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9/26, 9/27, 9/28, 9/29, Earthsave Vegan potluck photos, 9/30
Grand Opening Whole Foods Coral Gables
Wow. How exciting. I have been waiting for this for 3 years. This is as big as the one I saw in New York City. Well, almost.
Let me start with my day. I woke up weighed myself, 110, brushed my teeth, showered. Made watermelon juice.
Wow. How exciting. I have been waiting for this for 3 years. This is as big as the one I saw in New York City. Well, almost.
Let me start with my day. I woke up weighed myself, 110, brushed my teeth, showered. Made watermelon juice.
This morning a friend came over.
He took me to the new Whole Foods in Coral Gables, the grand opening today.
It was so large. He said the mayor was there earlier. It is by Sunset, a mall area on the other side of Coral Gables. It is by US1. I was so impressed. Everything looked fresh. The produce department was out of control. A giant Jakfruit was seen. Chopped produce available to. There was raw vegan guacamole and whole foods brand raw vegan guacamole. I saw things I did not know existed. I saw raw meat packages for DOGS. ( I told you I was ahead of the times, people used to say I was crazy for feeding my chihuahua raw meat.)
My friend ate all the free samples. There were alot of people on every corner cooking chicken sausage, salmon, wine, cakes, soup, beef, beef sticks, juices, cheese, chips, fruit, makeup, pills, ice tea, bottled water, green powder drinks, breads and cheesecakes.
I got second/third helpings for him, after he asked for samples. He was hungry. And I snuck them to him, sneakily. Lots of food. It was funny. There was an accentuated playfulness, and an affectionate approval.
I was heard saying, out loud, " Could I have a sample of shredded beef, I love beef!", without laughing. I would give the samples to him. That is what happiness does to me, makes me out of my mind. I did not recognize myself. Every minute with him, I was had fervid enthusiasm. Everything he said, was interesting.
He gave me a rundown of the big news. There is a big story going on in South Florida, a fugitive and his child boy lover ran off to Cuba after he robbed
Walmart, as their manager, for 90 thousand. They hired some people on a boat to take them for 4 thousand dollars to some remote island. The boat was found, out of gas, and they were caught fleeing to Cuba on life raft. The guys who drive the boat, disappeared. Probably dead.
It was so large. He said the mayor was there earlier. It is by Sunset, a mall area on the other side of Coral Gables. It is by US1. I was so impressed. Everything looked fresh. The produce department was out of control. A giant Jakfruit was seen. Chopped produce available to. There was raw vegan guacamole and whole foods brand raw vegan guacamole. I saw things I did not know existed. I saw raw meat packages for DOGS. ( I told you I was ahead of the times, people used to say I was crazy for feeding my chihuahua raw meat.)
My friend ate all the free samples. There were alot of people on every corner cooking chicken sausage, salmon, wine, cakes, soup, beef, beef sticks, juices, cheese, chips, fruit, makeup, pills, ice tea, bottled water, green powder drinks, breads and cheesecakes.
I got second/third helpings for him, after he asked for samples. He was hungry. And I snuck them to him, sneakily. Lots of food. It was funny. There was an accentuated playfulness, and an affectionate approval.
I was heard saying, out loud, " Could I have a sample of shredded beef, I love beef!", without laughing. I would give the samples to him. That is what happiness does to me, makes me out of my mind. I did not recognize myself. Every minute with him, I was had fervid enthusiasm. Everything he said, was interesting.
He gave me a rundown of the big news. There is a big story going on in South Florida, a fugitive and his child boy lover ran off to Cuba after he robbed
Walmart, as their manager, for 90 thousand. They hired some people on a boat to take them for 4 thousand dollars to some remote island. The boat was found, out of gas, and they were caught fleeing to Cuba on life raft. The guys who drive the boat, disappeared. Probably dead.
We ran into a girlfriend who works for this company of power juices. Some guy cured himself from death by these drinks. Yeah, Irish moss drinks and ginger tonics.
She is an architect, her 4th year at University of Miami. That is real academic rigor. It's a 5 year program. I told her to read the FOUNTAINHEAD by Ayn Rand. She has the longest lashes. She is so poised and graceful all the time.
I talked to her forever. We gossiped about the raw food market. I am abysmally apologetic to the way I left the raw food farm people. I got into argument with crazy Tracy and quit. I told her I would visit next week.
Look, NO MORE RAW ALMONDS
I do not eat them, but I have to protect raw food rights and honesty. Steamed almonds are not raw anymore period. They need to say "not raw" or "treated".
My friend left so I was alone talking to her.
She is an architect, her 4th year at University of Miami. That is real academic rigor. It's a 5 year program. I told her to read the FOUNTAINHEAD by Ayn Rand. She has the longest lashes. She is so poised and graceful all the time.
I talked to her forever. We gossiped about the raw food market. I am abysmally apologetic to the way I left the raw food farm people. I got into argument with crazy Tracy and quit. I told her I would visit next week.
Look, NO MORE RAW ALMONDS
I do not eat them, but I have to protect raw food rights and honesty. Steamed almonds are not raw anymore period. They need to say "not raw" or "treated".
My friend left so I was alone talking to her.
Out of the blue, we are talking, and some guy walks up to us, starts talking to me. He THEN offers me a job at Dental office. I took the card. It may be too far for me, it's 104th street.
And my girlfriend actually sees this holistic dentist, so it seems cool. What are the odds of that?
I am a general factotatum, an assistant of sorts. I think it is too far away from me. Plus I need to get paid alot, higher than most, to pay rent. We'll see.
And my girlfriend actually sees this holistic dentist, so it seems cool. What are the odds of that?
I am a general factotatum, an assistant of sorts. I think it is too far away from me. Plus I need to get paid alot, higher than most, to pay rent. We'll see.
Another guy, later, walks up, hands me a card and says he is on board of directors of some classical group, in Miami, and he said, if I gave him my email he would send me free passes to go to Classical concerts. Can you believe that? Just like that.
He had Beethoven on his tie.
He asked what my nationality is, I told him I was half German, he goes, " Oh, this Oct. 3 at the Biltmore Hotel is German Unity day, to celebrate the anniversary of the Berlin Wall coming down. Did you know that the Beethoven's 9th Symphony was played during that? It was very powerful. Yes, and we are working there at the Biltmore, would you like me to send you an invitation?". I could not believe it! I had no idea, my roots, I should care about Germany, but I don't. I don't even speak German. And I am 100% 50% German. I was raised on sauerkraut and bratwursts, egg noodles, potato salads, at my grandparents. When my grandfather got mad at me, he used to swear in german!
He had Beethoven on his tie.
He asked what my nationality is, I told him I was half German, he goes, " Oh, this Oct. 3 at the Biltmore Hotel is German Unity day, to celebrate the anniversary of the Berlin Wall coming down. Did you know that the Beethoven's 9th Symphony was played during that? It was very powerful. Yes, and we are working there at the Biltmore, would you like me to send you an invitation?". I could not believe it! I had no idea, my roots, I should care about Germany, but I don't. I don't even speak German. And I am 100% 50% German. I was raised on sauerkraut and bratwursts, egg noodles, potato salads, at my grandparents. When my grandfather got mad at me, he used to swear in german!I got some funky samples at whole foods. I mostly gave them all away to mom. One funky sample I got are these herbal pills called Romantika, for women. Included is cacao, kava, Kota, Ginko, and all the feel good herbs. Interesting. I will keep them around in case any girl needs to feel romantic, around me.
I made this from a Cherie Soria recipe, but I had to change it, I am fruitarian, and she had all this stuff, in it, like: onion powder, garlic, agave, salt, oil, fennel bulbs !!!!!
I had to change it to this.
Lemony Zucchini Bisque
I had to change it to this.
Lemony Zucchini Bisque
5 cups vitamix full chopped peeled Zucchini
2 Lemons juiced
1 Date or 3 little ones ( replaced agave)
1 cup Thai Coconut water (replaced water)
Meat from half a Thai Coconut ( replaced oil)
Sprinkled cumin seed just for decoration for picture)
I loved it, so yummy. I guess you can add more water, it was thick.
Like my nice white bowl I got at Ross for picture taking?
I got the idea from "Gourmet Raw Food" (username) on Flickr.com. She is a raw food chef who gave me the recipe. She studied with Cherie.
I had two large bowls of this soup all day, with some watermelon blended for breakfast. I also had Apple-Romaine juice and Orange at Whole Foods.
Since I am right handed, my right side is my dominant side. I do not want one breast to be lower than the other, so I tried using my left hand. I carried my purse on my left shoulder. But, I could not cut open a watermelon with my left hand. I could not open a thai coconut with my left hand. Wow I am really unbalanced. My left hand, it's like so weak. I need to accelerate my progress of being both handed. I notice it more than ever. It's like my left hand is a servant to my right. Not fair.
Look, these accepted littlenesses, these baby kiwis, as big as my thumb. I don't think they are kiwis, but they look like them inside. Neat huh. I ate a bunch.
Tropical fruit platter
look, Dragon fruit, Jakfruit, rambutans, longans and some kind of new starfruit and the short fat bananas and the green in a kind of guava. The jakfruit was delicious. Someone bought the ripe jakfruit they had behind my back.
I bought Ani Phyo's Raw food book. She is cute in a little sister kind of way. Does she have the glow? Maybe, on the cover photo. The other photos, her body looks average. I would have fired the photographer.
(You don't model on South Beach, the beach itself, with a sweatshirt zipped up to your neck, first of all, and there is a photo of her on a corner, eating and the way she is sitting makes her belly, it's bloated big time! I am serious. Not a good shot for a health book, That is the photographer's fault. I would have never kept that photo~the cover is beautiful though. !)
I like the Mystic and Wonderful raw food look.
I add to my huge collection of raw food books. I collect them.
(You don't model on South Beach, the beach itself, with a sweatshirt zipped up to your neck, first of all, and there is a photo of her on a corner, eating and the way she is sitting makes her belly, it's bloated big time! I am serious. Not a good shot for a health book, That is the photographer's fault. I would have never kept that photo~the cover is beautiful though.
!)I like the Mystic and Wonderful raw food look.
I add to my huge collection of raw food books. I collect them.
I bought Carol Alt's "Raw at 50"
( for my mom) Now there is a hot body! WOW
I also bought, for my mom, RAW FOOD DETOX DIET by Natalie Rose. She is beautiful, I say maybe even hot. Here she is on cover of another book, she pops them out.
ALTHOUGH, She includes cooked fish in her books, it's more of a transition book. I hope my mom reads them. My mom is a part of me. I need her to get her act together. She whines she wants to lose weight. Yet fights me.
( for my mom) Now there is a hot body! WOW
I also bought, for my mom, RAW FOOD DETOX DIET by Natalie Rose. She is beautiful, I say maybe even hot. Here she is on cover of another book, she pops them out.
ALTHOUGH, She includes cooked fish in her books, it's more of a transition book. I hope my mom reads them. My mom is a part of me. I need her to get her act together. She whines she wants to lose weight. Yet fights me.
Jennifer Cornbleet, no way. I looked at her book, not my type. You can't always judge a book by the author photo, but most of the time you can.
Look fruitarian tshirts http://www.cafepress.com/buy/fruitarian/-/cfpt2_/cfpt_/source_searchBox/copt
9/27
I read Ani Phyo's raw food book. Probably the most unraw cooking book, to me. Everything, has almonds in it, puddings, drinks, soups. Doesn't she know raw almonds are unavailable? You have to go on the black market or internet, to get them. They are steam treated now, and sold as "raw" which makes for very dangerous digestive problems. Also kind of its like sweeping under the rug, the truth. Same with raw cashews and most "raw nuts" sold in grocery stores. Not raw, irradiated.
And oil is in all her recipes! Oil is only raw when you eat it inside a nut, or avocado, or raw olive. Squeezing it out and storing it, it dies. It's just fat.
Think for yourself. Ask questions, don't just accept what others say. Herd mentality was for cooked foodists, I thought.
Same with seaweed. Or dried fruits. Not raw anymore guys, reality, here! The life force intact, its then only "raw".
Salt, not a food. Neither is Braggs or nama Shoyu, NOT RAW.
Powdered foods? NOT RAW GUYS.
SUPERFOODS? No such thing, Stimulants, they are yes. Any raw superfood, that gives a warning, like " people with liver problems should not take", is poison. Makes for great business. It's like as bad as the Protein myth, but inside, of the raw food community.
Ormus, white powder gold, and enzymes, run away from!
Anything bottled in supermarket, is not raw juice, not even if it says "raw"!
Saying something is RAW does not make it so, check your premises. There are so many loopholes and scams in the raw food biz.
You have been totally scammed by some scammers when you buy a bottled drink, or plastic bar or cookie, that says RAW and trust it. Think for yourself and use your minds! Anything on a shelf, long term, is not raw anymore.
Look fruitarian tshirts http://www.cafepress.com/buy/fruitarian/-/cfpt2_/cfpt_/source_searchBox/copt
9/27
I read Ani Phyo's raw food book. Probably the most unraw cooking book, to me. Everything, has almonds in it, puddings, drinks, soups. Doesn't she know raw almonds are unavailable? You have to go on the black market or internet, to get them. They are steam treated now, and sold as "raw" which makes for very dangerous digestive problems. Also kind of its like sweeping under the rug, the truth. Same with raw cashews and most "raw nuts" sold in grocery stores. Not raw, irradiated.
And oil is in all her recipes! Oil is only raw when you eat it inside a nut, or avocado, or raw olive. Squeezing it out and storing it, it dies. It's just fat.
Think for yourself. Ask questions, don't just accept what others say. Herd mentality was for cooked foodists, I thought.
Same with seaweed. Or dried fruits. Not raw anymore guys, reality, here! The life force intact, its then only "raw".
Salt, not a food. Neither is Braggs or nama Shoyu, NOT RAW.
Powdered foods? NOT RAW GUYS.
SUPERFOODS? No such thing, Stimulants, they are yes. Any raw superfood, that gives a warning, like " people with liver problems should not take", is poison. Makes for great business. It's like as bad as the Protein myth, but inside, of the raw food community.
Ormus, white powder gold, and enzymes, run away from!
Anything bottled in supermarket, is not raw juice, not even if it says "raw"!
Saying something is RAW does not make it so, check your premises. There are so many loopholes and scams in the raw food biz.
You have been totally scammed by some scammers when you buy a bottled drink, or plastic bar or cookie, that says RAW and trust it. Think for yourself and use your minds! Anything on a shelf, long term, is not raw anymore.
If only she knew, she would thank heaven to know what a difference it makes, because all that fatty salty spicy tasty nutpatty food, does the same thing as cooked food , it clogs you up and makes you slow.
Don't people want to be fast and electric? Don't people want to be the best they are inside somewhere? Weren't we sick of cooked food to begin with?
Don't people want to be fast and electric? Don't people want to be the best they are inside somewhere? Weren't we sick of cooked food to begin with?
The best raw foodist recipes, hands down, no contest, go to Fred Patenaude or Douglas Graham
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You can be a successful raw foodist on those diets. imagine not being hungry after eating raw food, even if you don't eat later?
All the toxic stuff, spices, onions, garlic, salt, cayenne, oils, seaweed, agave, theobromine, caffeine, brine, cured, vinegar, just draws your insatiable cravings back to cooked food, and induce overeating to counteract the effects. You will wonder why you are so hungry , starving later, and then dream about food.
There is no difference.
All the toxic stuff, spices, onions, garlic, salt, cayenne, oils, seaweed, agave, theobromine, caffeine, brine, cured, vinegar, just draws your insatiable cravings back to cooked food, and induce overeating to counteract the effects. You will wonder why you are so hungry , starving later, and then dream about food.
There is no difference.
We as humans are able to survive eating anything. It's just, what are our bodies best able to digest?
I say Fruit. I mean, you could eat raw veggies and nuts too, but fruit is the easiest. I don't see myself eating a head of kale. I dont see myself eating a bowl of almonds. I see myself eating a bowl of fruits and non sweet fruit. Fruit also , when one gets used to it, makes everything raw vegan food couldn't make, BETTER. There is a LIMIT how good one feels on raw vegan. None on fruitarian.
I am a fruitarian, but I will eat greens, as a wrap cover or in a juice, very rarely. I won't eat nuts, maybe I might eat hemp, if offered, but I really do not like nuts. It ruins my day. I eat coconut and I drink sugarcane juice. I might eat a little aloe if I get xrayed or something. Already I am a bit of fruitarian omnivore. Still in transition maybe.
My job here on earth is to deal with reality. That is my job. Deal with reality. Not fantasy or avoiding, which I have done many cooked years, but dealing with REAL LIFE on this plane, the only plane. This is all we get. What you see, is what you get. If you don't like something, accept it, do not deny. This is life, we all are in this together, we all have been born together and we will die right next to each other, me and you. What are you going to do as a result of dealing with reality? Are you scared of it, or can you handle it?
If you avoid, cheat or invent reality, reality will avoid, cheat and invent you.
There is noone that is going to save you, there is noone who should rule you, but yourself. There is no god. We are gods, here on earth. Deal with reality. Don't escape it or it will cost you. Fix what needs to be fixed, accept what you are avoiding.
Deal with reality and stop hiding. Stop escaping, stop denying. Just be.
Are you a coward, when it comes to reality? Are you able to take it on? Or do you hide in your room? In TV? Do you do work, that is meaningless to you? Accept it. Be honest. Tell youself how it IS. How it really is. What is?
Not what you wish, excuse, interpret, defend, deny, hide, avoid, pretend, but WHAT "IS"
YOUR LIFE???
Not what you wish, excuse, interpret, defend, deny, hide, avoid, pretend, but WHAT "IS"
YOUR LIFE???
More later. And no more raw food delusions. Raw VEGAN food is RAW NUTS RAW SEEDS RAW VEGGIES AND RAW FRUITS PERIOD.
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Today I actually felt very weird.
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Today I actually felt very weird.
I felt that I did not want anything. Or anyone. Which I cannot remember ever feeling. I feel peace. I do. There is my pronounciamento for today, my announcement. It feels likened to deadened or just peaceful. All my doings, my failures, my happiness, I accept. I see all the things I have hated about myself, I accept them, and with that comes a peace, like everything is going to be ok.
I am turning into Howard Hughes, my fingernails will grow long and I will pee in bottles. I stayed home all day. I went out with mom, got oj, shopped, rode my bike, wrote. ( I exagerrate don't I?) But I feel I am missing everything and I don't have anything. I feel I am a ghost who has already lived and now all I do is rest. I feel no worry, nothing and everything is me.
Its such a great feeling, total safety. I look beautiful, feel great, like I have a sense of security. Like I am a child in my bedroom with no worries at all. I have worries, I worry, yes, but I feel safe. I feel love. I am in soft pajamas, wearing a 34dd bra, to sleep in, my left breast was hurting a bit.
Its such a great feeling, total safety. I look beautiful, feel great, like I have a sense of security. Like I am a child in my bedroom with no worries at all. I have worries, I worry, yes, but I feel safe. I feel love. I am in soft pajamas, wearing a 34dd bra, to sleep in, my left breast was hurting a bit.
I went surfing. I went on a website that said a model died from a diet of tomatoes and apples. She did not die from that. She probably died from the binge eating, and months of starvation, or diet pills, cocaine, detox, bulimia, etc.. Not only did she not die from apples and tomatoes, but she had an infection in the kidneys, meaning there was poison in her body. Medication, alcohol? Possibly. Accumulated burden seems the diagnosis. Its funny. I have a fruitarian friend eating apples and tomatoes as comfort food.
I saw on a vegan blog, this lady had a photo of a cucumber and tomato, and said when she was a child she asked her mom for a snack and her mom gave her cucumber, tomato and salt shaker. So its comfort food for her, ahahah
I was impressed with all these vegan bloggers, they pop out books, self publish them, and go around promoting them. Some of them are real talented. I like the amateur gourmet or chocolate and zucchini.com. I saw many beautiful girls popping out original vegan recipes. I surfed for hours. And hours.
I had not much to eat today, not hungry, tons and tons of watermelon juice, blended up, Orange juice and Guarapo. I just am not hungry, and I stay the same weight. Maybe this is post surgery, usually I am starving and eat a ton of food.
Am I juice fasting? No, tomorrow is a raw vegan friendly potluck and I am going with my mom. I will make a fruitarian dish and then Mom is making a recipe from the raw food books, I bought for her. Something we can do together. It's earthsave and they always have a raw fruits and salad section. I will make an effort to talk to people.
I saw on the news kids swimming in lakes get a brain eating amoeba. All over the country. That brain eating amoeba has always been there, we just can't fight the littlest things anymore because of toxemia from junk food, and lack of live raw lifeforce.
There are not germs out to get us, we create the environment for nature's housecleaners to do their work, by having horrible immune systems, that say, " I am weak organism" " Hey I think I am already dead" . But I understand. It is what it is, and in ten years, people will not swim in water anymore, or people will try to sanitize lakes or something. But admit the truth at least. There are no germs out to get us.
I loved Robert O Young's book, " Sick and Tired" about this. The germ theory has been proven false, its just Western Medicine depends on that theory. Even Pasteur on his deathbed, said he was wrong. It was for money. I love that book. Robert with his bald head and his wife with big teeth. It's all over the internet as well.
I have one leg up on my desk. My job, is to deal with reality. I love that idea. I also love, I have a right to exist idea, also, the noone is coming idea.
Maybe not, maybe I wish someone would come, and take care of me, and I could love and respect and treat awesome. I felt that way once, and it was so nice to surrender. I do feel disconnected sometimes. I go out to dinner with friends and I pick at my food, sadly, hoping for a new way, a new life.
I went to La Carreta tonight for sugarcane juice, and looked around. I saw a cop smoking a cigar, his face, looked very dark and dirty, but it was his blood that seemed infernally black. It was like hard face. Then I saw some guy sitting on a table, his face looked dirty, his blood looked poisoned. He was eating and smoking a cigar too. They were laughing. I imagined what this guys apartment looked like, he was dressed like a slob. I could not breathe. An old man came up, next to me, and got a bag of pastelitos from a greasy looking bleached hair latina, with kind smile, and he said Thank YOU, but was out of breath. I saw his hands shake as he poured himself some water from a jug, for customers. I wondered what his organs looked like. In the distance an overweight grey haired man, with a large belly, dressed in a white tshirt walked in. Are these signs of depression?
This mystery called LIFE. Someday I will figure it out. I will deal with it, and see that it is beautiful. It is the here and now, forever. And when I die, where do I go? I die. And so do you.
I have heard of fruitarians alienating themselves from people because of heightened sensitivity. But there are beautiful people around, still, especially in Miami. I tend to flock to really young girls and beautiful men. I enjoy myself, with meat eaters, very much, sometimes. I look for the beauty in everyone. I talk to people, and I feel things, intimate silences. Usually I am in my own world, but when I open my eyes and see someone, it is beautiful. I do not do it much. I take in everything. I see marks on faces and wonder what they mean. I see bad skin, I see whiteheads. Noticing every sentence, and confession. I don't do it enough. I mean, really taking in people. Usually I am nervous and try to appear casual. When there is a shared reality that is so special.
PUT THIS IN YOUR MEDIA PLAYER http://www.recurringdream.net/ljsongs/11-feist—intuition.mp3
I saw on the news kids swimming in lakes get a brain eating amoeba. All over the country. That brain eating amoeba has always been there, we just can't fight the littlest things anymore because of toxemia from junk food, and lack of live raw lifeforce.
There are not germs out to get us, we create the environment for nature's housecleaners to do their work, by having horrible immune systems, that say, " I am weak organism" " Hey I think I am already dead" . But I understand. It is what it is, and in ten years, people will not swim in water anymore, or people will try to sanitize lakes or something. But admit the truth at least. There are no germs out to get us.
I loved Robert O Young's book, " Sick and Tired" about this. The germ theory has been proven false, its just Western Medicine depends on that theory. Even Pasteur on his deathbed, said he was wrong. It was for money. I love that book. Robert with his bald head and his wife with big teeth. It's all over the internet as well.
I have one leg up on my desk. My job, is to deal with reality. I love that idea. I also love, I have a right to exist idea, also, the noone is coming idea.
Maybe not, maybe I wish someone would come, and take care of me, and I could love and respect and treat awesome. I felt that way once, and it was so nice to surrender. I do feel disconnected sometimes. I go out to dinner with friends and I pick at my food, sadly, hoping for a new way, a new life.
I went to La Carreta tonight for sugarcane juice, and looked around. I saw a cop smoking a cigar, his face, looked very dark and dirty, but it was his blood that seemed infernally black. It was like hard face. Then I saw some guy sitting on a table, his face looked dirty, his blood looked poisoned. He was eating and smoking a cigar too. They were laughing. I imagined what this guys apartment looked like, he was dressed like a slob. I could not breathe. An old man came up, next to me, and got a bag of pastelitos from a greasy looking bleached hair latina, with kind smile, and he said Thank YOU, but was out of breath. I saw his hands shake as he poured himself some water from a jug, for customers. I wondered what his organs looked like. In the distance an overweight grey haired man, with a large belly, dressed in a white tshirt walked in. Are these signs of depression?
This mystery called LIFE. Someday I will figure it out. I will deal with it, and see that it is beautiful. It is the here and now, forever. And when I die, where do I go? I die. And so do you.
I have heard of fruitarians alienating themselves from people because of heightened sensitivity. But there are beautiful people around, still, especially in Miami. I tend to flock to really young girls and beautiful men. I enjoy myself, with meat eaters, very much, sometimes. I look for the beauty in everyone. I talk to people, and I feel things, intimate silences. Usually I am in my own world, but when I open my eyes and see someone, it is beautiful. I do not do it much. I take in everything. I see marks on faces and wonder what they mean. I see bad skin, I see whiteheads. Noticing every sentence, and confession. I don't do it enough. I mean, really taking in people. Usually I am nervous and try to appear casual. When there is a shared reality that is so special.
PUT THIS IN YOUR MEDIA PLAYER http://www.recurringdream.net/ljsongs/11-feist—intuition.mp3
So at our deathbed, What were we so scared of? What was so awful? What were we hiding from? What were we thinking? Are those going to be our last thoughts?
Will I have found you? Will I have loved you enough?
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9/29
I got some recipes for the raw food potluck, mostly from Shazie. Oh how I used to worship Shazzie!!!!
Recently I looked on youtube and saw her, I was shocked. She looks haggard. Her eyes are bulging, and she talks a million miles a minute, so fast, saying, " Look at me, just LOOK at me, I am a mother, I only sleep 3 hours, I eat cacao everyday, we were meant to eat this, Look at me, I am only (her age I forgot) !!, I feel the universe in me, I eat superfoods, the ancient foods..!!" All weird and kooky.
So I went to her website which used to be so pretty and have flowers and a beautiful shot of her sitting with daisies. I see this, someone please tell me what her banner means, and why the awful close up, up her nose, flashlight profile pic? And it looks horribly photoshopped with Curves. It looks like one eye color is different than the other, didn't Britney Spears go out with only one colored contact a few times? And it says on top TRUST ME I AM A DOXTOR! A what? Shazzie!!!
Shazzie.com
Shazzie.com
I love her, I do. She helped me so much, in this journey, but the cacao superfood route, you will wind up like her. It's a drug, like cocaine, it's like if raw foodists could market raw cocaine, or raw coffee, the first would be her and DW. But you what its cool. It's just weird to me.
I am no angel, I have dabbled in cacao for months. My entire two trips to Paris, were high on it. I know what it does. Makes you kookoo. DWolfe says he talks to gods on it. I used to talk to an imaginary boyfriend. I admit it. I did. He was the man in the Ralph lauren Polo Black ads. :*
A few months ago I dipped a date in the powder. I went to a job interview all hyper.
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Anyways I am either making Fig Stew or Aloe Pudding ( without the algae powder) Recipes and photos later.
Love you Shazzie.
Fig stew
1 cup berries blended (sauce)
1 cup berries
4 figs chopped
2 dates chopped
1 tomato diced
1/2 red pepper
1 apple cored shredded ( topping)
Raisins/cinnamon
Aloe Mousse
2 avocados
4 bananas
2 mangos
slice of aloe flesh
How to cut watermelon
http://www.rawtimes.com/food/watermelon.html
Cranberry salad http://www.rawtimes.com/r-cranberry.html
Raw Apple cobbler ( I just like looking at Jeremy Saffron! But I would not eat this, too much nuts, some fruitarians eat raw nuts, go ahead, I don't, but you can!)
ttp://www.rawtimes.com/food/applecobbler.html
A few months ago I dipped a date in the powder. I went to a job interview all hyper.
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Anyways I am either making Fig Stew or Aloe Pudding ( without the algae powder) Recipes and photos later.
Love you Shazzie.
Fig stew
1 cup berries blended (sauce)
1 cup berries
4 figs chopped
2 dates chopped
1 tomato diced
1/2 red pepper
1 apple cored shredded ( topping)
Raisins/cinnamon
Aloe Mousse
2 avocados
4 bananas
2 mangos
slice of aloe flesh
How to cut watermelon
http://www.rawtimes.com/food/watermelon.html
Cranberry salad http://www.rawtimes.com/r-cranberry.html
Raw Apple cobbler ( I just like looking at Jeremy Saffron!
But I would not eat this, too much nuts, some fruitarians eat raw nuts, go ahead, I don't, but you can!)ttp://www.rawtimes.com/food/applecobbler.html
Cantaloupe Smoothie
http://www.rawtimes.com/r-cantelope.html
Articles
http://ezinearticles.com/?Top-5-Worst-Foods-You-Can-Eat-That-People-Think-Are-Healthy&id=95913
http://ezinearticles.com/?5-Secrets-for-Higher-Energy&id=95916
I love this one, ahaa it's SO true
http://ezinearticles.com/?Is-the-Movie-the-Secret-Good-or-Harmful?&id=542909
Frederic Patenaude on Radio
http://odeo.com/audio/2046683/view
9/29
I went to a vegan potluck. There were 50 dishes, only a few fruitarian/ raw vegan friendly. Alot of hippies and hippie dresses. People speaking about the environment..
Global Warming, which I do not believe in, at all. Climates change all the time and have forever. This is political. Totally. And for world power, this is. The UN, One World Government, will find the solution and stir the masses, and gain power. The world is united on this issue. Politicians use it, we all scream it. End of the world is coming. We are too small to have that kind of effect on earth. Climates change on their own. Lakes dry up and new ones form, all the time. I don't buy it. It's like religion was in the dark ages, what Global warming is now, CONTROL of the MASSES, which is always, always a bad thing..
.. and all the hippies have bought into it. Out of all the people, it's the hippies that buy it. Weren't they, once, the ones with integrity, who thought for themselves?
Pisses me off. It's just baby boomers expressing what they have always believed since the 60's. Earthlove, taking care of Mother Earth, hysteria, and peace. I mean, we are all scared of losing earth, right? Which is good, but stop scaring everyone! And the political powers that be, LOVE THIS because they can control us with fear, and then provide a solution. Those scientists get paid to study this and then report back. It's too suspicious to me. I know.
Pompeii, Atlantis, the great flood, the loss of Egyptian and Aztec Cultures, none of that was global warming either, just nature. Things may get hotter or cooler, like they have always done. Lakes dry up, and continents lose their boundaries submerging and reimerging in the water. It used to be tropical in the North Pole. Supervolcanos, Tsunamis, and Hurricanes, ice ages, will come regardless of whether we are littering.
Humans we be around for many ages. We have many more to come. Things will get far worse before we hit the Age of Aquarius. Our imaginary lines in the sand might be disrupted, but we can adapt to anything. We have consciousness, brains. Man is man, the greatest of all.
I like the cleaning and using non toxic part, saving energy, we should be doing that already. But I do not buy, nor am I going to jump on the bandwagon our leaders have created for politics. To sway us to trust them. I think no man should be ruled by force, unless they are active criminals.
Some fruitarian friendly dishes at the Earthsave potluck
Guacamole
A raw foodist brought this
Carambola
Dehydrated sprouted nuts, if you like those
Avocado Gumbo, another raw foodist brought this one
Date and nut balls, raw foodist brought these
Fruitrian salads
My mom brought this, she mixed tahini dressing in it
I made this my aloe pudding, quite strong, everybody was talking about it and gettin seconds
There were a ton of salads and mushroom foods, also many dishes of cooked vegan food that was so pretty. You can see them on my Flickr.com account under Suvine 2nd account
This lady who wore a hippie dress brought buckwheat spouts, mint, basil, flowers
and pungeant herb salad.
Raw vegan dish. It was weird, it looked like she threw pot in there. It was the toast
of the potluck, rave reviews, every body loved it. My mom didn't like it, I think she bit into mint.
I went over E's house, we went and got his army toys, they were fun. I set up this scene:
A Russian and his Molotov Cocktail being attacked by a nazi.
He had a radio controlled Tank that drove around, and you could drive, we played with the Cat's head
Look, his friend was shot and he went berserk, you get the picture, we played all night.
We watched some Saturday Night Live. That show used to be so funny, I don't get it now, I think they should reinvent themselves, or hire really funny people.
I had the best sleep last night. There was thunder and lightning all night. I felt so happy. I did. I felt good. I felt I honored my feminity. I surrendered to sleep. A little dehydrated, but that is ok. I need watermelon juice. I have to go buy some.
I woke up this morning weighted myself 111 lbs. I took a beautiful shower, actually lathered up my whole body. I comber the condtioner through my hair. I should write alot today and just get somewhere. Maybe put my laptop in bed and write.
I crave watermelon juice. I crave writing and working. I crave the outdoors.
Found U Beautiful!! =)
Nice Blog... I'll link u on my site!
Mmmmmm WattttaMelon Juice in the morning? Is there anything betta?? No, I think not.
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be careful, they don't refer to Whole Foods as 'Whole Paycheck' for nothing. I'm lucky enough to have 3 Whole Foods within short driving distance from where i live, but even luckier to have 5+ great farmer's markets.
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hahahah that is funny WHOLE PAYCHECK ahhaha
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oh you are so sweet me too byran pope your food on flickr.com is awesome, so glad to see raw food chef
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Hey Suvine,
I was just recently messaging you on MySpace about Raw Spirit Fest. My MySpace account was deleted so please contact me at floyd2korn@aol.com I would still like to help you possibly split a room or meet up with you at the Festival! Thanks and it has been great getting to know you.
Mike
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Merci
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I have been reading your blog for a long time and absolutely love it! You are pure love and honesty!
How did you manage to stay 100% in the begining?
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I overate alot. It was ok, but eventually I started having real bad cravings. It was pretty hard, but in the long long run, its so easy now, I mean it.
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Suvine, what do you think of the practice of oil pulling? I have tried it. It is supposed to make your teeth whiter and heal a whole lot of other things...the thing is, I only like to eat fruit before midday. Eventhough you don't swallow the oil, some of it is absorbed. It is supposed to be cold pressed oil.
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Hi again Suvine! I was wondering where you get your calcium and zinc from? I'm struggling to get both of these to higher levels. I don't like sesame seeds too much. Do you just eat what you feel like, or do you try to eat food you think you need? Either way, you look great! When I look at your photos of fruit trees etc, it makes me want to move to a sunny country
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Hi Suvine!
REmember me? It has been a long time, but you used to like my drawings. I still read your blog when I can find the time, but I have a daughter and a new business in addition to illustration now... I am doing http://www.therawdivas.com with Tera Warner (Frederic Patenaude's old business partner) now. Anyway, I just wanted to say, "hi". Your F. Patenaude mention made me think you might like to peek around on our site. We are not wholly fruitarian... Tera is, but I like to include a lot of greens and sprouts too, so I guess that means I'm not. Totally agree with you about cacao and superfoods, etc... Always loving hearing what you're up to!
Amy
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i made the Lemony Zucchini Bisque Friday night. I added a little more coconut water and used agave nectar in place of the dates, but it was awesome. Light and refreshing. Thanks for the inspiration.
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Nice blog, Suvine! As usual. Powerful, true and right on the mark...as far as I feel.
Hey, I know what you mean about Shazzie. I love her but was wondering what the heck happened to her?
When you make watermelon juice, Suvine, how do you make it? I have been placing watermelon in a blender and add a little water. Is that how you do it? Or do you use a juicer?
Also, I have been adding agave to my smoothies, that is probably not a good idea, right? Is that why I keep craving cooked foods?
It's so true, when I eat just a little cooked food, the flood gates open and I crave so much and cannot get satisfied. Eat fruit all day and I don't feel anything but fantastic and wonderful.
I am SO very very very grateful for your blog, THANK YOU!
I cannot stop thanking you. Seriously.
Hugs,
MJ
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Hi Angel How are ya!!
I just throw in blender with a little water or ice. Watermelon juice
Dates are a good replacement for agave. It's probably salt that drives you to want cooked food or hidden spices.
Mj I hope you make it Its so much joy.
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Oh no problem, hope you liked it
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Oh thank you AMy
You are so sweet I will!! Its ok, I am not going to think you are any different cause you eat sprouts, it's not a Mcdonalds buffalo burgerand even if it was I really don't care what others eat!
Hi Amy!!
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How do you know you need more zinc and calcium?
I am curious.
My body makes what is needs. I am very healthy. Sometimes if I get xrayed, or fly, get anesthesia, I will have aloe or greens.
There is no such thing as a calcium deficiency in the entire world.
No, alot of that fear stuff, that there is lack, deficiencies, are written by people, paid by people selling pills. Our country has no protein deficiency. Only where people are absolutely starving, there is protein deficiency.
Or Doctors, who say that stuff, always mess up around me, I have had Doctors tell me the worst lies imaginable. Doctors who smoke and feed their kids Burger King.
Trust yourself only.
Thank you, hope you feel better and don't believe what people say randomly, they are just imitating what they heard on commercials.
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Please explain what that is
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You inspire me. If you marry me, I'll become a fruitarian.
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lol, what would I marry you for?
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