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I went to see The Fast Runner at Lion's last night.


These were the real thing, Eskimos.

The people were like wild animals, their teeth all animal like and white yet broken and like fangs... , their jet black rough thick long hair, their face tattooes, Their animal jaw jewelry and bear skin coats and blankets.

You saw them ,with love, feed babies raw bloody Walrus hearts and skin birds with such skill and devour it..with knives made of bones and tools made from animals..and everythign they use..just casually doing things like beating dog sled teams and even killing a real rabbit on film and then eatin git.all bloody and raw. You were with them making igloos, cutting the ice and hung out with them inside of it all night long, telling stories and singing and little dramas. Also macho games..

Also I saw how they had lamps with blubber and I heard them sing, play games, wrestle and even eskimo sex.

Its funny, it could have been 2000 years ago..men everywhere have the same problems, women, murder, rape, family, etc..

and to punish evil, they banish you from the tribe.


Lion brought me platters of Papaya and Durian.

Still Platonic. It was a different moodlast night. Caresses, hugs, and calmed down conversations.

I am very happy. I love hanging out with him, he has very good taste in things. He dresses really nice. He dresses stylish.

We watched about Bruce Lee a documentary..wow, Bruce Lee is so awesome, an amazing orietal. KUNG FU, one inch punch and push ups on one finger tip.


I want so much, I want to see and do beautiful things.

I want class, style, money, wealth and beautiful clothes.

I like traveling and want to see the best of the world. I also want my friends to be around me until I die.I want to feel 100% of what a woamen should feel. the best of the best. I want the highest, I want the cleanest, I want romance and I want love.

I want to have meaningful relationships, I want to feel loved. I want to love, I want to devour life..all that there is and I want to ask for the most and get it.

My beautiful Horse sent me an email..tinged with despair, so lovely to read anyways, He knows how to have romance , he does.

//

I love you pretty girl
you are a dream
and I am with you
I feel you in my heart always/

Went to Lion's he picks me up ,he hands me, ready to eat, so yummy, and frozen and wrapped up, my fave.. Durian !!!!

which hit the spot. I was happy. I looked good and felt wonderful.

We drove to the nude beach in Haulover..

There was an old nude man, " the gatekeeper" as we called him, who followed us on this deserted beach at sunset , it seems he was turned to face us wherever we were BEGGING us to look at his shaved peepee, it was creepy, but funny too..

Some people were laying out sunbathing after the sun had set.

I meditated on the lifeguard tower, with a blanket around my head and dressed

We drove to his place and watched RIDING GIANTS, which was about big wave surfing

Amazing.. amazing, amazing movie... 60 foot waves? Surfers d ropped by helicopters onto them? Risking lives, dying..trapped in rocks by the leash.. these surfers did this..An amazing love story in their with Laird's ( the best surfer in the world)dad and mother....cool music too.

Surfers have the best bodies I think.


Look at this avocado.



I also ate Mangos, Durian and a Papaya chopped up,

I mixed with Lime juice.
Anyways for lunch he ate seaweed with hot stuff, cayenne pepper, curry, habaneros etc.. in coconut water, he is so weird. He loves his hot stuff..




I asked him to take me to a salsa club so I could watch him dance. I did, he was great, he twirls thsi girl every which way..and moves well.

It was so much fun, It was so beautiful, there were real dancers there doing all these moves and footwork..also the star came out in people, and they were performances right in front of me in my chair. I saw lovers gaze at each other and man, they were so sexy.

I will never forget.

Here is one couple I watched, there were so many good ones..handsome cuban people..
like Cuban nostalgia..



Lion talking to somebody



He is in Toronto right now. I went with him to the airport. We talked alot. He has to go to Canada every six months..something about immigration. Also about work. His partners are up there.

I may go to NYC for a few days..and from there he will get me plane ticket to Toronto. Or ticket from Miami to Toronto.

He wants to show me this state park up there. The one he was in those photos for. He texts me all the time, what he is thinking and stuff.



He is blonde and blue eyed, my dad is too...


Times are strange..



Ate a Persimmon today, a hacha one. I might make smoothies.

I took time off work. My boss MEAN DRAGON yelled and cornered me and I don't like to be treated like that, it was scary the things she was saying. She was frightening, bullying me.

Lion doesnt want me to work there..he told me he has painting commissions for me also.. He doesnt want me to be treated like that and says I need to always JUMP FORWARD

I send my love out to MBH. Presently, my imaginary friend who I speak to all the time in confidence. I love you always..and its in spirit. tears and kisses. So much is changed, I am so new, I am solitary most of the time..just me..alone alot and reading.

washington DC 4th of july
I am in Washington DC, outside a little in place called Tyson's Corner in Vienna VA.

Everyone here wears suits..everyone, It is so cool, I love suits, and I love white european looking men..

and every guy has a wedding band, there is a Nordstroms, a Tiffany's and expensive car dealerships everywhere.

There is lush green trees..lush maples and oaks..street called Lawyer's street and two WHOLE FOODS.

I am here and I brought my travel blender, my Tribest one and make tropical fruit and date smoothies and read books and watch tv. That's all I eat.

Avocados, Dates, Papaya, mango, oranges& grapefruit ( I peel and eat)

I went to the SMITHSONIAN museum of Natural History and saw Dinosaur bones, gems, Marie Antoinette diamond earrings, meteorites, Hope Diamond, stuffed animals and bones and alll sorts of bugs.

I saw the Capitol building and I saw an Obelisk on the Mall.

I don't talk to Lion Anymore, I actually have long forgotten him.
He was mean one day and I broke it off..also the day after I read this profile on him :

http://www.miami.com/mld/miamiherald/living/14858611.htm

I don't know. He can be mean to himself. Maybe some day he will apoplogize instead of texting me like nothing is the matter.

MBH , yes, he is my friend again and I am so grateful for all his advice. He is the smartest person I know.. All the advice he gives me I take. We will be friends forever for sure, we are more too..way more.

It was nice, we have been texting since and had some clandestine encounters. Raw and heavy just like love spills out its wine when the table shakes.

I will have a new lAPTOP when I get back to Miami he is getting me, I put money in his bank loan payment for it..

with a laptop.. I can be on the computer all day. Just kidding.

I ordered some books so when I get home I will get them too..

also I am getting a new apartment..downtown Miami, in Coral Gables, where I love! All by myself and I can do what ever I want there and have a beautfiul bed surrounded by books.

That's all I want..

just a nice bed with books and my fruit..
and room to make passionate love in.

I don't work at the Organic Farm office anymore..I will work on weekends..Me and Tracy, well, it came to a head the last day I was there and my stress levels.. well, they rose so high and she was in my face and I said I quit..my instinct was to run away. She screams too much



I am happy. I wish I could go to Cairo and see Camels and ancient hieroglyphs. I was tempted to buy a tickets to go..but thought against it. I want to go.

I CAN WRITE IN HIEROGLYPHICS!!!!! I CAN.. yes, My friend L called me a nerd, but I was writing my diary in them and well..only nerds do that I guess. It's so cool.

I use unilateral symbols for now and I do a little bi's.

I will be in ICELAND in a few weeks!!!horseback riding and having a mysterious adventure..alone with myself, who will be my imaginary lover this time? I wonder? unforgettable moments.

I have nbot the slightest clue what to do there, excpet go to museums and take hot spring water bath and go to a couple of icelandicmusic shows, I have always thought icelandic music was cool..weird..like that band MUM or Sigur ros..


YOU ARE SO SPECIAL
YOUR LIFE IS COLORED LIKE ROSES
AND THERE ARE SO MANY MYSTERIES TO FALL IN LOVE WITH
THERE IS SO MUCH PASSION FOR YOU TO FEEL
MANY MANY MOUNTAINS TO CLIMB ATOP OF..
ALWAYS YOU ARE ACCESSIBLE EVEN ON TOP OF A MOUNTAIN.

YOU ARE TOUCHING EVERYONE'S LIFE YOU MEET.

LOVE REIGNS WITH IN YOU AND YOU HEAL.
YOU HAVE BECOME TOP NOTCH DESIRABLE.

yOUR HEART WILL MELT GOLD.
YOUR MIND WILL FREEZE SENSE
YOUR KISS WILL HYPNOTIZE
MOUNTAINS WILL MELT, THEY WILL TOPPLE OVER FOR YOU..

JULY !)
Also I am moving in to this apartment on Anastasia avenue today in Coral Gables.

I had for breakfast a Mamey avocado and medjool date and water smoothie..two of them.

Last night I went to return and get a new laptop.

I get along so well with Mbh , we are best buddies forever. We went to get mamey juice and mameys and went to his office and did computer stuff for my new laptop. he drove me around and stuff.

Before I went to DC i painted myself into a portrait I had around of MBH for several years. i like it better now because I see myself on a beach with him having fun.I did that with another painting too, added some of my friends in bckground so its not a lonely portrait.



My photos from DC Museum and stuff


the Hope Diamond:















I feel good today. Things are really nice. Mbh and I are planning to Tahiti and /or Prague in oct-nov. it will be so cool. I am so happy we are finally traveling together again. it has been a while. He is my best friend. He gives me advice alot and gets me the cheapest deals on things. When i SIGNED A LEASE, he looked it over and corrected some mistakes, very important ones...

Everything I have wanted I am getting now. I am focused and have willpower.

These are the books I am reading:



 


July 13
Deadr Diary, Today I arrived in Dupont Circle Washington DC.

It is a beautiful day. There are trees and statues. Trees with white flowers and houses with iron gargoyle sculptures on the entrance.

I had a mamey from miami blended with Haas avocados and two medjool dates

I am so happy, I feel inwards and out I am fulfilling my dreams. I am exploring. I feel I have beautiful things in my life.

I do. i am so lucky, my friends are awesome, they deserve awards.

I have on my computer desktop the Napoleon Diamond necklace I saw at the smithsonian museum.

you know I never had a diamond in my life..well i dont wear metal anymore so i dont know how I would wear diamonds if i dont like metal , as in the necklace itself or eearing or ring,touching my skin, but they sure are pretty.

I feel good, I do, I feel clean and beautiful.
I may watch some videos online or go out and see the neighborhood

Its raining, I smell like Tunisian coconut oil I tried on at Whole foods in Dupont circle.

. I bought Burt Bee's lipstick called SORBET and some organic grapes, some avocados and a box of fresh figs.

JULY 15

Dupont Circle

I am in washington DC and I love it here.
I saw the White House as I was getting groceries from whole foods. I turned my head and there it was and a little to the left I saw the wahingstin memorial.
I read memoirs of cora pearl. Such a graphic detailed book of life way back when in France and about Prince napoleon and life, daily life.
I am following the right path, I am clean as far as karma. I imagine something and I want it into my reality.
I am good and everything is working the way my mind bends.

Its up to me to imagine my life eve further down the road and also to be thankful and enjoy where I am at.

Avocado and fig smoothies and some with banana too all day and organic grapes

I miss miami here is a photo of me