I am in the mood for romance. I am.

I was thinking today, there is nothing more interesting than love, sex or romance, everything else is boring.

I was even thinking I should relate to people , well, not physically, but sexual in a way that I speak to them with the energy of a lover. Possible one, always.
I would need to be disciplined tough.. like looking thru life with sex colored glasses.

After all, I can’t just sleep with everyone, but I can imagine it with everyone I speak to. As an outlet for all my energy.

It would make life less boring and more interesting.

I would like to meet people, go places and see things. I would like my best friends to be by my side too, but well, they can’t always be.

Maybe it is my secret wish to die and be dead, is this feeling..of just disappearing into love..this passionate erasing of my mind.

TODAY I HAD:
Zucchini hummous- Zucchini, Tahini, Lemon juice, garlic, parsley ,salt and spices.

It didn’t taste like hummus but it was ok. Some Nori squares to eat it with.

I had a quarter watermelon.

Cucumber, celery and spinach juice.

Green Smoothie made with two mangos and some parsley.

Late dinner: an orange

I want to eat more fruit, I do. I will get more  My digestion wants to be non existant feeling again. I am just going thru a stage.

I want to get away, I want to sleep forever. I do, I want to walk into the ocean. I have felt like that when I meditate on the beach sometimes, like I just want to walk in, and feel no pain..

 I want to go into your arms and sleep and never wake up. I want to sleep inside your heartbeat, where there is love and tears to hold on to.

I want to be everywhere. I do, I want to be where the noise is loud and the lights are bright. I want to be where everyone is smiling.

A friend came over late at night, and we watched BROKEN FLOWERS. It was interesting, I want my life to be like that, a journey into people’s lives, random and with no expectation. I was gonna go to Fairchild Tropical Gardens and take photos, but I didn’t get to go,  I was sooooooo pissed!!

I brushed my teeth with a Neem stick, oh it feels good, my teeth feel clean.

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28th

I love you so much. I have forgotten for a moment who I am here for, I have, and I just now remembered. I give you a lot of support. You are amazing. I hold you so softly until my skin warms yours. My body is left here , warm, desiring your touch. I wonder what you are thinking,  I wonder what your heart feels like? I surrender to you, I love you and am your slave, I give you everything. I give you the world.

I want you to have everything and have exactly what you need. I want to listen and feel what you feel.

I think you should realize your life is different now, then it was a long time ago and you should be careful who you try to contact, like old best girl friends.  Forget them,

Be here in the present. Be loved and adored. You are so special and everything you do is really one of a kind. I want to give you a hug.

I want to know if you are ok, if you feel happy or need anything.

Stay bright,  stay hydrated, be beautiful and defintely be exclusive.

You will find many beautiful days where there is noone to trust but yourself and only you, you are an island and anyone you love actually steals your energy. You have to come to terms with the fact that the only true love is in you.
28th

I now have my own maid!!

I am hiring a maid today to clean my apartment , every few weeks,  very reasonable. I am so thankful , my boss found her for me. I told him , “I need a maid!” I didn’t really mean, literally.. but I guess , see, I always get what I ask for..

II want you to be better than everyone else, I want you to win and always be the one who is the happiest. I want you to have a life that is supported by yourself. I want you to be the most beautiful thing I ever set eyes on, I would like to fall into your eyes and just stare.

Things are really looking up for me. My shipment came in the office today. It’s for my trip.

 I am glad karma is good. I do the right thing always. I am glad I know who to follow.

After work I am having a special night. I don’t have to clean anymore!!!!!!!!!!

I made a cacao drink yesterday with thai coconut, cacao, pumpkin pie spice and yacon syrup

this is our water tower in the Gables

Christmas in the Gables

 

My handsome boss took me to dinner and a movie last night, I just got a tomato salad. He dropped me off. He gave me some good advice on my Europe vacation..he is the sweetest person.

Today I had dinner, with my boss’s clients, in Coral Gables, while he was discussing business.

I had a nice salad, the greens were so marinated and good. I felt at peace and I commented on how clean the place was, and I can’t wait for my place to be as spotless

He had this dish of two chunks of tuna stacked to look like shark fins holding up together a net of crisped cheese over, on top of a mound of black rice in a circle , and underneath two different sauces in different colors..

I downloaded, ” Vanity Fair ” , for free, to my new Sony Reader. I learned how to take books online and put them on my reader.

We watched “You , Me and Dupree” at my house. 

I kind of need to get some sleep , even though my maid will be here in the morning, I don’t want her to think I am total dumpy girl, I have all this thai coconut shell over my sink I want to clean before she gets here..

I had fresh  Orange juice today too.

I am a bad fruitarian lately, enjoying my sliding..

Eating all fruit are for when everything needs to be perfect.

I am really happy tonight. I looked really good, without makeup looking good, although I had a ton. I glowed with warmth. I had a good personality and laughed whenever any one talked to me and I would wink at people, for no reason..

Having a clean place will really boost my mood.
I am happy to walk into me, I AM.

I know tomorrow will be a great day.

I am so happy you made it thru today, I am so happy it was so graceful. I am happy how it ended. How smart you are. How you can be on top of everything and always win. I look to find the best person inside you, the top. I will find that the top , of you, will be maginifcent, breathtaking.

I am sitting here naked, as always.
I want to disappear into books I download or buy.  I do, I want my life just to be imaginary stories in my brain. I am a little bit of a hermit lately.

I want to make recipes again.

What am I going to eat in Paris next week? Should I bring my vitamix and make green smoothies? I can’t always eat sprouts at the Raw food restaurant. I should just eat cacao, dates and fruit and maybe a green smoothie a day so I don’t have any cravings.

I love your beauty. I do, it shines.

I wrote on a napkin at work today :

 I want you to be clean and totally filled up with friends, family and support.
I want to give you the world! I want to fill you up with joy!
I am the light. I am happy, I will give myself everything. I will spoil you. I will love you. I will worship you, stare at you and totally adore who you are.

It was inspired thought.

I wish my hair was fuller, bigger, blonder. I wish I had a natural sun tan. It has been a little chilly lately.

29

So far today fresh squeezed OJ

/Cacao stuffed medjool dates/

Cranberry* apple* swiss chard* ginger * juiced/

Chopped organic cherry Tomatoes with Tarragon , Oil, salt, Ginger.
Made these for later ( inspired by Naked Chocolate)

Kumquats scooped out stuffed with blended: dates, soaked almonds, yacon syrup, raw cacao powdered. Sprinkled with hemp seeds.

 I dehydrated some, YUMMMMY

Stuffed Avocados for dinner .

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Wearing a nice white dress . Very low cut, ties at the waist. 

 Alot of my clothes have fruit , coconut stains on them. Especially avocado.

 Tonight I am making dinner in home 

I took a walk and took some photos.

  

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I think this is nature’s way of saying, Warning, let this go. FORGET. And I did.

I walked around the golf course, took photos. Watched people play tennis. It was a beautiful night.

 

 

This is for you

 

I looked at you today and my eyes could not believe what they saw

I was afraid

Yet I know that deep in your heart

you really are the beauty that you dream about.

You cannot see it, you cannot write about it, You have to just accept it..

It communicates in coincidences, miracles and thoughts.

it communicates with what is going on in your outside world.

Life is always talking to you.

Life is telling you exactly what is the right track to be on, and when things are bad, it leaves clues.

I bet today you had some very vivid moments, of bliss and peace. I bet you were outside when it happened and you felt safefty and satisfaction.

I know about your random cravings, they drive you mad.

give in to them, Why not?

You only live once!!!

30

SqueezedOj/ Cacao stuffed dates/Grapes/Rainier Cherries

My boss got these tickets, as a gift from one of his clients, to see a HEAT vs. Detroit Pistons basketball game tonight, and out of all his jock buddies he wants to take me!!! and I am sure they will be there too!I am so impressed, I am. He said, “ Don’t get used to it!!! “.

He said once in a great while I deserve to see a game ( it’s very special these games to him and his buddies)

I know that the girls that go to these games are super hot girls so I have to dress very sexy but also normal..

I got some fruitarian inspiration today, thank goodness. I need some. I got on some old boards I used to post on and was reading others daily food lists and it inspired me. These advanced fruitarians eat stuff  like grapes and watermelon all day.  They talk about how GOOD they feel all day long andhow much euphoria they have and stuff, I totally miss it, I

miss having a galvanic relationship with

people.

If I want something, I will have it, but I

want to eat mostly fruit, high fruit..juicy fruit, fruit

juices, Blended fruit, etc.. It makes my life so much simpler. It

does.
If I feel I need something I throw in some greens in my juice

or smoothie,

Wild Chimpanzees eat as much greens as fruit so I am willing to have some. I want to be aligned with nature.

Discipline comes with time and consistency and following goals..I need to be focused, strong and inspired.

I want soooo bad to be pure. to live pure…I want to be young, as young

as a child.

Fruitarians to me are the most beautiful, skinniest and prettiest. For real. I have never seen more love and self reliance.

I have always felt a leaning. They have  digestive heaven.

I want my life to go smoothly and I want to be sensitive to every message out there.

Today I was riding my bike and was wondering, Quantum Physics says this…Maybe the outside world we see, maybe that is US. Ourselves.. Maybe our surroundings are our mind. Does that make sense?

 Is a wall a wall when we are not there? For example..but that is rather a vague example..

Maybe our whole life is a conversation…speak to your surroundings, see if they talk back in ways beyond our simple language, I am going to try.

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I went to the Game. I am blonde now, a week ago I did it.

I was on the video screen too.

Tomorrow is law library day for mbh. Pooey. .



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Date: July 30, 2006 10:26PM

Zucchini Pasta with Marinara

peel zucchini squash with a vegetable peeler, resulting in shapes similar to fettucine. or process the squash through a spiralizer for different pasta varieties.
in a food processor, blend half of a red or yellow bell pepper with three medium tomatoes. pour marinara over zucchini. slice thin rounds of chiogga beets and cut into matchsticks for garnish.