class twice
a day for years.
That is the truth.
I swear.

And when I do it on a fruit fast it is the most wonderful feeling of
perfection. I get so emotional during it.

When the violins are crying and pianos tear jerking me and we have a
forward bend to the floor, I sweep the floor with my fingertips and I
really connect with such light and feeling !

I am loving the air around me and my fingers are just touching love.

It is like everything is
changed and I am DANCING.

its not about the feet, it's about the purity of classical music and
expression.
...and the fine line of energy down the back of your legs and out your
stretched out arms and slightly turned head.
I used to be like that.

I don't even need to hear the teacher jabbering...just the music and
everything is naturally in place, like every postion has its own
feeling.

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I need more Green Juice.

Lunch is a florida Green coconut my coworker is going to open with a
machete ( the guys are not around)

I told her I have lost many clothes that way because the metal on the
machete reacts with the coconut juice and turns black and will stain so
bad not even oxyclean will clean it!

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It is so great to be so useful at work. I really am and I fix things and
do my job .

I have a Tachyon disk on my cordless phone now at work to turn it into
good energy.. all the EMR's.
I covered it with a sticker of a SUN.

Coworkers bothering the boss about getting one on theirs

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Oh my coworker today printed Labels of "LOVE" , "Happiness" etc to stick
on our water jugs , we were talking about messages from water

http://www.wellnessgoods.com/messages.asp

I showed my boss these pictures and my boss wants to borrow my book!

Later on L made me this cute label for my glass water holder
it said

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH
PLEASE BE MY BRIDE FOR EVER AND EVER!

I love it so much! Such good blessings in my water!
Yes, I am marrying my water! That's not the point!

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Ripenening mangos, dried Dark hunza Mulberries in desk drawer at work.
My Desk: Paper everywhere and scissors, tapes, bills, checks to enter,
folders, sheets of paper with notes of people to call, forms, invoices
to put in numerical order, notes from boss to fix this and that, books
and books over head to pour thru.

Close to me at all times is Mango the dog.

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I want to say what I am going to do.

I am saying what I am going to do.

I am doing what others expect me to do without saying it.

You come here to me


ATE Bee Pollen tonight like cereal. I was so ecstatic. Mint Lemonade, Arugula/ Tahini, Green juices..

Tommorow I am worki
painting