Atlantis had an aquarium





They drive on the left side of the road.



This guy , assigned to our table, crushed his vertabrae, thanks to yoga, food and Allain Stricklen ( also gloria estefan's yoga teacher ) he can do anything. My friend is making him green juices now as her client.




on Paradise Island I ran into my partner from Landmark forum education classes. Coincidences..there are none? Is the theme..but why?

He was drunk and I had to distance myself. Strong blue colored alcohol in a coconut shell under the hot island sun..some people are nuts.

Lion, the night before I went on cruise cut open for me coconuts and in the little hole he ran a vanilla bean thru it for a second..it was sooooo good!!!

We ate Durians on South Beach lifeguard station watching the sunset and talking for hours about how man never landed on the moon...and why.

He cuts me Calabasa, Papaya everything..and we talk about many many things.

Walked thru south beach, talking, listening, moving..he lives in the absolute best area.

When he drives me home over the bridges of downtown Miami with the top down and the air is warm



This weekend he is taking me to Captiva and Sanibel. He brought up wanting to go to Phillipines and eating fresh Durians. Sunflower radiance
Drinking a Durian Date Strawberry smoothie.

Last night went shopping on Lincoln Mall road. I will post pic later. I bought a gorgeous white dress, shoes, necklace and matching panties.

I was drooling over these 400 dollar dresses. Silks, colors and the cut and attachments..

The young kid behind the counter said I could get a discount and when I asked "how much for this dress" he said I could get it for 68 dollars after I came out and modeled it.

SO I had to buy it.

When I walked in he was praying at the counter with a strange box attached to his head and to his arm. I noticed jewish writings on the counter. He is jewish and when I asked what was that box tid to his head and arm, he said Moses saw the back of god and god wore this box thing on his head, and so should humans. I said, neat.

Lion picked me up. He had on a baseball hat and sunglasses and a blue shirt. Drove me to his place.

We opened a bad Durian. Chewy and tough. Not ripe yet, picked unripe. it happens.

We ate Watermelon and Pears. Waiting for his breadfruits to ripen.

He had oil paints all over his marble floors. His paintings are neat. Browns and reds.

He made a strange spicy salad out of raw potatoes, yams, sunflower sprouts, cabbage, dulse, lemon juice pressed, garlic...he brought out a ceramic grater and grated tumeric, ginger, habanero and added cayenne.

WE talked so much. Listened to music and laid in bed hugging and looking at each other. I drive him crazy.

He talks about homeschooling and says public schools are not an option..
We are kicking soccer ball tommorow in this park he knows of, a florida state park.

He drove me home at three am. Girls skinny dip in the pool out his balcony. Splashing noises.

He looks different to me now. He is no longer reserved..he is open to me. sunbeams.

His blue eyes grey and green around the pupil. His hair is ash blonde. Skin tan.

He says that he gets more muscle working out now by doing less workout.

I think he eats all raw, but is on the extra step of no metal on his food and no salt, no oil..etc..

I looked at his book collection..alot of books on how to pleasure a woman and kama sutra books. funny.

I wore my dress and he photographed me.

Captiva Sanibel


Driving there from Miami I remember timing him speak, an hour straight.
He is so smart. Teaching me about mechanics of driving and how not to flip your car over.

I stared at him thru his brown sunglasses with Prada written on the sides. Very stylish, I know people always say they like his shirts. He really has his favorite designers and his plan is to start his own label.

He is not a " raw foodist" because he doesnt like groups, cliches, but he IS indeed.. and he uses no metals on food..( silverware knives blenders)no water (only coconut)..( because its dirty and goes thru pipes.) He eats so much purer than me.

I am jealous and even more motivated.

Only uses ceramic knives, peelers, graters etc..only machete for coconuts

He eats watermelon with his hands when we are out with no ceramic knife.

He uses water filters for his shower.

Neem sticks for his teeth.

He filets and cuts and shaves with aloe, I watched him and uses it as moisturizer.
I watch him rub it in his hair too.

He said he used to have crows' feet before the aloe daily treatment..I have noticed his face, his pores all flawless.

He eats NEEM leaves.

No pool, no hot tubs, no chlorine, he researched it, it kills intestinal flora and gives candida overgrowth.

No tv.

He is stricter than me and its totally freaking me out, it's like the tables are turned on me!!!!!

He mumbles under his breath when I order smoothies ," I wouldnt eat anything that touches metal!", and when water is added, " Chlorine! Hmph!"

and he is right too..
he buys spring water just to wash his hands with!

Nothing dehydrated, blended or prepared..amazing, I am so agog.

Got to Sanibel and watched the sunset



and the
MOONRISE over the ocean, it was so unbelievably special, my first ever..:



So beautiful, he opened coconuts, Papaya and Guavas.





I have stopped saying I feel good all the time, I just will feel it.

The next day we were so beachy



Ate watermelon, papayas and coconuts and discussed things.



and played soccer. We kicked the ball so hard in the air with bare feet over broken shells.

I collected sea shells, the prettiest. And the sand was real sand made from crushed seashells..like floury...
he swam and i walked hunched over, picking out the buggest and perfect one. Real sea shells. They don't have those on Miami beach.

Captiva was breathtaking..every house had a NAME. mansions hidden by forests.
Rich People's paradise, Captiva. Beautiful homes. I saw huge mansions on Sanibel Captiva road. All those people on that island are RICH!




and there are pristine beach and woods ..no fast food or junky stores, everything local business...

a little of the Key west cuteness in some corner art stores and Chappaquiddick silence of the clean ocean with hills of dunes.

and even a refuge where there are alligators, manatees, birds, rays, fish, turtle crossings and so much more rare stuff. I saw Osprey nests and heard them cawing.




Beautiful time.



We noticed the whole island was white people, so different than Miami





Our hotel on Sanibel so expensive. Everything was on that island, it was 6 dollars just on toll.





We took a tram tour on refuge and learned about Ponce de Leon and Caloosa indians, fascinating!! He was here 1513 and gave all the caloosa's disease.





Weird Washed up sea things





I felt euphoria many times, watching the sun, playing in the wind, feeling the flowers, smelling gardenias.

He talks so much and I love to hear all his theories..his stories about his dentists and doctors and how they've all been so wrong...his artwork, his business, his plans, how he wants kids to be raised, etc..
He thinks I have candida overgrowth, basically everyone does, but he says it because I live for fruit..even though I am healthier than the planet, eating more greens would be good for me.

I kept my distance and want to, I am so amazed

CS
Thursday me and Lion met here at this cool fountain in the merrick Park Mall, Coral Gables



I saw a beautiful Furstenberg jacket I want while waiting.

and went to Bill Baggs State park. Look a Gecko!:





We ate Durian, Guava, Avocados, coconut ( he chews it and spits out and then we see ants carrying stuff away), watermelon, Papaya









Saturday after going To Clyde's to get Mameys we ate wih pleasure!! I had a Mamey smoothie too.


Before we left he stopped by Brickell, at this tower on the water, downtown Miami.

I was surprised when to the guards Lion said his name , room number and "residence".

I waited while a valet drove me into parking place while he checked his mail...and collected rent from a ruthless trust fund baby and his wife who lives there doing nothing, he walked in on them in bed .



He said he is getting a place in the gables and checked out these places when we drove by on miracle mile. That would be so amazing, closer to me to hang out.

We stopped at his place on South Beach, where I went shopping in the neighborhood for a new dress. Beautiful tight and lovely.

Anything I wanted or needed he had ready.
CS
Thursday me and Lion met here at this cool fountain in the merrick Park Mall, Coral Gables



I saw a beautiful Furstenberg jacket I want while waiting.

and went to Bill Baggs State park. Look a Gecko!:





We ate Durian, Guava, Avocados, coconut ( he chews it and spits out and then we see ants carrying stuff away), watermelon, Papaya














Saturday after going To Clyde's to get Mameys we ate wih pleasure!! I had a Mamey smoothie too.


Before we left he stopped by Brickell, at this tower on the water, downtown Miami.

I was surprised when to the guards Lion said his name , room number and "residence".

I waited while a valet drove me into parking place while he checked his mail...and collected rent from a ruthless trust fund baby and his wife who lives there doing nothing, he walked in on them in bed .




He said he is getting a place in the gables and checked out these places when we drove by on miracle mile. That would be so amazing, closer to me to hang out.

We stopped at his place on South Beach, where I went shopping in the neighborhood for a new dress. Beautiful tight and lovely.

Anything I wanted or needed he had ready.

may 17

learn



Yesterday I took a half day and ran some errands. Got some bio friendly laundry detergent.



Lion swims for his lunch in the ocean everyday so I went to south beach and watched him do laps.

I saw all these tropical fish, a school, right up to the shore and I was so agog. He said they are everywhere and said, " Like what is that over there" and pointed to a huge black thing swimming in the water like a big ray or big black monster.. I refused to swim but I meditated...to the wind with my heart.

He brought me a bag of my fave NES BERRY fruit and some Neem sticks to do my teeth with.



Went to his place where I saw his new painting



Watched him eat a handful of neem leaves..also bowls of Dulse, habanero, cayenne and lemon juice.


He is on a mission to kill all the bad bacteria and stuff in his body. I am learning. Keep it in check.

He gave me an entire papaya.

He had meetings to go to so he dropped me off in financial district and gave me 60 dollars just like that and I tried to refuse but I took it.

Went to library and studied hieroglyphics and can write in it now.

Called in sick to work.

I got stuck in a rainstorm in Coral Gables. I was scared, they are scary, like mini hurricanes. It rains all the time now and the other day I saw palm trees go down in South Beach.

I went home bought organic strawberries, bananas, mangos, cherries, etc etc..

I am thawing a Durian Now.

I am drinking avocado, medjool dates, the big fresh organic kind, and haitian mango, the best mango, small yellow, SMOOTHIE.

A Mamey is ripening on my desk, a farmer gave me as gift here.

I have two of Lion's Machetes , for his coconuts, in my bag, to have sharpened here at the farm. Nervous carrying them around.

 


Loved lined break
I bought the Self Aware universe last night at Barnes and Nobles with my membership card..




I got there and waited for him in his lobby with smiling security guards, little waterfalls, pink tiles and art deco couches.

He met me ,in his car outside, top down, and he looked so healthy, he said I looked cute. He smiled , I saw him looking at me thru corners of my eyes. Felt his smile, his blue tanned warm radiance of health.

I was wearing a silky black dress. I am a little tanned.

We talked about Canada , where he is from ( he talks with accent like says HOSE funny)

He had been fasting on coconut water

We went to Wild oats. Looked at health Books, laughed and talked some more about them.

Ran into a blonde girl there who asked us if we go to the raw food market. We chatted about watermelon disconcertingly.

Later he said she was a big flirt with him at the market.

Came back and I made chopped fruits in Avocado mash with Strawberries, Passion fruit, Guavas, Mangos, Papaya and his Thai coconut flesh marinated in Vanilla bean.

The passion fruit made it so yummy and the guavas gave it fruit perfume.





He ate a papaya with his hands. Opened coconuts

He talked about his grandfather and how when his wife died he wanted to die and he found meaning in life again.

In between somewhere he reached, grabbed and kissed (me over my hair) and we stood stolen and kind, there in his dim fancy lighted kitchen embracing. My hands down his back, his hands on my neck.

Filled emotional holes and gaping hearts. Expression, magnets, heat, fire.
It was sweet and loving and warm.

We moved away and joked that it was therapy and I said humans need to be touched all the time, he said,

"When you are like me, and never get touched and at Dance class someone offers you a cheek, it is the best thing"..



He made a big salad for himself, Parsley , Greens, Onions, Curry, Garlic etc..



Listened to music, love songs and Jazz like, " Take 5 " or " The girl from Ipanema"

He has some leather pillows I cringe from, but he likes leather, italian leather wallet and stuff, but I keep my animal activist mouth quiet.
He got all these sprouts and Wakame to give to his jamaican tropical fruit supplier.

Had Mamey smoothies with dates for breakfast.

May 21
beach
Friday night I don't remember much except Lion wanted me to go to a party on Lincoln Road but I was sleeping.

Saturday I worked the market just to socialize and eat.

My friend Sparkle is so cool, I love her. She is so unique. I listened to her talk, she spilled her heart out, it was so great. All night I told other girls how special she was at a party I was at later. She is going to Milwaukee for college. She said to come visit her. I will, when I get chance to go to Milwaukee. She is so talented.

Ever get excited when you find out how talented an aquaintance is? Well I was, i saw her paintings and I freaked out. i did. I fell off my chair. I see so many things in her artwork.

Reminds me of when I was her age, just leaving high school, confused, bitter, angry, but so passionate about things and that inner frustration that tags behind your innermost dreams torturing, hungry for love..everything I feel now, times 100.

She will make it, she will get it, she has no clue now how gorgeous her life ahead will be. Her world is before her..all she has to do is pick.


I had all these juices and strawberry avocado salad. I have pics I will post here later when I can upload, I can't now, at a mall..

I left this durian at work I was gonna buy, regretted it later!

Lion brought his sister by who was visiting. I said she was beautiful. Blonde blue eyes, super perky..

later, she came up to me and asked where the bread was, totally lost and desperate..

( Just like my sister is, all this exaggerated, " Oh my god, No more raw food, I need meat!" Drama.)

Lion said later she bought all this milk and cheese and pigged out.

He told her where cheese came from, she is like, "it's JUST CHEESE!"

Imagine if one never saw cheese before and told what it was , sick animal's body fluids, how it was made, what disease and drugs were given, people would freak out.

Later I went to Party on South Beach on Lenox avenue. There were all these tiki torches leading the way into a back garden. A bunch of preppy guys standing there with whoite bleached smiles...later all trying to figure out what to offer me, drinks, seltzer water, bottled oj?

Some walked up to me saying the most ridiculous things to try and start converstaion.

I was so distant. I wore a beautiful tight white dress and gorgeous shoes and necklace.

poisoned people, couldnt even talk straight. Smiles and brazen communication..a little too personal. Crass, bold, touchy feely..

I met this girl, alot of girls lately on south beach look super hot but up close they look Like MONETS, like in Clueless movie:

"""
Do you think she's pretty?
Cher: No, she's a full-on Monet.
Tai: What's a monet?
Cher: It's like a painting, see? From far away, it's OK, but up close, it's a big old mess. Let's ask a guy. Christian, what do you think of Amber?
Christian: Hagsville.
Cher: See?

""""

Anyways I was talking to her and she was talking about how Miami beach is destroying all these protected buildings and also how she saw her apartment in a 1960's movie filmed in miami beach and it was so cool to see your own living room in a movie.

She had a nice dog she was petting. She wa stan , had on Miami beach clothes and jewelry, you know the look, and was amicably boozy.

I wrote some poems in a friends place nearby, like this one below, and then Lion showed up. A little possesive when this drunk guy said something to me. Mumbled about toxic people.We left.

poem
""
Joking he said,
"I love you
but beyond that you are one
parading around me in my memory.

But I have always had you
night and day
forever
you've always been mine
and always be
I love you
Carresses and tears
I share
you are one, united
Elsewhere loved
miraged, blue
swoillen with toungue
I carress you in darkness
one past"""

We walked around south beach. He held my hand all night, had his arm around my shoulders.

We stopped and hugged many times and just held each other.

We got to the beach, we hung around Nikki Beach but didnt want to sit.

We walked past Nikki beach and instantly we both stated that it was better, the energy was better it was alive, the ocean was pure clean good and fun, not a bunch of toxic people and it's music.

In the dark in front of the ocean we lay there staring at the stars. We saw some people laughing, walking by, this one guy kept taking photographs of himself in the dark, we would see the flash go off.

He wanted to go to Raleigh, Delano, Shore club..he wanted to sit by a pool...but I didint have my ID.

but then what would we do there..?
he doesnt even drink water.

We would just hang out with insanely rich people buying drinks for 18 dollars and be our own islands.

I felt a psychic connection once really strong that night.

He looked at me, in my eyes and I in his, and we were communicating!

I remember saying to myself, this is it, we have a connection now, it's like eye talk or brain speaking.

I sincerely want to be psychic..it's not images or whatever, it is just being able to read people.

Without language I try to read him, his mood, his feelings.. I do this with my fingertips, on his skin..I can FEEL..energy..

My hands on his back I am reading, I am opened up to him, I absorb him.. I let him in.

Mostly he is happy person. I told him, and he mumbles..sometimes he mumbles alot..and it's all mumbo jumbo..about depression, past relationships, etc.. I let him go on and eventually he stops.

Anyways he has a surprise for me Tuesday, he may have me take the day off. He keeps saying I will be surprised.

Eating watermelon, papayas, peaches etc

I slept in til 1pm. I wanted to , I said to myself I want to rest all day and recuperate..

I laid out by the pool which was lime green from all these chemicals put in it.
i realized that is not water, because if it was, since it is not running water, it will stagnate and get algae and stuff, it will rot like gutter water..so its not water, its a chemical solution, like alcohol, that nothing can live in..

so why touch it?

I thought of that reading my book and sweating buckets.

Hot sun, makes me sweat. I turned over and sweated more and got all this dirt stuck to me.

I wound up cleaning my room and bagging my laundry and sweeping. Put all my documents in suitcases.

I have a little plastic dolphin that lights up I love so much. Like a nightlight.

I am at a mall. I am going to look at books in Barnes and Nobles.

Lion wants "Hungry Planet What the world eats"

and I might buy it for him.

Lion texted me a while ago that he was thinking of last night.