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sep 16-21
This is my first post here, I guess I am looking for a change. I usually blogged on LiveJournal http://coconutflower.livejournal.com/
maybe I want a change.
Well, anyways it is fun and I need a new change.
Who do I talk to when I blog? I don’t know, it could be myself, my optimal self, my ghost self. who knows, I don’t, God? I thought about what could god be, a man? a woman, well who knows, is god my brain? and is it true when you ask the universe stuff it answers?
I thought about all this in the grocery store .
I bought a ton of avocados and mangos and some concord grapes.
Look wild peacocks, they hang out in trees
I eat really purely. I aim to feel euphoric all the time. i wouldlike that.
Lately I have been thinking that I need to have more of a relationship with The (my) self. I do.
I told a friend that we as people seem to look for ourselves in movies or actresses, models, magazine and movie fantasies, but if we are too busy wanting to be these people, then who is wanting to be us?
Who would want to be us if we don’t know who us is,
so we should create our own selves and then we can be stars and models and actresses and famous.
hahaha
I would like to be pure and be truly beautiful to myself, i wouldlike to dream of the best things.
I would like to shut my eyes and feel love and beautfy.
I would like to create a perfect world to live in, I would like to invent it and I also want the best luck.
17th
2 pm smoothie with 1 Mango cut up , two cheeks first and then cubed, turned inside out and
cut and then whats left diced and ice/water
4pm a large half Papaya , cut in half, deseeded and scooped out with a lime, cut in
half and juiced with lemon press into it and water /ice
5pm orange juice from Jamba juice
9:00 pm an Orange and some Concord Grapes
11:00 pm Juice of a small seedless watermelon ( blended in vitamix)
2:30 am Haas avocado
I would like to wake up and be in paradise and everything goes as I wish it.
The thing is we are and we dont even know it, our thoughts create our universe and in our thoughts we need to think paradise and perfetcion and just a big beautiful beach.
I have been spending time in bed, recuperating, feeling better. Watching movies and emails on my hd tv screen .
would like to buy a large watermelon, but how am I going to carry it to my house?
I slept well last night but kept having to wake up and drink water. After I have a drink I sleep so well.
I was going to go to the Venetian pool 
this morning and sunbathe, I need a tan, I do, I am white again. I love going in a bikini and lying in the sun. South Beach is a bus ride, but when I am all the way out there I spend money on smoothies and water.
I got this sudoku puzzle on my google homepage http://www.sudokupuzz.com/
try a puzzle but if you have never done this before, make sure you pick VERY EASY..
I found a pearl choker necklace which looks hot on me,
I am downoading THE SECRET which is this great documentary on the universe and how you truly get what you want
I fell asleep listening to this NATURA program, rain, waves, crickets all different sounds, ocean waves, I felt really good.
I need a self hypnosis tape to play all night telling me I am going to be rich, famous and powerful.
I am downloading Masters of Opera. I want to listen to Opera at night too. I love tragic stuff.
12pm a smoothie with 2 bananas and a large starfruit
4pm avocado with spoon, haas
430pm a smoothie with a banana, peeled orange and a mango
5:15 pm Haas avocado with spoon
745 pm a smoothie with banana, peeled orange, avocado, and passion fruit scooped out
9:00pm juice of half a watermelon, some muscadine grape
I was going to munch on some Pico de gallo but as I left my house I felt such amazing euphoria I wanted it to continue. I went for mango instead but the grocery store was out.
There are many alternatives to tht Pico stuff .
sep 19
12 pm some muscadine grapes
2pm a banana
3pm and orange juice from Jamba juice
530pm smoothie of cactus fruit and a peeled orange, watermelon chunks
9 pm orange juice
930 pm half a large florida avocado mashed with lime juice
I felt really euphoric ridong my bike tonight, Like I was on air.
the whole city of Coral Gables looked so beautiful, it was alive and I felt so much love energy coming from me. Vividly.
I felt so in love with things. I did. Everything was so nice, my thoughts were so clear and almost like breath.
Yesterday I felt euphoric in the supermarket as well, I remember it felt so good to walk down this particular aisle . I felt really tall, thin and floating, beautiful.
Although almost with such clarity, I could smell all the chemicals in the different bottles and I was headed straight for the meat department, I tried to get a reading from the meat, like feel something, but nothing,
I knew how disgusting and horrific those lives were lived and the holocaust pretty much..the murder,
it is too ugly for me to think on, I just past it all ,headed for the produce section.
Going to Ballet class was something too, I drank two bottles of water before glass and one in the middle.
It was so beautiful, everything was so easy, simple, here I was just feeling the art of Ballet,
here I was doing it without staring at someone’s feet, here I was just doing it , just thinking about me.
I realize how I want to better myself.
I am going to Switzerland in STYLE.
I am going to start really loving myself.
I t is sooo cool how I can depend on ME!!!, My brain is amazing, My brain is my sugar daddy!!
21st
12 midnight I had an orange 2 am a peach 8 am two bananas 930 orange juice 1230 pm bowl of papaya
chunks and lime juice 2:30 two avocados mashed with lime juice 330pm smoothie haas avocado,
2 bananas and juice 1 lime 4pm 2 avocados rode my bike 14 miles and listened to Opera on my Ipod Nano. Watched
Casablanca.
ok I slipped up a little with some greens, its just I went on some dates and well, I had to order something,
2pm a salad of baby greens, peas, golden raisins w/tahini curry dressing ( hey at least my safety net is raw food and not cooked!)
4pm smoothie with banana and orange.
730 a banana
8pm oj small
945pm lots of watermelon juice
2 am more watermelon juice
1230 pm watermelon juice
2pm mango and tomato slices on a small bed of iceberg lettuce/cabbage rom restaurant with some mango vinaigrette
330 fruit salad of yellow kiwis and mangos and bananas
5pm avocado and banana smoothie
ps I am thinking about doing without avocados, I just bought so many I have to use them up.. I feel really
good, almost like I have this inner path, when i do not know how to react, I shall look inside and I will follow
my bliss, so to speak, its higher than bliss though, bliss is more carnal, this is and truly feels like the way, the highest path I am to take in every decsion and choice.
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