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FEB 13-18
mbh came over
I feel very warm and loved. I am changing too, I am. I am changing..into a very loving person.
All I have left now, are the ghosts still vibrating inside me.
We watched season 1 episode 1 of HEROES, oh it is awesome, about ordinary people with superpowers who are going to save the world..
Had Oj so far with some raw guacamole and some banana date mango smoothies. Chopped Papaya and lime juice on it.
Am wearing a satin flower print dress bought on South beach
We watched another Heroes ( great show!) episode and I made him a green drink with brocolli, kale and apples. My mom brough me the green stuff I don’t really like to eat.
It was the best sex I ever had, sensitivity never felt so good, dying never felt so beautiful. I am a martyr..a martyr to what I do not know, to love.. I am it’s sacrifice.. a part of a whole.., we were united, in desire….lust, love..
My Valentine’s day gift ( the best one I ever got)
He got me a bucket of exotic fruits! There is Canistel, tomatillos, sapotes, mameys, pineapple..chayotes, plums, papayas, mangos, berries, strawberries, fragrant guavas, etc..
WAY BETTER THAN FLOWERS!!
He rang my bell and ran and when I opened the door I was so happy. I was afraid at first, it was from one of my stalkers, but it wasn’t!/
FRUITARIAN ALLIGATOR, eating orange Originally uploaded by Suvine. I went to the everglades with ~, the hottest bigshot lawyer in Coral Gables, today. So much to tell. I will write about it once I get my work done. He took awesome pics with my camera. Amazing ones.We fed the alligators orange, papaya and mango. We hung out with them. See the photo? There is MUCH more too.
I told him being with him was like being with god. lol It’s true. He is my BEAU IDEAL. He is the cutest man I have ever been with. He has everything too. Looks, emotion, genuineness, tact, respect, charm, knowledge, smarts, genius, kindness and loyalty..Makes me dream. He is the best , I am so in awe. I am so lucky. I could go on and on…
I am a doyen of beauty ..ever since I was little.
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I ate some SAPOTES AND CANISTEL. 
I got them in my Valentine’s packet. Tonight I was taken to the cuban fruit market and bought three more Sapotes. I also got a QUART of SUGARCANE juice. Man, I have it so WELL. I live the life here in Miami!
We saw manatees under a bridge in Miami. In winter they come to canals to stay warm.
Today was the coldest day of the year . Here is me in the everglades on Loop road
Look, pelican fight to get the fish out of his mouth!
Me looking at nature today
I did so much today but am so tired. I must get to sleep
I felt so good today, so total, and pure. We saw the town that reminded me of the movie CARS .
I went to a real hunting restaurant where the game was stuffed on the walls. I ordered juicy red tomatoes and put salt on them , while my dinner partner ate alligator. I ate oranges all day and had watermelon juice for breakfast. For late dinner I had tomatoes and avocados cubed up. I also had a little sapote, sugarcane juice.
Alligator alley is one straight road across Florida.
Beautiful ride ..
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18TH
Two habits that have helped me : I would say I dream big, all the time. This makes what I want to do, easy. I have a large imagination and sometimes see my goals in the past already achieved and I get so happy. I think constantly of what I want and make like I own it. Another habit that has helped me is my love of communication. I love talking to people and making them feel good, connecting. I want to be outgoing and popular wherever I go. Also I love honesty and being genuine.
Two habits that have hindered me: I have given up on so many things, long time ago, not followed thru. I have been days away from certificates, final exams, and classes, and I just gave up! Now I have nothing to show for all the work I have done. I really regret it now. Things that would look really good in my portfolios! Also, my fear of being alone has hindered me. I always look for other people to make me feel secure, especially those who have what I want.
I am changing these two bad ones, for real. Already I have made enormous improvements, permanent ones. I believe I can have what I want (in others) and I know that for sure now. I want to finish. It’s time to focus on the outcome. I will study, persist and accomplish. I will. Everything is hcanging. I am no longer the same girl but the shiny new version of what my dreams are.
This morning, I had grapes and finished off my sugarcane juice. Later I had tangerine squeezed juice. Avocado peeled and eaten while throwing grapes in my mouth. Later an avocado with chopped dates. Two packages of berries, eaten with chopped dates. Later a Sapote scooped out. I may have some marinated non sweet fruits, like cukes and peppers, from Whole Foods I got from the salad bar, later.
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