What is my relationship to relationships? If my "relationships" is an object to me, when I am with him. If it was an object, our relationship, well then, how does it EXIST FOR ME? In the real world of friends I can tell everything to, how do I tell them, what my relationship IS:

The words I say and my strategies are and "blah blah" are not what my relationship is at all. How can we truly describe LOVE, and my relationship? I can't, ever, in words? No way! We are judging this THING out there that is a relationship.

We are just sharing "STORIES"... not the relationship. When we talk about them, just a story.

So we are all just related to "stories" about our relationship and that is IT. We don't even know, that we don't know this. And we think that is the way it is. It isn't!!

I live in a story? Yes I do! I live in a story I made up.

Love is an internal state. Something I feel or not.
Love can be created, we can call it acceptance. Love begins with..accepting a person with what they are, and what they are not. Allowing the other to be the way they are and how they aren't.

Instead of needing it to change or having something that needs to change, I will make what it "is" work for me. I have to be genuine and choose. I do not have to choose anything in any way.

There is a choice in accepting my relationship the way it is and the way it isn't

Well whatever has been wrong for me in the relationship, I am  going to look at as, " Do I accept or not?"
Freedom is in choosing not describing.We be who we want, to be, or resist it.
A way of being from the past.

/I am going on a watermelon juice fast until April 11. Only Watermelon until then. YEAH!


"Something is wrong" means: "I am not accepting", then I need to decide, "Am I able to accept this"?

People, like me, con themselves, denial, and fool themselves daily.. and this is really destructive. It is a great ability we humans have, but very dangerous. We cannot confront we are convincing ourselves into thinking things.We create worlds where things are not happening. WE need to experience the impact of  things not working for us to change. We bring the bottoms up to us.

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I am not waiting anymore for x to happen so I can be satisfied. Noone will ever make me satisfied and fulfilled. Only I. Ever. My work

I AM 100% responsible for any relationship working!!If they are 10% or 50% That is not relevant to me... creating at 100%.

 I need to be 100% responsible and I have to look at what things I need to give up or say or do.

I can accept that love is a declaration, not a description. I am resistant, a little, that I create the experience of being loved. I want to create that I am loved, in the way things are happening. I have the power to be loved.

What is the future of relationship?

 I never really learned anything or practiced relationships. How am I supposed to be successful? Just based on what I see on tv, is that how relationships are supposed to be learned?

What do I know about being related? That we need to have things in common, resolving conflicts, and be in love, etc..

That all comes from movies, parents, songs, books, trial and error etc..

All those things exist from THE PAST. Everything we know about being in a relationship is from the past. The past in the present.

watch

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hfcHgk10rbg

// Man I love that band!! I love Roky Erikson. The lead singer. I felt he is singing about me, to me, in the song..GUESS WHAT! I AM HAPPY I DISCOVERED:

I want to be in a relationship, desperate to be related to someone, BUT GUESS WHAT I DID NOT KNOW??

 we already all are in relationships!!!! We are ALL in the relationship, of all wanting, to be, in a relationship!!!

ahahahahaha!!

I am in a relationship with other people by BEING with them. I am with hundreds a day that walk by me, all related to me.!!

Meanwhile we all are desperate for relationship and that is our relationship, we are in one with everyone!!!

We are all doing the same exact things, with different answers.

We are trying to get somewhere in a relationship but we already ARE , we are already related!!! We already are in a relationship. All of us, with each other. Always, without even trying, we have IT that we need.

Ignoring friends for years does not mean we are not in a relationship anymore, we have always been RELATED before we met, and always will be, we are human!!

I am shining , beaming. breakdowns breakthrus up down tears joy. MY LIFE IS AWESOME!!!

I made some declarations of what I want to put in the future of my relationships with people.  I want to create with someone, how we even want to "be" , loving, happy, fun and incredible