MY LIFE AS A BEGINNING RAW VEGAN AND
 WHAT I ATE EVERYDAY 

Hi I am Suvine

Me in 2004 after one year raw foodist
 that is no more cooked food, no more
processed anything. Just vegetables
 fruit and nuts in raw state...
all the time, non stop and coconut
 water or juices squeezed, to
drink, I was in heaven, high all the
time and lost a lot of weight.
I was in love with life, and
everything was beautiful.

I lived in a big house behind a canal
and had a pool and I planted
all these fruit
everywhere. I have all
the troptical fruit baby trees














Cuban manicure my mom told me to get






7/30 2004
organic grapefruit
red pepper from garden with tomato and soaked flax seed dressing made
with 1/2 avo
juiced cucumber from garden with apple and had carrot juice earlier


8/1/2004
Curry almond nori roll with lemon garlic tahini with tomato basil dressing
durian
avocado
guarapo
thai coco water

8/7/2004
two nori rolls with curry almond pate
marinated mushrooms
salad

8/8/2004
carrot/oj juice
2 sprout salads with tom/avos/onions/raisins
lemon garlic tahini dressing
berrie/avo/banana/vanilla/raw honey smoothie

8/9/2004
fasting on coconut water all day

8/10/2004
kim chee
ginger water smoothies
garden salad
hibiscus sun tea

8/11/2004
kim chee
mango smoothies
sprout salad
durian
mango banana coconut dried fig smoothies w/ a lil honey

8/12/2004
mango smoothies with dried fig and banana

8/19/2004
made daikon noodles with peanut sauce
coconut


08/16/2004
Since I have been raw so many wonderful things have happened that have
never happened before.

It has been one year and I want to start a journal because that way I
can see my progress. My life attracts the best things in the world!

My hobby is making raw food and I want to make raw food at a raw food
restaurant some day.

Today, even though I am not hungry I am thinking about starting to
soak my dates for "Peanut sauce with daikon noodles" recipe. Maybe for
tommorow. I got the recipe out of Gideon and Jackie Graff's cookbook
ORIENTAL I got for 6 dollars at the Raw food retreat in Enota , GA
over this past Spring.

I have had no appetite for three days which is good because I could
lose the weight. I have been drinking Mango (in season) smoothies and
water and a little raw honey alot.

I bought three Chinese Eggplant/broccolli/garden peppers to juice. I
am juicing this because already I drank fresh Guarapo ( sugar cane
juice) and fresh OJ today and I have a feeling based on what people
have said that you need to balance fruits vegetables and nuts equally
per day. If I could have it my way I would drink sweet stuff all day.
But I hear warnings of too much excess sugar even if it is in fruit
and how it feeds yeast yuk and all that.

And I remember David wolfe's endless saying, " Drink more GREEN
Vegetable juice!" plus I heard him say Fruitarians have more fungus in
their blood when Live blood cell analysis is done on them...

Maybe later if I don't make my recipe I will have a little Hemp Seed
nut butter which tastes incredible!!!!! It is dark green and creamy.

I wish I could have some cacao
.

I could really use some. A few weeks
back I had some and it was raining like a tropical storm outside.. about
an hour after I drank a lot, I jumped in my pool and for like two hours
I was in a perfect , most beautiful fantasy world. Cacao does that to
me but not everytime I drink it...only when I don't expect it. I
ordered it from Nature's First Law already peeled and I ground  it up
with any kind of white nut, water, Maca Root powder maybe ( I bought a
huge bag a while ago but I am not impressed.. I personally just don't
get it) and some Agave Nectar, if I have any, maybe, with some dash
of Cayenne. yummy.. I will order some soon.

As for exercise I went to a free Yoga class at the public library down
my street this morning. We rubbed Lavender oils into our hands and
also meditated in the dark.

My back was sore because Saturday I went to the gym and did some
serious workout on the machines with My beautiful Horse. I looove the Sauna and Pool and
Jacuzzi!

By the way I love to oil paint! I love doing portraits and surreal
images too! I finished one last monday when I fasted on Florida
Coconut water all day.

Being raw isn't just about food and execise..it's about creativity
that expresses itself too!
I want to start fasting once a week on Monday on that that Florida
Coconut water which is like free here... but I forgot today. oops.
next Monday!

08/17
Today I spent at the very classy Venetian Pool in Coral Gables. The
water was so cold when I swam. A really pretty place. Caves are built into
the pool and a waterfall. I got very tanned. I walked around alot. It
was escape.

I ate a mango under the coconut trees
and had some Guarapo in the morning squeezed for me.

In the evening I was the assistant at a "Raw Food Alkalarian "
Uncooking class in Pinecrest with Myra.

We had these snacks Myra made that were a replacement for roasted
nuts. Nuts dehydrated with glazes. I was surprised how good they were.
One snack was apple rings covered with coconut shreds and dehydrated
 with a sweet glaze.

Then we made pasta and marinara sauce out of a mandolin and we
massaged the noodles with celtic salt. Typical raw marinara recipe, except
hers had carrot in it.

After that , my fave, fake chocolate brownies made with raw carob,
berries, dried cherries and chopped walnuts.

She forgot to bring copies of the recipes so I have to wait to get
mine in the email.

Myra said she is writing a book, " Raw food for people who like to
keep their clothes on". That is funny. She went to Cherie Soria's raw food
school and said everyone was naked one morning.

When I went on my raw food retreat we all took a hike, and at this big
huge waterfall everyone got naked except me, because I am shy.
Everybody screaming, " best day ever!!!" I was so in awe!

I know a miracle will happen to me soon. Something I do not expect
that I will be so grateful for.

I want a raw family someday. If I was a mother I would like to
homeschool. I never thought about children until I met raw food.

I sincerely want goodness in my life I am going to live the most
noblest life that I can. Happiness isn't a destination, it's the only
way to be period.
Goodnight

08/18


This morning I woke up at 9 and someone whom I will call
MY BEAUTIFUL HORSE, actually my boyfriend, he is so sweet.






 took me to the part of town where all
the produce comes into the city of Miami.

He bought me a box of avocados, mangoes, grapes and 1/2
box  of apples and some Mamey and limes.

Usually I buy more. A huge box of tangerines is like 10 dollars and I
could get ten mangoes for 1.50$. But I have no appetite.

We then went to this place, I could ride my bike to, that I never have
been yet . A little fruit and veggie market where I got a chlorophyll
cocktail with an apple added.

Later on in the evening I was surprised when My beautiful horse shows
up with three packets of Florida coconuts babies.
click here

Yes, he climbed coconut trees and cut them down for me tonight. These
were meat coconuts. My little chihuahua pigged out!

My Chihua hua Diva
 

I used to feed my chihuahuas raw meat. they loved it
click here raw dog

In my backyard I mastered the art of opening all of them for the water
with a screw driver, brick and pitcher and then smashing them on the
pavement to crack open for the meat.

I threw some in the food processor with some mango, dates, soaked and
dehydrated pumpkin seeds and a little raw honey (because I do not have
any agave)

We plopped them on the dehydrator and they taste sooo good. They will
be ready tommorrow.

I bless everyone who has found raw food and is working on a different
frequency . Isn't it better? I have learned so much and I love being
introduced to new things.

I am thinking about getting wheatberries so I can grow 92 mineral
wheatgrass. I botched the last three trays due to no napkin or cloth
underneath. It just died. I experiment with different ways of growing it to see if
there are better ways.

08/19
It is a beautful day today.

I rode my bike to deering Estate all by myself. 


I brought Hygeia
Halfmoon's "PRIMAL MOTHERING IN A MODERN WORLD".

( I want to be a mother! I want to be a mother!)

WHAT A GREAT AND POWERFUL BOOK FOR WOMEN TO READ. I read it looking
out into the ocean and mangroves. I felt like the only person in the
park besides a scuba diver in the water.

I was not hungry. I just had a guarapo and some coconut/ mango/water
shake. When I got home I ate some of my cookies that were ready...oh
my god, so delicious.

It was so delicious that my dog's puppies who are still breastfeeding
were trying to lick it up , chewed up pieces, into their mouths.

I will eat Guacamole later if I eat anything. I am so rarely TRULY
hungry on raw food.

My beautiful horse is coming over. Goodnight beautiful world!

08/20
hello. Yesterday I ate nothing but Blueberries and drank Guarapo and
some smoothies. I still have no appetite.

Today I will be making cookies in the dehydrator. I will open up some
of the florida meat Coconuts in the backyard and then mix it with
Almonds and Blueberries and Dates.

I bought some Aloe Vera. The world's oldest cat was given Aloe Vera
daily mixed in with its cat food daily. I think it was 32. I mix it in
with fresh squeezed Orange Juice. It makes it frothy. I will put some
today in my banana smoothies

Today is also Glaser Farms, the Raw Vegan Farmer's market in Coconut
Grove. Too bad I am not hungry at all, and alone. It is around noon is when
everyone is kind of there that is a raw foodist. Every week it is the
same faces and I am so shy! I have seen famous raw foodists there.

I would really love to make friends I have alot in common with.
I know some raw foodists ( like Paul Nison) who do not watch tv at
all anymore ever. He says if it was on tv that rat meat was good for
you everyone would start eating it.
After downloading the free movie on the internet called 'MEET YOUR
MEAT" by peta I treat meat as if it were a biohazard which it is.

I want my chihuahua off it. There are raw vegan dogs who are very
healthy. The world's oldest dog was a vegan but cooked.

Someday soon I want to ride my bike and find out where Matheson Park
is because there is a beach there and maybe I can relax and read more
of
my "Primal Mothering in a Modern World" next to an Ocean.

Did I mention in October I will be going to the Tree of Life
Rejuvenation Center to take a three month
Live Food Apprenticeship? It is in Patagonia, AZ and costs 2 grand.

I am really looking forward to escaping and just living in a raw world
for a little while. I do have computer access there!! wow, the desert
and freedom!

Today for exercise if I don't ride my bike I will do the NYC ballet
workout video.

08/21
I wound up going to Glaser Farms raw vegan farmer's market .

I bought organic carrots to juice.

Also before that I am soaking almonds so I can put it in my vitamix
with 4 parts water and blend and then I have one of those socklike
coffee strainers. Almond milk.. then I think I am going to mix that
with banana and dates for a shake.

What I am really hungry for is juices and a little sweet ones like
guarapo which I have every day. Drinking plain water I never really
liked to do.

I want to buy nori rolls and start eating those. I also need to buy
wheatberries for 92 min. wheatgrass I love so much.

I want to be somebody really , really special and extraordinary.

I want to take Ballet 1-2 times a day. I want to write a book. I want
to paint amazing works! I want a baby and I want a raw family!

I am watching The Company with Neve Campbell about a Ballet
company. So inspiring. I feel really beautiful when I am in class. I
love Classical music.


click:
me at glaser farms market

08/26
Today I did a few things.

I met MBH in Coral gables and he took me to the Tree of Zion.

I ordered a Raw Marinated Portobello Mushroom sandwich. Flaxseed bread
with Curry Almond Pate , sprouts, two big slices of Marinated
Portobello
and diced red pepper( hey! they forgot to give me the top slice of
bread!) plus side salad.

I also got a raw version of Very Berry smoothie..berries, banana and dates.

I later ordered this raw dish like Curry Cauliflower which looked
exactly like Curry Chicken from the cooked days. it was the best
thing.

Everything 13 bucks

We went to South Beach and everything is crazy because of the MTV
Video Music Awards this weekend. We drove into American Airlines arena,
but it opened only for Mtv and staff
On some beach chairs I read to MBHorse the article Rhio wrote for Just
Eat an Apple magazine about Genetically engineered food.

That article scared me to pieces! oh my god! Mutant Corn stuff that is
patented and owned by greedy companies. Talks about studies where rodents fed
GE potatoes have total breakdown . Lawsuits over who owns
a plant. Plants that "commit suicide " after a season and can no
longer reproduce . Butterflies and ladybugs that die eating the
produce. GE DNA found in animals cells. How the US does not label.
Coercion into buying THEIR seeds or they wont sell to you normal ones.

Thank you I am shopping at Wild Oats when I can't do Organic!

Before we got home we stopped at this Cuban place I think called
Palacio Del Jugos and got two 1/2 gallons of daily fresh squeezed
juice.

Tamarind juice which is the best and got me so high on life I was
WOOOING! and MBH's fave Mamey juice. Mamey juice is like comfort food.
YUMMMY! I am drinking tamarind now! Only in Miami!

Earlier I read Shazzie's online journal. She has such a positive cloud
around her! What a beauty.

My beautiful Horse is taking me to Costa Rica in September. that must
mean he likes me!

08/28
Today My Beautiful Horse took me to a new Cuban Market where we bought
funky bananas, fruits called Anon,Tamarinds that we sucked on and I also got
three half gallons of fresh squeezed Guarapo (which got me so hyper),also
Mamey and Tamarind juice and fresh made.

He got a call from a client and we then went to Miami's Federal Prison
Camp. It was exciting, I waited in this waiting room with glass
windows.

Thai coconut fig pie


I think my body is telling me to fast. I am not hungry and the food I
eat sits in the STOMACH and really clung to myself.
 
I found out that I
can count on myself, depend on myself for everything. Like a babe
clings to his mother and adults cling to their significant others or a
hobby or whatever passion/obsession, I can reach out and be there to
myself!

True independence! I can count 100% on myself to take care of me in
any situation!

I had peach smoothies.

My brother told me he had a talk with My Beautiful Horse about me and
he kept saying, " I love her"...AWWWW

Today I missed the Raw Vegan Farmer's market. No time
I watched a tv show , I saw some of DaVinci's inventions.

I have read in so many places that he was a fruitarian and ate dates
and stuff and in other places he was a raw foodist based on his
journals. I know he quotes against eating Meat that it is a crime of
humanity.

08/30
Hello. Today was a lazy day spent inside and alone. I watched the VMAs

I rode my bike to get Guarapo. I also drank Trinity "mineral
supplement". I think it's a full moon. I ate Raw burritos tonight with
Romaine lettuce. I put in Sprouted Sunflower pate, raw Salsa,
Sunflower Sprouts and greenpea Hummous. had a sprout and tomato salad
later. Snacked on an Orange.

I am reading Raw Courage. There is an online version of it by Dini. It
is very fun to read!

My mom came back from South America as a cooked foodist, She was raw before she left.. It's ok, I
can focus more on me now.
As long as she learned to eat better in life. Some people can stick to
it , others can't.

I want to eat purer and step away from transition food just for a
while and see how I feel.

08/31
I read the online free version of Dini's " Raw Courage World" and I
was impressed by his Barehanded Mono eating ( eating one type of thing
like fruit at a meal or all day with bare hands) that I decided to try
it and I feel awesome!

I shared with MBHorse later some Durian, (a very small bit for me) and
I brought up... yes, the BABY ISSUE..

I go, "What is SO wrong with having a baby?"
he goes, " We are not married.." I said, " Women have been having
babies for millions of years before Marriage."

He goes, " We aren't ready.." I go , " Ok we aren't ready! " Then I
turned and looked at him and said " How OLD are we..we are adults, I
just have this INSTINCT that I am ready!"
" Anyways the time to get ready for a baby is the GESTATION period....
that is nine months!"

Then he goes, " Well I have—( a situation he has )" I go, " those are
your problems , not mine"

I then added, "All I need is your sperm.. I ( capital I) am having the
baby and I am breast feeding..you don't have to do anything, I am not
dependant on you!"..

I think he was like, " yeah well this conversation is a turn off.." so
I was like" I am more than a sex machine.."

Then I just said, " You think about it OK? Just think about it!"

08/31
Today I got Organic Apples and Oranges. It was a great feeling day, all day.

I voted today.

At night I had a little Nori Roll which threw me a bit off track with
Avocado and Tomato. I made awesome ones for my family with all this
cool stuff in it like Sunflower seed pate, Sprouts, Tomatoes, Avos,
and noodled carrot. I was not in the mood for Transition food tonight.

My mom wants to go raw again. The vibe in this house is all raw.

Tonight there was a storm and it was beautiful. I sat alone outside
and watched it .

I love life outdoors.

I want to continue my "Barehanded Mono Fruitarianism" ( or the
majority) . I felt so great until I had the Nori roll..

I read on Shazzie's journals that she found out Nori rolls had fish
all ground up with it. I mean there is a non fish Nori roll company
she gave the web address on , though. It would explain the fishy
smell.

09/01
Everybody is panicking and Palm Beach is evacuating! Oh my god the
Hurricane will be here next Friday and it is headed right for MIAMI..
right now it is close to Bahamas and category 4! Frances is the name.

This will be my first hurricane..My siblings told me about Hurricane
Andrew and all the rooftops they saw fly away.

Pets are not allowed in Shelters, they have separate ones so what am I
gonna do with
Diva ( http://www.geocities.com/vanillafairyangel/Diva.html ) and her puppies!

I will find out what my boyfriend is gonna do and then see what happens.

Oh by the way today I had Organic oranges and a billion organic
Banana/ Florida Coconut smoothies blended until smooth and creamy.
Dinner might be Mamey that has ripened nicely or Nori roll filled with
Hemp nut butter and chopped veggies!

I read all day and I lay in bed loving it my room is so clean and
peaceful. I want alot of LOVE to come to me tonight!!! I want myself
to create a miracle unconsciously!! I order it to!

09/02
My mom got her handyman to board up the house for Hurricane Frances
expected tommorrow night. Our whole house is shut with metal shutters
and so is the entire neighborhood. The lady across from me boarded up
her garage even.

I ate Organic Banana smoothies and had Organic Apples and for dinner I
had Organic Romaine lettuce with a little Raw Carrot Hummous and then
I made a salad with Lettuce/Tomato and Raw Herb Tahini dressing.

I really, really wish my boyfriend would spend all his evenings and
nights with me and do many fun things like take walks and have meals
with me daily..sigh! Can't the universe grant me that wish? I want
that to happen.

Drove to Palacio del Jugos and got daily squeezed 1/2 gallon juices :
MAMEY, MELON and MANGO

09/03
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I WATCHED THE HURRICANE ARMS SWING AROUND , VERY WINDY. IT WILL BE
HERE TOMMORROW.
Fought with My Beautiful Horse.
I am surprised at my good mood all day. Bless it! May I always have
control and be impressed with myself!

There is opportunity in every loss.

I have had organic Peaches, Banana smoothies with Thai Coconut and
some Seaweed rehydrated with lemon juice and oil and a salad with
Tahini dressing.

I want to move on in my life, I really want what I want and that is
what I am going to expect of myself in the future. I do not want to
settle for less and I want to be true to myself.

I want to make friends and feel good about things and feel connected
in the world to the coolest people around!

I want exactly what I want to happen happen!

09/04

Steve Jobs, co founder of Apple computers was a fruitarian in the 70's? :

"I was actually a fruitarian at that point in time. I ate only fruit.
Now I'm a garbage can like everyone else. And we were about three
months late in filing a fictitious business name so I threatened to
call the company Apple Computer unless someone suggested a more
interesting name by five o'clock that day. Hoping to stimulate
creativity. And it stuck. And that's why we're called Apple."

Today I worked on my book. oh look what else I found!

Othorexia

With anorexia, the sufferer has an unhealthy obsession to lose weight
With orthorexia, the subject has an unhealthy obsession with "healthy eating". The
subject may avoid certain types of food, such as those containing fats,
preservatives or animal products. As a result, the sufferer may become as
hazardously thin as those suffering from anorexia.
The condition was identified by Dr. Steven Bratman, a Colorado specialist.
Bratman coined the term for the condition in 1997 from the Greek
orthos, "correct
or right", and orexis for "appetite". "

They are talking about us! The thin people! haha I would rather be thin than fat, for sure.

I ate Banana Peanut smoothies, Apples, Thai coconut, Cantaloupe, Garden
Salad my mom made, Tamarinds and some Lettuce with Tahini and C sea
salt.

I really need to make some raw food friends. I need to attract them
into my life! I know how hard it is to actually develop a friend but I
would not mind socializing!

I would throw another Raw food potluck but I am leaving for AZ soon,
next month.

The last one I threw for my mom I wasn't able to make because we fought!

09/05

Food today: I made lemonade out of 4 Organic Apples and 1/4 lemon with
peel in juicer. So good! The Juiceman's recipe.
Had Dates stuffed with Hemp nut butter so out of this world!
A salad with dressing I made from Tahini, jalapeno, Dates and half
lemon peeled all in blender. Had a whole bag of Organic Oranges.

09/06
This morning My mom wakes me up in darkness. My windows are boarded
up. She brings me fresh Sugar Cane juice and a Green drink. Bless her

Then the phone rings..with the tone of MY BEAUTIFUL HORSE.
We get back together. In love again.

Food: Romaine Burrito wraps with raw Salsa and nut butter. 1/4 Avocado
mashed with Raw Basil Pesto, Organic Grapes, Juiced org. Carrots and
org. Apples. Trinity water.

09/07
Food: Carrot Juice with a shot of Wheatgrass
two Submarines made out of Romaine, Almond Herb pate, Tomatoes.
Banana/Date/Nut balls, Banana/Thai Coconut /smoothies, bowl of Sprouts
with Basil Pesto dressing

09/08
For food I had two glasses of Sugar cane juice, Organic Apples and
Organic Banana Smoothies. I had a bag of Organic Grapes. I made
Romaine Lettuce Wraps with Alfalfa Sprouts and Curry Almond Herb Pate.

I am making Rejuvelac and also sprouting Wheatberries because I read
they are the only thing period that will keep an animal alive
indefinitely..( if only one choice of food was given for a life)

09/09
I order an old old volume of Living Nutrition from like 1999 and the
same people are around and doing well today!!

I am eating organic grapes.

Today just had a Organic Greens/Tom/Avo salad and 2 Guarapos and Thai
coconut smoothies w/ organic Bananas.

Once I get a new job I will be able to afford grand dishes and raw
food pies, cakes, cookies and soups! But for now..it is salad and
organic fruit!

I worked on my book.

I got an email from MyBeautfiul Horse saying he is coming back Satuday
or Sunday and that he has to run because those computers in Columbia
are slow and he is so busy. He has bodyguards down there with machine
guns and stuff.

I had wheatgrass juice earlier so I think I have to lie down.. I feel
queasy!! Very weak and my temperature went up a bit too..I have to lie
down or take a bath or vomit..I am not sure..

I mixed wheatgrass juice in my
Chihuahua's
food and I hear the SQUEAKSQUEAKSQUEEEAK of the toys non stop!

09/10
My mother went to Coral Gables today for appt so I took my clothes off
and sunbathed. I lay between my Papaya tree and my Mango tree. Whe I
got hot I rolled over into the pool.

Nearby I have all babies I planted: Jaboticaba, Tamarind, Mamey, Sugar canes,
Eggfruit, Starfruit, Cherimoya, Oranges, Date palms, Cashew Apple
tree, Florida Coconut, herbs and things I have no idea that I stole
seeds from Botanical Gardens or Fairchild Tropical Gardens. I know
there is Mystery Fruit,Sapodillas and Lychees.

I would trade all of it for a Thai Coconut Grove like My mom's friend
Donna has in Key west. Imagine all that luxury!!

Later my Wheat berry sprouts are two days old so I took 4 handfuls and
food processed them with Tomato , garlic and Oregano from Garden. I
poured them into English muffin tins and dehydrated them. What was
left over I made crackers.

The rest I put on paper towel lined trays and sprayed with my own
homemade "Ocean grown solution" ( 1 part ocean water to 17 parts water
in spray bottle) so I can make 92 mineral wheatgrass which has all 92
minerals in it..and trust me, a new drink altogether!!

My mom came home and brought me two Guarapos, Sugar cane juice fresh
squeezed at the Cuban restaurant.

She also brought me Raw Vegan Guacamole ( made with all organic:
Avocados, tomatoes, Onions, Lemon juice, Cilantro and Jalapeno) and
Raw vegan Salsa (made with all organic: Tomatoes, Mangos, Onions,
Cilantro, Lemon juice and jalapenos) at the health food store.

My Rejuvelac was ready so I had an Organic Banana smoothie with it in
it. Rejuvelac makes me feel tingly!

I worked on my book.
I did 45 minutes of Ballet Workout.

Did you know 50% of all people on the planet have never made a
telephone call? And like 6 of the poorest countries- have no
electricity!!

I road my bike in the woods around Deering Estate watching the lizards
cross my path like hundreds of them. It was like they wanted to get
squished. Thru the tropical forest on a bike path all alone.. the
trees here are like giant things with all these roots and hanging
vines. You could live in one of them.

I stopped at this bridge where they have these huge 4 Urns all painted
royally. A long time ago I was there crying and crying and I
recognized it and I remembered I hugged one of them..so I stopped my
bike and hugged it. So what?

I had my mom take me to Tree of Zion so I could get her a Raw pizza

and eat an Raw version of Reuben sandwich. They closed but their flyer
said they were supposed to be open. Maybe all the hurricane madness
going on..

I thought I found the secret to happiness..it has to do with being
open electrically..no blockages..does that make sense? So when I am
pissed off about something I am blocking a current that connects me to
everything..life force god = happiness

09/11
This Morning I went to the Raw Vegan Farmer's Market in Coconut grove.
I had two drinks: Sugarcane Lemon Passion and Lemon Gingerade with
Wildflower honey and I threw in a shot of Wheatgrass with that.
I got
my mom a quart of Thai Coconut water and a Nori Roll.
I saw a skinny
little raw food girl who was so beautiful with a pink flowy dress, tan
and long hair. Her daddy had a big beard.

On my way home I got a Guarapo.

When I arrived home I took my Chihuahua for a long walk thru fields
of wildflowers. In the backyard we have a canal that goes on for
eternity..and me and her went thru billions of backyards as we walked
along

I felt so unbelievably happy today! No matter what is going on in my
life: everything is perfect, everything is the way it should be, I am
living my dream! Everything I am so lucky to have so much , I am so
living the life!

Was it the Rejuvelac? I drink alot of it. I have mastered how to make
it which is a very sensitive process otherwise it tastes rotten.
I did Ballet workout.

I rode my bike to get Durian but the Asian market is closed! I had
another Guarapo.

Later I will probably have half my mom's Nori Roll stuffed with
everything: Carrots, Pate, Lettuce, Tomatoes, Sunflower greens,
Chives, Jalapenos, Parsley, Avocado

09/12
I got a Guarapo and Thai coconut water.

I went with him to The Last Carrot in the grove and bought Carrot
Juice with Wheatgrass shot.

Later I made a salad with Lemon Garlic Tahini dressing.I drank
Rejevelac and made more.

Everything is the way it should be and is perfect.

At nighttime I took a Haunted bike ride!! I was so terrified. I rode
through Darkness. I couldn't see anything but the trail and leaves and
moonless night. When I was in the woods part I got spooked because I
was so ..alone ! I heard crickets and branches move. The air is so
thick and I saw fireflies that scared me more.I imagined boogey men
coming to rape me! It was so dark, I heard imaginary things like
animals on the trail and I couldn't see if there were palm branches
fallen that would trip me over and I was pedaling so fast. I didn't
make it my planned journey..my eyes were closed sometimes! So
frightening I heard my heart beat and I started to panic. I was so
scared and ready to cry I turned around and rode fast but when I got
home I wished I would've stayed out longer.

I had an organic Banana sandwich on my Raw Sprouted Wheat English
muffins. SOO YUMMY.

Later fresh squeezed organic Apple juice!

Thank you for everything life!

09/13

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I went to Tree of Zion and I had a Raw Reuben sandwich with flax seed
cracker then Walnut jerky with homeade Sauerkraut and Almond cheese
but to tell you, they forgot the Sauerkraut.
I then got a cracker
spread with No- tuna. All delicious.

I tried to get the ingredients to
the raw Sweet and Sour Cauliflower but the girl didn't know.

There was a sign on the door reading," Volunteers need to work two 5
hour shifts a week in exchange for a free body massage." damn!

My mom got a RAWSTA pizza, first raw food in a while on the flax seed
cracker with Almond cheese, Raw Marinara, topped with Sprouts,
Avocados, Olives, Tomatoes.. and a Carob shake with Banana, Dates,
water and Raw Carob.

My mom yelled at me and really really hurt me. Since she came back
from her vacation cooked, she is a wreck. Coughing, cold sores and
extra weight. I feel so sad because I love her. She has so much
anxiety too because she drinks Yerba mate tea which is very addicting
and worse than coffee. ( She will throw in a ton of the roasted plant
and boil it and then strain it.) Last night she didn't sleep and she
went out disheveled today..


" Mom you have been coughing..alot and stressed out.. being that you
are selling your house and dealing with business that can be stressful
maybe you should hold off on the cooked food.."
" I AM JUST GOING TO SEE A DOCTOR . I WAS COUGHING UP GREEN STUFF WHEN
I WAS AWAY"
" They are not going to help you but just give you antibiotics."
" I DON'T BELIEVE IN NOT GOING TO SEE YOUR DOCTOR!!"

I juiced a bunch of organic Apples and later I am going to make
organic Banana smoothies.
I really want to make Alex's Raw food guru's recipes but
l have to wait until I come back from Tree of Life January

09/14
Check this out: http://www.unassistedchildbirth.com/catch.htm It is
pictures of women catching their own babies! I want to do that
someday.

This morning I had two Sugar cane juices ( guarapo)..yummy.

I made a
dinner of chopped up tiny of each: organic Cauliflower, organic
Brocolli and organic Carrots with Alfalfa Sprouts all covered in Lemon
Garlic Tahini dressing.

I made a sandwich with raw Sprouted Wheat
English Muffins- my last one, with Tomato slice and Basil Pesto. I
made a Mamey smoothie and several glasses of fresh squeezed organic
Apples.

09/15
Today I hade 3 Guarapos. yes, three. I didn't eat much. I chopped up
some Organic Brocolli and organic Cauliflower and organic Carrot and
mixed it with Arugula and Tomatoes with Lemon Tahini dressing.
I had a whole lot of Rejuvelac.

I took a package of Golden Flax seeds and soaked them for like an
hour. Then I threw it in my Vitamix with alot of Cinnamon and two
organic Apples and a little bit Sucanat and water and blended it as
fine as it got. I poured them in my English muffin tins and the rest I
made into crackers.

That way I can make organic Banana sandwiches! Maybe with a little raw
soaked nut butter!

I found an Avocado tree while on my bike path. I see a Gorgeous
Avocado all green and huge on the floor. I stop my bike. It is hard
unripe. I look up and it was like, " Oh my god! There are a billion of
them!"

I realize that I need to exercise more because I am happy when I do, I
get more oxygen, my body metabolizes better..meaning my food turns to
energy rather than fat.. I look and feel better, I sweat out
impurities.. I love life more!

I rode my bike forever under the hot sun with just the tropical trees
for friends.

I worked on my book.

My Beautiful Horse came over and brought me a half gallon Mamey and an
ANON fruit which he tried to get me to eat with him. No I am saving
that for lunch tommorow.

He gave me 13 bucks to get into the Miami Zoo
tomorrow. I am going to spend the whole day there hanging out with
animals I didn't even know existed.


09/16
Today I had a guarapo and ate my Anon Fruit. I planted the seeds.


I went to the Miami Zoo which is alot more humane than all the zoos I
have seen being from up North.

For dinner I had mashed Avocado and raw honey on my raw english
muffins I dehydrated two days ago. Good. Taste like graham cracker.
Rejuvelac ..tomato slices with basil pesto..

My beautiful Horse came over and we went jogging Deering Estate. I
showed him the Avocado tree I found.

09/17

MBH bought nacho cheese in a whipping cream can, two bottles of
Nyquil, cheap cookies, big bottles bbq sauce and mustard. YUK yuk yuk
yuk...Can you believe?

I told him since he is going to eat everything why not just mix it all
in one big bowl and dip his cookies in it.

When I got home another one of my puppies, Spike, is sold. http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v247/orchidprincess/9d535928.jpg

I didn't say goodbye. Diva is really depressed. So was my Beautiful
Horse. It was his favorite. Gizmo is at his Mom's getting ready to go
to Argentina, though. She adopted him.

I ate my raw Golden Flax Seed / Organic Apple biscuits and then some
Organic Romaine salad. I made smoothies with organic Banana/ Maca and
Sucanat

09/18
Today I went to the Raw vegan farmer's Market in Coconut Grove.
I had a spicy V-7 drink made from juices of Tomato, Carrot, Beet,
Celery, Parsley, Cilantro, Lime and Celtic seasalt.

I had a raw Tostada made from Flaxseed cracker with a spicy Pate ,
Tomatoes, Mango Salsa, greens , Guacamole some cabbage..

I also had some of my mom's Stuffed Marinated Mushrooms, Wild Rice
Jewel salad and some Cole
Slaw. She had a quart of Thai Coconut water and also raw ice cream
with Banana, Almond and Cashews..

My mom bought 15 dollars worth of Sunflower sprouts. That is crazy, it
wasn't all that much, like a small bag. I could grow my own. She had
Nori Roll too and got all these raw cheezes and dips.

We ate and listened to everyone's conversations about their raw food diet.

I like watching this one kid who comes every week and buys just a Bok
Choy and sits down and eats it with his hands!..MAYBE with some
sprinkled Hemp nuts on top. Or it will be something different every
week, like just a Mamey with a spoon... He is "Mono Man! "


Of course I get the transition food, usually just one thing.. because
it tastes good and I have no problem with it.

I saw this one guy, tanned and dark haired, I met at a Raw Food Potluck,
and I asked him about the raw foodist yoga lady who threw it. She was
very pregnant then. He said she was dilating the last he spoke to her and
that she wanted to have the child at home... SIGH!!!! So cool! ( his
wife is a Raw Vegan mom of two so the women are in touch)

Me and my Mom stopped at Palacio Del Jugos and got a quart each of
fresh Mamey juice ( like comfort food drink all red and hearty) ,
Tamarind Juice ( a little sweet and sour ) and Guanabana (all white,
creamy an pulpy )!

My Mung Sprouts have all grown a little tail. It's a whole pasta
strainer full. What am I gonna do with a whole thing of Mung Sprouts?
It was my first time so I threw in the whole bag of seeds. It was only
70 cents.

09/19
I just found out that this girl I was working for , doing lab tests,
who never paid me for training and I later wound up sending her
a letter saying I was suing her

is taking the raw food apprenticeship the same time I am in October.
We might be bunk bed buddies! I love live blood analysis which is one
thing she did do. I am sorry for not being able to learn that.

I chatted with Cherie Soria last nite on rawfoodchat and I wrote her
for these two recipes. A Green soup one and Corn Cakes with "Braised
Greens". I can't wait to go on a learning vacation at her school. She
said the best recipe from "Angel Foods" was the Almond Torte ( but she
likes them all).

Today I have little money so I bought a Thai Coconut for two dollars
and am going to make Tom Yum, a raw food recipe out of Jeremy Safron's
"Raw Truth" and his personal fave. All else I need is Basil, Oregano,
Cilantro and Jalapeno from garden.

I made little wraps of Romaine with Sunflower Sprouts, chopped Tomato
and Sprouted Sunflower Seed pate also.

I ate Organic Grapes .

My beautiful Horse came over and bought me a beautiful Jacket to wear
when I go to AZ. He signed the inside with my name and wrote, " I do
not want you to get cold" with a heart.. He just makes me fall in love
with him!



09/20
Today I found out that My Beautiful Horse isn't going to Columbia so
he bought tickets for us to see the Dalai Lama at 9 am tommorrow. The
talk will be about world peace which I am so excited to hear!!

He is taking me Friday to a rafting adventure weekend in the Pacuare
in Costa Rica!

I see in the photos on the package website that they have fruit dishes
and I am sure the French Chef will know how to make me a nice salad
with flowers or something!

He really loves me. I will keep a written diary there secretly while I
am there to copy here.

I worked on my book.

I had organic Bananas with Dates Smoothies.

I also had Sunflower Sprouts and organic Apples Juiced. mmm
My Mung Sprouts are sprouted so I tasted some..it is like beans but
better and soft. I made Romaine sandwiches where I put a Spouted
Sunflower seed pate on and then topped with Sunflower Sprouts and my
Mung bean Sprouts and a drop of Nama Shoyu and I folded the leaf over
like a sandwich breaking the rib of the lettuce and YUM When I was
eating it something inside told me that " You can't get more
nutritious than this". I had about four.

I usually prefer fruit over everything..plant food is like my
steak..it always feels like a hearty meal!

I then rode by bike to Old Cutler by Deering Estate and back. The moon
was out. The air was breezy and warm. I was really happy and I wished
I could ride all night.

I went to the Asian Market. I bought a Durian at 1.90$ a lb, a dollar
more than at Lucky's . I had two pods.

They had sectioned off Jackfruit in their refrigerator and saran
wrapped, so I bought one. I then planted the seeds in my backyard.

I also got a Thai Coconut and some Watercress.
Tomorrow I am waking up and going to see the Dalai Lama

09/21
We saw the Dalai lama.

had a Guarapo for breakfast. I ate my Jackfruit and planted more
seeds. I made a Salad with everything in it and a Raw Glaser farms
salad dressing made from organic : Fresh ripe tomatoes, lots of fresh
basil and garden fresh herbs, fresh squeezed lemon juice, cold pressed
extra-virgin olive oil, fresh garlic, raw apple cider vinegar, black
pepper and Celtic sea salt...

09/22
I found a recipe in the Rainbow Green Live Food Cuisine book that is
almost the same as the raw dish I had at Tree of Zion..( the "Sweet
and Sour Cauliflower" with the Curry sauce) . I made it. It is
called," Garam Masala Gobi" , and it is so good. I replaced the
Macadamia Nuts with Hazelnuts. The ingredients are: Cauliflower,
Macadamia Nuts, Olive Oil, juice of 1 Lemon, Celtic Sea Salt, Garam
Masala, Cayenne ( I threw in half a Jalapeno becuase somebody stole my
cayenne) and garnished with Cilantro.

Even though I used organic tiny Cauliflower it was a lot! I have two
big bowls left over.

I also had a little 1/4th of the Raw Carob Brownie that Glaser Farms
made that my mom got in Wild Oats.

I had coconut smoothies.

I love My Beautiful Horse and I love my relatives.

I have a huge container of Mung Sprouts. I have yet to find a use for
them besides Salad toppings. In the Orientalstore I saw Candies with
Mung Bean filling so I wonder if you can make sweet stuff with them?

I rode my bike to Deering Estate in the woods at night in the rain. It
felt good.

I juiced 4 organic Granny Smith Apples and 1/4 lime with skin..yummy

"Warming up to Living Foods" came in the mail for me so I am reading
it. I love getting raw food books. It keeps me entertained all night
and day. This book is different because in the recipes she uses
electric skillet to warm the foods up to 105 degrees

09/23
Hello, Today I made some raw cookies for my trip from the "Warming up
to Living Foods" recipe book by Elysa Markowitz called Hawaiian Treats
made with Apple, Hazelnut and Raisins ( I replaced with Dates). I have
a cookie press so I made them in sea shell shapes.


My 92 mineral Wheatgrass is ready! Before I go to Airport I will make
Chlorophyll drinks with Organic Apples too.

I drank some Rejuvelac that isn't quite ready yet. I made Limeade by
juicing 1/4 lime w/ peel and 4 organic Apples. I also had two
Sugarcane juices

I went to Tree of Zion with my mom and had Nori Rolls with Avocados,
Marinated Portobella Mushrooms, Curry Almond Pate, Carrots,
Lettuce..etc. It was 7 dollars and was so SO small, I mean...and they
forgot the Marinated Portabellas. It came with greens.

My Mom's Rawsta
pizza she said was small compared with last time. It's too bad. But it
was nice that we got to drive around and sit down and talk.

09/27 Costa rica rafting beauitful

For happy hour they served alcohol you mixed with a punch of FRESH
blended: Watermelon, Pineapple and Coconut they cut down. I didn't
have any alcohol of course. It was so good. Dinner I only had the
salad but it was sooooooo great. It was marinated in Lemon juice and
oil and was incredible. Very romantic.

The next morning me and My Beautful Horse woke up and we hiked and we
found a private waterfall under a canopy of rainforest with a beautful
pool and we went swimming nude and just loved each other so very much! He
wrote my name naked on some rocks under the falls with those chalk
rocks. We loved each other under a waterfall. We hiked down more later to investigate.

Day 2 of the rafting was even harder. We took a lot of breaks and ate
melons and Cantaloupe, I forgot. They made everything.

My Beautiful Horse had to see a client, to look at Documents..(so he
also wrote off the trip as business expense) I fell asleep. He brought
me back fresh Cocounts and opened them up for me and more Rambutans..
so fresh.. so red.. like hairy Lychees! I really felt the best eating
this fresh tropical food!

Breakfast was a buffet with many fruits and I had a lot, then plane home.
I get home and my chihuahua looks like a big fat dog. I am confused.
While I was away my mom was feeding it cooked food behind my back. I
guess we all know what happened next. We haven't spoken since. Can I
ever trust her again? How could she?

09/28
I rented Supersize me.

I ate Banana/date shakes and Bell peppers from Garden and Tomato salad
with Lemon juice, Jalapeno and Onion. I had 1/2 an Avocado. I drank
two Guarapos.

I just want some exotic fruit!!! I want the Durian in my Freezer but I
promised I would save it for me and MBH.

I am going to listen to Gregorian Chants and sleep early.

09/29

I drank 92 mineral wheatgrass I juiced with organic Apples. I had a
salad of Watercress and Tomato. I also ate Green Bell Peppers from
garden and 2 Sugarcane juices.

For snacks me and the dogs had Coconut butter spread atop Sprouted
wheat crackers. They love coconut butter!

I watched Supersize me. I recommend it..it is a documentary about a
guy going on a Mcdonald fast for a month and what happens to his body
and mind plus interviews with doctors, lawyers school people against
fast food. Plus fat people , alot of them.

That's all. I need exercise so bad but my bike tires are flat. I
walked the puppies down the canal.

I have to meet MBH tomorrow somewhere in the morning for a surprise.
He came over, when I was in bed listening to indian chants and he
borught me 10 Coconuts! He was covered in mud because it was rainy
out. He climbed up a coconut tree and cut them down. All this after
and all morning, afternoon and evening of really busy lawyer work. I
swear he loves me more than all my boyfriends combined. So why don't I
remember all this when I am grumpy at him? I need to treat him way
nicer than I do.

Live in the instant.

Goals: When I get back next year from TOL I am going to move next to
Tony Catanzaro's ballet studio.

09/30

JOHN KERRY AND GEORGE BUSH AT UNIVERSITY OF MIAMI in Coral Gables for
the Debate.

My beautiful horse picked me up. We protested against Bush outside of UM.

All I had to eat was a Mango and Sprout and Avocado salad at the Thai
Restaurant , MOON, where we were protesting. I had Coconut /Date smoothies and
a 1/2 gallon fresh Mamey juice.

All is not paradise though. I found my phone number programmed as
another name on his cell .
I am a raw food girl and so very very sensitive..

So I am still not going to speak with him until I know what to do
which is hard because super late last night he crept in my house and
into my bed and hugged me begging me to kiss him.

10/01
Today I made a recipe in Rainbow Green Cuisine called Cucumber Avocado
Salad. It also has Cherry Tomatoes, Basil, oil and Lime juice. I spent
an hour finely dicing everything in tiny squares. I made my mom a
plate too and I still have 2 bowls leftovers.

I also made Durian and Coconut smoothies
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all day long with all the
coconut in my fridge.

I paid off TOL for the apprenticeship so I am happy.

10/02
I had a Nori Roll at the raw vegan farmer's market. I had the girl
double nori wrap it. It was so good. I relished it. YUUMMMM..I later
had a Green drink made out of Kale, Cucumber, Celery, Apple, Spinach
etc

My mother got two quarts of Thai Coconut water and by the time we got
home they were all gone. She also got raw ice cream.

We visited our maid's house who has Avocado , lime and some other
trees like Papaya maybe or Pineapple..

She keeps all her dogs outside
in cages and they look like savages on a deserted island and smell,
saggy blood red eyes and are overweight . Her husband was drunk and
talking to me and I pretended I spoke no spanish.

10/03
I was on a live chat with Cherie Soria here a while ago and I emailed
her asking for a green soup recipe and she sent it to me
Garden Blend (Soup)
>Recipe by Cherie Soria
>Serving Size: 4
>
> 2 tablespoons lemon juice
> 1/2 cup orange juice
> 1 cucumber, seeded
> 1/8 bunch parsley, washed well
> 1 avocado, peeled and seeded
> 1/2 bunch kale, washed well and de-stemmed
> 1/4 bunch cilantro, dill, or basil
> 1 clove garlic
> 1 1/2 cups water
> 2 tablespoons light miso (optional)
> dash Himalayan Crystal or Celtic salt ( to taste)
> � red jalape�o pepper or dash cayenne (optional)
>
>1. Combine ingredients and puree until smooth. Pour into individual bowls
>and serve immediately.
>2. For variety, garnish soup mixture with seasoned sunflower or pumpkin
>seeds or top with salsa or tomato concasse. Or, drizzle with herb infused
>oil, chili oil, or pumpkin seed oil

To MBH: it hurts me very much you haven't broken it off officially
with your ex. I guess it hurts, that is all. Hurts me for you.

10/06
I haven't been eating too well.

Curry Nori Crackers, these dehydrated
snacks I dipped in Guacamole.

Nori Rolled up: garden herbs/ bell
peppers from garden/Nama Shoyu.

Yes I am broke. The closest
supermarket is Publix and I NEVER go there. They carry GE foods.

I drank alot of sugar cane juice. I want Kale salad soooo bad.

Last night was the last night I see MBH in a long time.

It was romantic, we watched the Vice Presidential debate and had
Carob/organic Banana/ Date /organic Avocado Smoothies.

He is the only guy I have loved being fully raw foodist. I
can't tell if it is the raw food or just him but ...I have truly never
( truly never) had such amazing love before! I swear, "The best
time ever " is constantly being beat! This time I was doing it and
laughing. weird huh? From happiness! There was nothing dirty about us but pure and joyous!

He had tears in his eyes because I was mean to him after my water
fasting tantrum. Wow. He really loves me.

10/08
Hi I am so happy today!!!
I am going to eat Carrot/ Sprouted Chickpea hummous. I had Thai
Coconut and organic Banana smoothies.
My dogs ate Chopped
Tomato/Avocado dressed in Olive Oil.

I read The ENTIRE Raw Knowledge book by Paul Nison yesterday. I spent
the whole day in bed, yes I did!

He said sleeping we don't get enough
of so I slept all day and I feel soooo goood!! He said alarm clocks
are worse than drugs or other poisons. I couldn't agree MORE! He said
it is impossible to oversleep. YEP

Congratulations Paul, I loved it so much better than Raw Life! I loved
the part about Natural mothering and homeschooling. I want my
boyfriend to think like you!

Tommorow I am going to the raw vegan Farmer's market in Coconut Grove
and getting Nori Rolls and then at 8 pm Flying to AZ and staying in a
hotel for the night and tommorow I am going to Tree of Life. 3 months.
yay!

Last night I have the last of my powdered Algae that was in the fridge
for a long time. I could not sleep. I was like WOOOOO!!

10/11


I am at the Tree of life

MMMM I just ate granola, almond milk and a salad.
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I wanted wheatgrass
but the tray is gone.

Last night it was spiroolied veggies and sauces.

10/17
Tree of life: had two of these for breakfast today..cookie with coconut
cream atop with zest and mint/pistachio sauce. This place is
unbelievable.


I made some notes on the past 6 days. Here they are. I am usually so
busy making food, juices, hiking, meditating or sleeping and eating to
write in journal . I am sorry. I will try to do it nightly now that
our computer is fixed.

I ate Almond Mylk with granola/muesli.

There is so much food here and
so many dishes.

I am trying to only eat phase 1 because as you know I
am addicted to sweet fruit and I have all sorts of problems with that
and am moody alot.
I hope phase 1 mellows me out.
It is very low
glycemic no sweet fruits but coco pulp is ok!

Many, Many things growing in their gardens and greenhouses and trees
like apples..but wild on the property is stuff like Mesquite, sage,
amaranth, agave...

The natural forest is walkable here to, up a mountain. I think the
apprentice with the teepee is living there.

They have EM hottubs with microorganisms in there and trampolines with
oxygen masks and ozone therapy. A part where only women are allowed
too.

Tonight there is a women's circle with dancing chanting poetry and
just girls dressing up and having a good time.

There was a Q and A with doctor Yashpal who has a long beard.
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Mostly
about raw food. I found out I was a VATA.

Lunch and breakfast are the best productions here , while dinner is
leftover soups or inventions and whatever is leftover of that , goes into flax
seed crackers.

In the kitchen they play indian chants, songs like " shabbat shalom"
or classical or sattvic music.

There are so many dishes here like chili, seaweeds, salads, sauces,
perfect bread, croissants, kim chees, krauts, curry dishes, lilac
frosted little "chocolate" cakes..










I went to sunset meditation
 
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on world peace and was told that a
translation of one of the chants means to meditate on a cucumber
before it hits the ground in mid air and to let go like it.
Walked home under the stars. It's all a hike.

I made 6 6 layer quiches.
 



I went wheatgrass crazy and had tastes of everything.

We had a food prep class with the saucist zucchini fettucine alfredo.
This had sundried tomato slices in it and was put in a mound on a
plate with beautiful garnishes.

Mock Bleu cheez dressing for the salads
and sprouts.

I saw my first Javelina. They are these wild pig /rat looking
creatures that try to eat our compost. Scary. Do not get in their way
to the forest!

The organic lemons are green inside becausse the seeds sprout!

I went to a sweat lodge.

 I love it so much. 2 hours packed in the dark
in a little cave with hot rocks and water poured over them and the
heat... well it takes mental energy to bear it and also you cannot be
claustrophobic. We said all prayers for ourselves and others and
chanted. Some people didn't couldn't make it,MENTALLY ...but what happens in
there stays there.

Before every meal we all say blessings and invite certain angels to
join us and hold hands and connect with the earth, each other, our
bodies etc.. and we do OMMMM's

It was the angel of water at one blessing and this lady said that
there was a study done with glasses of water and words taped to it.
The water with words like, " I hate you" and " I am going to kill you"
was unstructured and chaotic.. and the opposite was treu for "I love
you " etc. She said our bodies are made up mostly of water so we need
to think beautiful thought.

Smoothies with granola and coconut cream. Pates, and cream green
dishes. Always and avocado kale tomato salad.

At breakfast a girl sings sometimes playing a weird instrument.
Someone in kitchen found a clam in the dulse. Funny!

I had cabbage rolls and tons of salad with dressings. 

 
I tried goji
berries for the first time.
Yogurt was amazing : Coconut pulp, salt,
stevia, lemon, ginger, cinnamon and spiced fig mylk.



Packages of sage from Mikvah were given to us.
I learned to make
sacred challah for shabbat we have.

I ate biscotti, bagels with almond
butter atop.

The shabbat was cool. We danced outside holding hands invoking the
divine sacred feminine and chanted. Then we meditated and then washed
each others hands and dried them with prayers personal..and we drank
grape juice and fed each other challah and then the guy told a story
of adam and eve's wedding and noah.

There was a blessing with the angel of body before dinner so we
massaged each other in a circle left and right and then ommm'ed
feeling our bodies vibrate. neat.

The kitchen is so unbelievably sanitized every night and dishes and
vegetables are put in hydrogen peroxide solution. Noone flushes the
topilets when peeing. The water here out oif the tap is all reverse
osmosis and drinkable.

Every body is always saying great things like " you guys are
phenomenal!" and kids are hugging everyone and there is such peace
always!

There is a little girl's bday party.
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Last night everybody worked on a
"chocolate " cake..

I went to Hav Dallah which is closing of shabbat. I meditated 45
minutes and had a conversation with my brain cells, heart,
organs..sending them love and asking if they needed anything!

10/18

We had a bday party today for an 8 year old girl. It was the best
bday party I have ever been to.

There were two raw cakes, PHASE 1 ( I
am doing all phase 1 while I am here maybe a month to clean my sugar
addiction up, it is no sweet fruit, sweeteners and no fermented stuff)
and PHASE 2 sweet stuff like fruits dates

Phillip gave a class on Rainbow green cuisine. I read Robert Young's
sick and tired on the plane here so I knew what he was talking about.

When you eat cooked food and do chemicals your body thinks it is dying
and starts composting itself with bacteria, yeast and fungus and you
can see this in live blood analysis.

We spent 3 1/2 hours doing a class on that and also knife skills and
presentation. I learned the super easy was to scoop out coconut
flesh..with a baby plastic spatula! I learned you can peel ginger with
the back of a spoon.

We also did presentation skills like piling the small amount of food
up and garnishing with zest and sauces drizzled or paprika sprinkled
on the plates.

I could not go to Sunset meditation because I was so exhausted. One
other girl feels that too. I mean on the way to the airport in Miami I
got a half gallon sugarcane juice and that is what I used to drink in
one sitting back home. I used to eat 12 bananas and dates and all
sorts of sweet tropical fruit. Now the sweetest thing I eat is coconut
flesh and boy do I feel so much more mellow..but tired. It could be
like a detox.
The tap water10


10/20
Hello diary! I am at the Unity house. After the morning shift I found
myself dead exhausted. Again. I am frightened. I am so tired the mile
between the cafe and here was like a dream.

I am missing a KRAUTING class. I love fermented foods, but after I ate
lunch I felt really bad and had to go home. I really hope I feel
better for sunset meditation and meditation in the temple. I love
that!

My pee is green too and my nose is runny. My energy ( sweetfruit
sugar) is all gone. I told myself I would do the healing diet of phase
1 while I am here. I am so happy to learn how to be a healthier raw
foodist. I am grateful.

Today breakfast was Salad bar, Fruit salad, nut milks and even a phase
2 black sesame milk with carob and spices. They had granola out over
COCONUT CREAM which I remember making at 6 am. It is just coco pulp
and coco oil.

The phase 1 has the lemon slice over it. The fruit salad had dried
mulberries to saok up the fruit juices, figs, concord grapes, pears
and strawberries and cinnamon.

On the other side there is the usual
salad bar with everything!!

In the kitchen all day they were making power smoothies with all the
figs and coco water and spirulina. I got a bunch of green juices too!

I snacked on Coconut pulp all day too.I love it here and I love
everyone.

Lunch was a dream . We were supposed to make eggplant raviolis but no
eggplant so I spiroolied about 5 squashes and 6 peeled daikons. We
made amazing marinara sauces, the phase 2 marinara had figs in it.


Phase 1 had dehydrated red peppers that were so warm and juicy, like
it was cooked! Salt cumin olive oil sundried tomato, lemon juice,
rehydrated walnuts...all blended with a little cayenne and fresh
herbs.

I also made a pesto sauce out of the rainbow green book but with
pecans and some hing. People like to spread it on their italian bread.
Noone here follows recipes exactly and people use hands instead of
measuring cups and their heart to spice.

Then me and Kasha made his Italian bread recipe. I would show a pic
but a pic a day is enough for you all. We made it out of flax seed
powder, pecans, tomato, italian seasoning..oh I forget. we rolled it
out just like dough on powdered board and formed into a loaf. we
sliced it and placed it on dehydrator tray. Brushed with olive oil and
sprinkled with thyme. We dehydrated it at 145 for an hour.
 

Me and Gabriel Cousens and Christy

At the TOL
they believe you can use that temperature just for an hour or two
because the water sweats out and enzymes are not destroyed.Also
inhibits fermentation and is quick. they were ready by dinner.

We massaged the marinara sauces into noodles with a little oil and
cumin.. and put a mound on a plate. we took half a slice of the bread
and put it in the middle of the pasta facing up. Garnished with basil
and the outside of the plate was drizzled with some runny pesto sauce
in a ketchup bottle like container. PRESENTATION.

They like to put shower caps over bowls when they are stored in the
fridge. Neat idea instead of wasting plastic wrap.

I drank so much
brazilian love mylk. it is so good. maybe that is what is weighing in
me too. ONLY ONE NUT MYLK A DAY FOR ME.

10/21
Woke up and went to do my day of sprouting and harvesting. It was so
much fun. I carried this wagon 1/4 mile up a rocky road in the blazing
desert sun. I got lost of course and wound up by the labyrinth.


A real labyrinth to play in,
 like a gigantic maze int he desert
 


Me and Ben did so much. We watered the wheatgrass trays. How we could
tell they needed watering was by their weight , we lifted them up. He
talked to me about the raw guru..anyways.. he told me all these
sprouting secrets. We brought like 6 trays of greens back to cafe and
I harvested them washing them in a solution of a teaspoon of hydrogen
peroxide to a big bowl of water to kill bacteria.

I sat next to a big red bowl of peeled ginger slices in apple cider
vinegar/beet juice for our sushi at lunch. I helped peel the ginger
with a spoon too.

We went back up to the sprouting greenhouse..so many trays!! There I
made soil with my hands..4 scoops peat moss, 2 scoops this vermicultie
and 1 scoop dirt..then I planted dirt and seeds into trays, about 30
of them and I watered them down. I planted buckwheats, wheatgrass and
sunflower..

The gardener taught me everything even what peat moss was.

The gardener let me try stevia..it was a leaf that tastes like the
sweetest sugar but it isn't and phase 1 ok!

We saw those Javelinas..pig rats ,

a family of them going thru the
compost..if you saw a photo of the thai coconut compost you would
die..yes we eat a billion of those.. they look like skulls all rotting
away..when they break down they grind them up and use them for their
garden soil.

I went back and then I filled three big jars with seeds and rinsed
them twice and soaked them in the same hydrogen teaspoon solution.

They soak nuts that way too for 20 minutes and the water is black! I
was told that is the bacteria on the nuts.

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Lunch..There is the ginger..the wasabi (wasabi and tomato water)is on
the plate with red bell pepper/coco pulp and oil .. drizzled for
presentation..with the bowl of miso sauce..(barley miso and water)it
was so hot.

My friend made that...In the middle of the sushi rolls was
the best SEAWEED salad..made from sea palm..mmmmmmmmm The "rice" in
the sushi was just processed cauliflower..and then there was the
sprouts I harvested..avos..what else? bell peppers .

10-22

Went to mexico for a little while with Dan
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Came home, and
I was given a plate of Indian food. Chapati shaped like a heart, Sea
Apple Salad, Aloo Paleek..mmmm, Chennai Curry and some kind of soup. I
snacked on dehydrated pumpkin seed pulp ( THEY WILL GRIND INTO FLOUR)
from the pumpkins the day before.



Phillip gave me two - three glasses of Green juices to balance me out
and I spent my shift washing dishes because they only want good energy
in their food.
I soaked some Mission figs and Raisins and Hazelnuts.
I went to sunset meditation , It was in the temple because it was cold
and it rained like crazy.

The rain was very soothing.

Our shoes were
outside but we were all meditationg 40 minutes so it was ok. I just
meditated and my mind was at ease.

Breakfast was a bunch of stuff but I got Coconut Dream Cream... a
green pudding with Coco pulp, Avocado and Himalayan sea salt and a
bunch of Granola on top.

They had ph 2 Carob Mint Mylk too and Mylks
and Berries etc

10/22 meeting
The girl brought out cacao brownies and I had a lot..like three plus I
offered to take the crumbs!

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I am missing a Sacred Challah bread making class and biscotti class
now, becasue I have to recharge my camera then I am going back up.

For breakfast...FEIJOAS!!!! The best guava like fruit ever. I had a
bite although I am phase 1. they were in a fig soak water sauce..to
serve with granola and nut mylks of all flavors..they had a pink nut
mylk too.

Someone left the biscotti and bagels out on 145 degrees all night long
so it was cooked definitely..Some people put handmade almond butter on
the bagels and all tried to justify it, it was funny.."it's just
sweated out".."it's still moist." "it's ok , I think.."
I didn't have any..for sure!


We met these people from Toronto going to the Eden hot springs retreat
after here with David Wolfe and they said that in this raw restaurant
in Toronto, Super Sprout I think.. They had a 7 course CACAO dinner
all low glycemic..WOOWW

Plus here at TOL they made ph 1 and ph 2 yogurt and it was made out of
like coconut pulp and the ph2 had L. Salivarius planted in it last
night so it was real yogurt..tasted a little tangy sour too, I had a
bite.

The brownies are phase 2 too but I made an exception today!! weeeeee
Raw Sacred Challah they make for shabbat every friday night.
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It has
unbelievable stuff in it..tastes sweet. They have two loaves.. I think
the sauce on top is raisins and coconut water, I missed the class.

We also juiced concord grapes, well.. blended and strained with nut
bags. Our hands are purple

They put a few apples wrapped in a towel in the cases of avocados.
They say some gas makes the avos ripen faster.

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I had alot of almond butter..buttery!
I sliced a huge bowl of hot peppers and put them on dehydrator trays
probably to grind into powder.

Kasha never showed up to make cacao things.

Someone told me the couple from Toronto said Woody Harrelson wanted
them to move to Hawaii with him. They look so cool. Toronto people can
dress.

MBH in Collumbia.He says he has to eat Mcdonalds or else he gets very
sick with flu like symptoms, if he eats local meat.. That is what he
believes. No wonder. I feel bad.

I can't wait to make him Green
juices. When we were in Costa rica he ate at Mc donalds, I was so
horrified.


Dinner was stir raw ( broccoli, red bell pepper, yellow squash,
celery, spearmint,.etc) with Pang pang sauce (Almond sesame oil,
basil, chili , salt, hing, ginger lemon) over cabbage rice..on top of
everything and the herbs tthere was a flower or a red cherry tomato to
garnish.

They had pink drinks, coconut water in pitchers, etc..

My skin has cleared up and my face is so smooth..I am getting energy
back.. I feel beautiful. i still am shy but I am attracting people
that talk to me alot.

I meet new people.

Someone said there is a place in Reno looking to hire apprentice from
here to live there at a resort rent free and everything included to
uncook for 3-4 families. An apprentice last time here hired to work in
the Phillipines at araw food resort and a girl here has already made
connections and possibly a new job in her city.


10/23
Brunch today was Stuffed Tomatoes with pate made from Macadamias,
soaked Pumpkin seeds, olive oil, himalayan sea salt, innards, lemons
herbs, etc..It was sitting on top of a mound of Kale/Avocado/Tomato
salad which was massaged with salt to soften, like it was steamed per
se. Decorated with sprouts.
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The recipe is on this page:
http://www.treeoflife.nu/cafenewsletter.html#Anchor-Feature-28073

I made a Very berry vinaigrette with a ton of raspberries,
strawberries, raw balsamic vinegar (omega nutrition), herbs, olive
oil, chickpea miso.

I also made the Coconut cream for the desert and
pies we made.

The night before two different kinds of bliss balls were made so we
used a pastry bag and made three coco cream mounds and put a ball on
top of each. Then we drizzled with either jams or coocnut cream.

The
jams were made from Strawberries, Coconut oil, Lemon salt..etc and one
more was with Persimmon lemons salt and agave. We put them in ketchup
bottles.

My friend made two pies. One was with persimmons, figs lemon and agave
and the other was with strawberries, figs, lemon salt etc.. both were
frozen for 1 hour and both had a pecan crust.

I found that someone left the super big 24 tray dehydrator on high.
That means all like 24 trays ( mostly of nut pulp) were cooked. I

don't think anyone noticed but I turned it down. Lastnight I noticed
it was hot. I keep an eye out.

The persimmon one had coconut cream on top and strawberries in the
shape of a heart. It was phase 2 so all I had were bliss balls with
the coconut cream. It was a dream. Everybody loved them.

There was so much to snack on.. other apps made cookies and bread like
things plus these drinks..

Everybody here takes these weird green powders and drops and
supplements. but me.. I watched a girl pour green powder on her cereal
one morning and I was like , "what's that?". Sometimes I see other
workers make a plate and throw it all in the blender with these
powders. People are really into it.

10/24
Phase 2 Cinnamon Rolls (raw).. one was made with nut flour ( nut pulp
from nut mylks dehydrated and ground), coconut raisins figs
cinnamon,raspberries, macadamias, stevia..etc


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Oh my god, I overate the cinnamon rolls! I had the phase one on a
mound of coconut creame with mint and poppy seeds. It was so flaky and
gooey inside and tasted better than any Connamon Roll I have ever
tasted. it totally shadowed the brunch.

Brunch was a version of potato salad I think, called Veggies and
chhese..with brocolli, yellow squash, zucchini, red bell peppers,
macadamia nuts, lemon juice, herbs, spices topped with avocados,
dandelion, tomato, lemon j..etc.. 

I also had at the salad bar this
delicious massaged mustard green salad that was a little sweet..it had
similar ingredients with kale and almond butter somewhere in there.

I over heard a kid talking. He had to drink oil last night because he
is on a liver flush.. He said he passed hundreds of stones..he said
the average person has 3000.

Everybody wants enzymes now because last night at the class Phil said
Gabriel takes them everyday. Rave reviews on Vitazymes(??)..We had a
class about food and it's quality. At the Tree of life organic food is
the baseline for healthy food...above it there are so many categories,
wildcrafted, permaculture, etc..that are better..

10/25
Raw Pizza Today. Marinara sauce is tomatoes, sundried, olive
oil..herbs spices.. and crust was almond flour flax, sundreid tomato,
cilantro and herbs etc.. toppings were avocado, fennel, brocolli etc
with Parmezan cheeze sauce..mac nuts, ginger lemongrass, almond mylk
etc..
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I got a Fed EX from MBH. He sent me shoes to walk in.. that is SOOO nice!! .
Now I want enzymes. I feel like I do need them I eat so much.

Especiaslly after those Cinnnamon rolls.

Breakfast today was heavy too, I asked for a whole bowl of coconut
cream too with the sweetest Mylk called silly sweet..it had like
hazlenut, almond, coco water, agave and pumkin seed in it.. ph. 2 but
I had just a little. Breakfast was muesli and fruit salad like with
figs and all these jams!! I only had the phase 1 kind.
phases and the healthiest healing raw foods here is a chart:
http://www.treeoflife.nu/cafea4.html

I am only eating phase 1 because I want to. healing and getting over
my sugar addiction and killing off yeast and fungus that live off
sugar, because I live in a polluted city..you know..at home.

Kasha.. he is having a party Wednesday at this house.. He says he has
a website Rawzion.com and that we can order all this stuff from him.
he is nice.

I am craving cacao big time. The other day in
the kitchen they made

drinks for everyone with cacao and maca..I missed it of course.
Pretty soon we are going to do the menu planning/inventing creating
our own recipes..

I think I want to make some of alissa's or alex's
recipes.. I can't figure out what yet..

Maybe alissa's ravioili's? We
can make whatever we want..Hmm..

I do like Roxanne's "pad thai with
almond chile sauce".

It cost me 100 dollars when I made it for a
potluck with all the ingredients months back..with like 20 dollar
almond jar bottles and organic produce.. but they have everything
here! I am sure I can replace things too..I would love to make it but
make it so it is right.

The recipe is in the book raw with charlie
trotter or here ..
http://starchefs.com/chefs/RKlein/html/pad_thai_r_klein.shtml

10/26
We made today..middle eastern dishes, I helped teach a class and we
made the hummous.. My friend made falafels and I made Tzatzcki(?)
sauce..

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Breakfast was green gooddess smoothies and other various coco
pulp ones..I also ate granola.

Justin the head chef was gone because he had a raw baby with
Donna..the other head chef. cabb


They both came in today with the prettiest
baby I have ever seen. It was his first day at work since. He has a
British accent and long dreads he keeps in hat.

10/28
FULL MOON/ECLIPSE POWER DRINK PARTY UNDER THE STARS

Last night it was cacao drink /goji bery/new zealand bee
pollen/maca/almonds, agave..you nae it. I had so many cacao drinks
filled to the top I was like..ahhh


The girl who made the smoothies was water fasting (3 weeks)so she
could not taste them or try as she went along.. they were all too
strong, too cacao bitter or way too sweet..The all goji bery one was
nice and pink and thick with who knows what goodies..!!

Everybody passed around abox with drums, didgeridoos, bells,
tamborines, chimes, rainsticks, etc.. and everyone played something
and we all weatched the lunar eclipse full moon right before our
eyes.. It was so magickal! The night sky out here is so beautiful..
when the moon is full you can see like it was daylight!

The food we made last night was so amazing..I couldn't believe it was
such a hit.. we made Thai soups with soup base, coconut pulp, "soba "
noodles with sea palm..

and we made the pate recipe shaped into a loaf
and dehydrated as bread and then marinated thai brocolli around the
soup dish with the bread standing up in the middle of the soup!
decorated with sprouts..


I saw everything they put in the soups and I thought it wasn't going
to work.. it was awesome tasting, lemongrass, ginger, lemon
juices..etc in a soup base..

Raw food is so organic no two recipes
will taste the same and you cannot fail..

All that is needed to adjust
the seasonings to your own tastes with spices..I powdered a lot of
sundried tomato in one..


I saved porridge from breakfast and had some later. YUMM> a bunch of
processed hazlenuts ( soaked )with a ton of thai coco pulp and
lemon/oj zest, stevia, cinnamon or whatever else..flax oil..agaves,
pumpkin seeds..etc..mixed with coco/water to be just like porrigde!
but better!

Someone made someone a bday xcake today,

I only saw the outside
covered in cream and decorated with carrot/Feijoa shavings..it is made
for a guy who doesn't eat dehydrated foods..I also I figure it is
carrot cake..
When I see this guy he takes his whole meal and asks us
to blend it into a soup and sometimes I tase it and it doesn't always
tatse good. oh well, it needs lemon, spices, etc..

I am really liking enzymes, especially this morning when I had all
that bitter cacao sludge in my stomach

10/29
I
taught a class on how to make cacao brownies. I grabbed an apprentice,
" can you help me?" It wasn't for the guests but for our
apprenticeship meeting today but a guest wound up buying half the
brownies.

Food was amazing. Justin really put together an amazing lunch..so
good..cabbage rolls with daikon noddles inside with asparagus, bell
pepper, celery sauce..herb sauces.."cilantro pesto"

Breakfast was always amazing..leftover porridge was made into these
crepe cookie things and we had fruits cream etc..porridge, granola..

When I was teaching my class a raw food baby came in with her mom to
watch and she was breastfeeding right in friont of everyone..sigh..
so beautfiul.. this baby is a few weeks old and actuially sees
people.. her eyes move to look at people and noone believes it..
usually babies havent opened theire eyes or it is filmy..What a
wonder!

10/30 Biscotti coco cream
 
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raw breakfast today..also bagels too and mylks and salad bar..


I went to the hot tubs tonight while everyone was at shabbat..



I cut up a bunch of peppers to dehydrate and then they powder it to
use as spice..I opened 4 cases of thai coconuts with Phillip..
chloroPHIL..I prepped for the morning, juiced green juices and did
night shift stuff..

Chef justin has all these different colored powders for colors and
decorating made from dehydrated and ground veggies..like watermelon
radishes or carrots for orange.. neat..

We ate the raw cacao brownies at the meeting..

 
yummy.. when my bday hits I
am buying cacao, enzymes , probiotics, goji berries and the new
zealand bee pollen that tastes like candy.. for xmas presenets etc..

Raw vegan food and bee pollen

Raw vegan food


LOOK at this so fascinating!! and to think we are made up mostly of
water http://harmonywater.net/images.htm

10/31


Justin had us make these ice cream cone looking things with coconut
cream/lemon juice and a fruit roll up held together with water cone and
berrie ( wild blueberries) sauce.
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I myself just filled a bowl with the
coconut cream , ate some more and saved some for later.. Coco cream
addict!

I spent the shift breaking open pomegranates and getting juice all
over my new white shirt and my hands were stained black! I also made
this incredible Tahini dressing sauce out of the book and we blended
in 4 batches of dill.

We made a cool entree too with sauces and purees and we presented it
really nicely. Earlier we had stuffed figs, too

11/01
5 pies for lunch
wish I could show all the pies..it was my day off so I will try to
rememeber one was rose water raspberry..
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Another persimmon with bee pollen
sprinkles..

( the kind they sell here for 12$ a bag are so sweet..
like candy and colorful too..).

I think a apple cranberry pie too..um


Oh THE BEST was phase 1 key lime pie.. yes, I forget I am doing phase
1 but I make exceptions for cacao!

The entrees were so good.. 4
different kinds of dishes on a plate with this delicious bread.




I talked to this girl who said when she was a fruitarian she weighed
65 lbs..She looks good now at 95.. really pretty.. she is 19 but looks
so young like 12. It took her an hour to eat one plate of food.. small
bites, pauses and long chewing.. I would like to be 95.. I am like 105
..I always liked skinny girls.. she looks really healthy. I like long
hair too. I want mine to grow really long!!

I also went into the bathing suit required hot tub after brunch and
then two girls come in naked.. oh well..

11/02 I got a raw cacao cake for my bday

It was not a phase 1 HAHA..It was soooooo good, I almost died when I
saw it. I never had a cake so special made for me in my entire life!
Growing up I had supermarket cakes. This meant so much to me. There is
so much love in this place. I love it. Just when I think it can't get
any better here, it is!!
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11/04
I went to a raw carrot cake demo today. It is for this girl Libby who
has been living in a bus doing a 3 week water fast. She used to be an
apprentice.

She isn't eating any cake but wants one for everybody to
eat.
Anyways during the demo of the three layer work of heaven..crust,
cake and icing ..yum.. I tasted it all.., donna was there with her
baby..

She gave me the best advice I have ever heard : "NEVER TRUST
YOUR RECIPES, ALWAYS GO BY TASTE.." or something like that. Isn't that
true??


I met Gabriel Cousens. What a great person. He was all over israel or
something and did spiritual fasts out in the wilderness with a bunch
of people. How great. He said they all baecame one mind.

Before meditation he said, " just one person meditating on world peace
daily will change the global brain and even affect the whole entire
solar sysytem.." wow. I love him.


11/06
Avocado boats with sprouts and asparagus.
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I made a big salad too on
Salad bar and nori wrapped some raw dishes.

Breakfast was coconut
slices in creamy porridge.
I had yerba mate all day.
I bought 100 bottle of systemic Vitalzymes and 50 dollar bottle
digestive enzymes powder form. wow.

Shabbat was so much fun with Gabriel. He said Shabbat is a place
everyone can come to beyond space and time, also remembering nothing..
forgetting the past and throwing away the future to just be and feel
spiritual joy. It was too true.

I felt such a joy when all were
singing such pretty songs and I wasn't dancing but just rocking and
there was a band and we chanted mantras and stuff like YOD HEY hey wadhey
or something.

We passed around cacao challah and fed each other, drank
grape juice I juiced earlier with all my wishes and desires projected
into it..

It was supercool..

We blessed water and he talked about how
some guy proved you can give water emotions and how water has a memory and
then we washed our hands of what we wanted to get rid of and people
sitting next to us dried our hands.. etc..


He talked about Bush and the war and how to teach peace we have to be
peaceful and how this election was really a divine thing because it
showed how blinded people are and how they really need something
drastic to realize it..

Well, not in those words but he was saying it
is like a message about our world and how something has to happen to
change..

like we are in pre change or something..

After dancing some more, fun..we did meditation. During, "meditation
of the Divine" for that is what the purpose of meditation is.

Javelinas outside were mating and it was very loud, screaming
like..funny. He walked around and touched us between the eyes to
"awaken the kundalini"

but if nothing happened the kundalini was not
ready to open up as in my case.
I had my head down during meditation
because I was so tired.

I really like Gabriel Cousens, he is such an interesting person..noone
is holier than thou but he mirrors our own spiritual selves we are
capable of. He is like a catlyst to all those wonderful emotional and
spiritual feelings you only hear about but never actually feel..they
exist and are wonderful!
I felt such joy my feet and legs were..like
cold but not cold..like loving light.. just refreshed feeling..like
energy! During chanting I felt heavenly energy.

I also felt such a
divine light presence that was magical.

11/07


MY BEAUTIFUL HORSE came and visited me for 3 days 2 nights..my days
off. He surprised me. He loves me so much.

He took me to Tombstone..MBH took me to a real ex brothel to sleep in
( only one vacant)..We saw old photos of the madames and ladies and
whole history...

and we went out in a bar ( so he could have two
beers) that was around in 1900 called Crystal palace. It's famous. I
don't like bars tho'

The next day we saw the ok corral. We saw little reenactments of the
shootings there by Earp, Clancy (?)

We went to Boothill museum and all the Gravestones were like," shot,
suicide, murdered, killed by apachees,hung, hung legally,
smallpox..etc.."

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We ate at tree of life. He had pad thai that was really cool.
 
We also spent a day in abandoned mines and found antiques like
bottles..
We found a shack from around 1900 with old fashioned things
in it. He found a cool sign with a skull on it warning that hanging
around abandoned mines was a death trap. he mailed it to FL.
We visited many ghost towns of the area like with abandoned adobe
brick buildings and tin sheds.

We saw coyotes, fox, rabbits, deer, crows, horses and cows in the
middle of the road..etc


Me and MBH




We also hung out in caves and he said indians probably lived in there.
He taught me to drive. So exhilarating..dirt roads and mountains in
the background

We climbed a MOUNTAIN. We did. No trail either just straight up rocks.
It was a huge real mountain two..in like 4 hours.

I am so proud.

Oh and he brought me a durian, tamarinds and Mamey from florida, on the plane!

Tonight I
made a durian smoothie in the kitchen..only me and two people could
stand the smell.
I guess I was phase 2 when he was here.

Today we had raw lasagna

11/10
Breakfast today NUT mylks so good..and the red stuff on top of tart is
chopped apples and pears in wild blueberry sauce

There was a cacao drink party with persimons, mesquite, carob etc...to
say goodbye to this guy who was here.

Someone made a mess in the bathroom. There is wheatgrass juice
squirted , no, sprayed! all over the walls and the toilet was green.
HA WHEATGRASS -enema mess maybe???

11/11

Llunch

It was like an avocado sauced sunflower sprouts, with for garnish
other sprouts, I think sesame seed sprouts? with like a spiroolied and
chopped "risotto" like of daikon or squash with a kind of alfredo
sauce and another kind of sauce.

I worked the evening so I don't know


I just finished 4 rounds of sweat lodge. It was the best. I sweated
rivers and really held on to this good energy. I am a bit delirious
but I feel so high. Gabriel brougth a real good energy to sweat lodge.
It is my 3rd one. This was 2 hours. Great. I really really recommend
it. It is great.

At the cafe there is coconut water for all. My clothes were so wet,
dripping, I brought another dress I changed into. I am back at the
staff house all showered and wearing my satin nightgown and black
robe.

11/12
Yestrerday for dinnar Kasha made these soups..

 
got these olives
..oh my god, delicious.

and one soup was olive and something (?)soup
and the phase 2 was carrot yummy (?) something..

I made curried carrot
dressing for the salads out of recipe in rainbow green plus added
lemon and vinegar.

He makes the best things, I think.. Well from a comfort food filling
yummy point of view.. every chef is different. Some like presentation
 others food to satisfy.. I drank lemon juice and water and stevia
all night and had a few green drinks.

I need love and support and honesty

11/13
Raw food cake with Macadamias, lemon, coconut pulp..mmmm and they
placed the slices atop a mandarin orange sauce..


lunch was GRITS! yeah,
made out of jicama, coco pulp slippery elm etc..


It was for all of us
becasue an employee is leaving

"IF YOU DON'T SEE LOVE IN ALL YOU DON'T KNOW LOVE AT ALL.."-
apprentice here said that.

I love raw food. During work we made chocolate, raisin, coco pulp
mesquite etc etc smoothies..

There is a raw potluck in Patagonia tommorow and then a dance party
for an ex employee's bday.. It is so great. The dance parties are alot
of fun because it is just very high energy.. everybody is really into
dancing for hours and hours and you get "party" superfood drinks and
stuff

food cake again.

I am sorry if I post all these cake pictures, but
they are the prettiest. Mandarin orange, Persimmon, wild blueberries on
top, coconut pulp, zest, wild blueberry sauce, nuts, carob and tons of
goodies.
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I forgot to mention..yesterday we had carob/mesquite..raisin etc ice
cream..we later made leftovers
into smoothies with agave and all the
other sinful treats.
Breakfast was , " your momma don't live here make your own breakfast"
serve yourself , make your own porridge. I poured mesquite with carob
with nuts, ground flax.. etc there was figs and fruits and lots of
extras Drowned in original and sweet nut mylks.

They had mature
coconut mylk out too.

Today everybody loved lunch. I made it.


It was a pate that was
unbelievable. I made it times 20.


Ice cream scoop of it atop a salad
and then topped with an olive that was unbelievable stuffed with almond
and then these pear shaped sweet cheerry tomato slices everywhere.



Dessert was coconut pulp/ lemon etc ice cream with wild blueberry
sauce drizzled all over for ph 2 and a nut sauce for ph 1

The pate was so heavy plus I rolled it up with Nori sheets and pumpkin
seeds/ sauce salad, jicama etc


we are all in bed at 608.. so tired

11/14



Lunch was stacks and a masterpiece..stacks of different things and
flax crackers and patties in there too..

For dinner I ate alot and ChloroPHIL made Maca, wild blueberry,
coconut cream, cacao smoothies

11/16

Jicama mashed potatoes I made with 4 c jicama to 1 avocado processed
with generous Hing spice and Himalayan salt..







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the pate was a creation
of my friend's..fennel, salt, sunflower and sesame seeds, lemongrass
juice, tarragon, anise and lemon/lime essential oils..

The bread was
pumpkin..with flaxseed/ almond pulp flour and cinnamon etc..
Breakfast we had a bunch of smoothies..one had Rose water ( yum)
coconut pulp, stevia, cinnamon, slippery elm and salt..

another one..spirulina, stevia , maca, coconut pulp etc..

another one..caramel mocha tasting with pear , pumpkin seed
oil,coconut water, slippery elm, carob etc

and some mylks, my favorite was "girl scout cookie"..peppermint, pecans,
carob, salt etc..


I am so full

11/17
The tart was made from flax seed flour/ almond flour/ sundried
tomatoes, pumpkin seed oil..herbs and spices..

My friend made the
cheese out of lemon juice, macadamias and pine nuts etc..
and the
topping you can guess...

The sauces are made from different things too

We had raw fresh Guava ice cream with Mint topping and Coconut shreds
too! For salad dressings someone experimented with all these pureed
organic guavas..so yummy smelling!

Breakfast was heaven, I made that too....Muesli..I like making all the
phase 1 dishes..

The apprentices all have to m,ake the menu for next week.. some people
doing alissa's calzones, others mexican bread.. me..

MY ENTREE IS
GOING TO BE WEDDING CAKE!!! Truth! ( I am also making Hors d'oeurves
and fancy salad bar)

I want to be thin and beautfiul and an artist..I want to be really happy...

I had chapparahl tea and pau d'arco tea and cat's claw..
I put
hydrogen peroxide drops in my tea too.
I want to love everything.

11/18
!!!!!!!!!

I am making a real raw wedding cake over thanksgiving. A cake for 20
people..having a wedding or something. Funny what manifests.

I am sneaking all my tamarinds now here that MBH Brought me when he came.
Power dinks this evening... tachyonized water, greener grasses, blue
manna, cacao, coconut pulp,Pau d'arco tea with chaparral, vitamineral
green

I ordered Pure Synergy for me and MBH.. the powder
lunch was all raw indian..papadom, rice, indian spices, chutneys and
rices with raisin..

11/19




I read TACHYON ENERGY by Gabriel Cousens, David Wagner.. two brilliant
men, discussing the most fascinating subject..

I almost bought a large
Tachyon disc but I figure I will wait because I already got the water.

I am reading Sevenfold Peace by Cousens and I got the healing miracles
oF Coconut Oil.
I have a huge jar of tropical traditions coco oil..I
rubbed it in my hair to wahs out in the morning for conditioning..


I just drank a mason jar filled with Nut mylk .. I hope I can sleep
well.. I have to work in the morning.

This guy went to a thai raw food place called Au lac, I think in Los
Angeles. The chef is on a 7 year fast and does not speak. He had
durian pie there and brought us all back raw OREOS..

11/20
They are building a new sprout house.

I love Tachyonized water. I