I detoxed a little after my last entry. Blemishes I have had all my life rolled off my face, even teeny tiny whiteheads under the skin rolled off with my fingers .
 I was in the shower rubbing black greasy balls off my body. Where I had my backpack on , I got red marks and, well, all sorts of emotional stuff, but I felt so good. On fruit, I absolutely feel like I look the best.

To me anything other than fruit is dangerous. I need to stay away. 2007 will all be fruit and we’ll see how it is after the year is up. I cannot function on raw food, we know that, I have tried and spend months in bed bloated, sleeping and lazy.

I literally cannot even prepare food anymore that is not fruit. Or be around meat dishes.

I have faith in European fruit. Its very very nice.
So someone in my state, advanced whatever, needs to stay away from stereo meals and just live and eat simply. My moods are so unbeliveably heavenlike , controlled of course, and pure when I eat just fruit. I get along with everybody and have all this immense stuff happen to me and get things done. Also miracles happen and coincidences that are uncanny.

Once you get used to it, it is tough going back without revolt in the body. I still feel very very sick. I might for a few days. My glands are swollen.

Almost like the food stays in the stomach and turns to acid.

When will I learn? It takes forever to get it right and these bad feelings will help me, telling me it is not worth it.

 I give up so much when I eat bad. More than digestion. I give up opportunities and chances. Cooked/ processed raw or not , Food is a big big addiction.

So from now on until the end of 2007 just fruit. Mono fruit and maybe a little stereo. Like this morning I had mango and avocado cubed up. I like to add cherries or berries too sometimes. I like smoothies sometimes.

ok I have a little cacao bean addiction but honestly that does not interfere with me, I wrap the raw unfermented beans in dates.

I also hid all my raw food recipe books which are everywhere. I look at them on the toilet and see myself making stuff for friends.

To new beginnings.

I used to be so scared of fruitariansim, when learning by experience, it is the only way. I also know personally 3 people who have done it 15-20 years and like 4 more that have done it 10-20 years who have written books and they are totally totally fine and very sane.

Of course , I have to admit, there are little idiosyncracies of fruitarians , especially in Germany , that are weird to me, like Not using paper because its from trees. But I am never going to be weird like that. LOL. We all have to live together and we are all one.

There is some guy out there who just ~made up~ a website about the dangers of fruitariansim, just because he was not successful at it and it says fruitarianism is dangerous, as if it was worse than cooked food, lol. Not true at all.

It scared me for years and other people on boards quote him all the time.

D. Wolfe said when he eats too much fruit he feels fungally. Maybe thats because of all the supplements he takes are being cleaned out. Its my idea.

Ok just like there are vegan weirdos there are fruitarian weirdos too. That does not mean anything. You have brains, think about the facts.

My friend said there was a study and vegetarians are 5 percent smarter than meat eaters but VEGANS are 5% less intelligent than meat eaters. How does that make sense? Milk and cheese do not make you smarter. For sure, its just vegans have more less than average fringe hippie burnouts attracted in the group.  We all know that. People are VERY afraid of different things.

It’s actually the diet that makes me feel the most normal. Is that bizarre or what?

I was looking at a photo of when I was at the tree of life doing phase 1, no fruit, just greens. I was so miserable and I was so fat. SO FAT! In disbelief,  I saw a picture, I would post it here now but its too incriminating! And all my friends were fat too, and we were all beautiful inside , I swear. I noticed alot of us fighting all the time, against each other.

So no, I don’t believe in the power of green so much unless I am coming off cooked food or sick with cancer. You can’t eat greens alone, without dressing or mixing it with fruit in a smoothie.

I know many fruitarians who eat some greens, and its ok, I will throw some in a smoothie sometimes or roll up mashed stuff in lettuce, no big deal..but salads? no.

I hate nuts, nuts are for people who can’t tell the difference in digestion, yet, after leaving cooked food behind.

My teeth feel the cleanest and look whitest after weeks of fruit. Plus they healed faster on fruit.

With nuts or other recipe junk I always got a film on them.

I must be a very special girl. I don’t think this is for everybody.

By the time my mom was my age she had her uterus removed, cysts, tumors, all sorts of almost diabetes sysmptoms. She could only eat certain foods. No sugar. She was sensitive to everything and still is a little

 So maybe it runs in the family my need to eat as pure as possible.

ALl my relatives in paraguay have had legs removed, all sorts of diseases with a million names, diabetes and stuff, they all eat white flour, sugar, beef, etc. My grandpop, sob, in the USA, had 6 heart attacks..and was driven to alcohol even as a minister in a church..He had a big belly.

 Its like the Pottenger cat sudy but with people. The cooked food cats all degenerated , cannibalistic and stopped producing. But when switched to raw, sometimes in one generation everything was healed.

I found these old photos of me from 2003-2005. Have  a laugh, I was raw and beginning lol

look at that ass

I like to pet alligators

This was on a raw food retreat with mom,

This was just starting the phase 1 live green cuisine, I actually got fatter than that.

fatter

This was my last week there, no sweet fruit for three months, sprouts, greens, nuts, coconut meat and wheatgrass. I did not cure anything or feel better or clean my blood, I was worse. Like 30 lbs heavier.

so there, reason number one why I like fruitarianism. LOL

Who is dat? Are those two babies?

Me back home with my sugarcane juices and mameys.

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dec 24

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