1/7, say NO to the GREEN PARTY!, 1/8. 1/9 1/10 1/11 1/12 1/13 1/14
Our new offices are so cool. I spent the day, Sunday, moving my stuff and I love my new desk. I have a
lot of room and any file cabinets.
Look fairies outside a building I saw today
There are alot of Lawyer cartoons framed in one part of our office
Objection sustained, why is everyone laughing?
Objection overruled. I don't get it. There are a ton of these, very funny alot of them.
This is our conference room
Artwork is everywhere. beautiful artwork
This painting is in one lawyers office and as big as
an entire wall. Very nice, I wonder
what it means,
I hope the lawyer I will be working with does not
put up his Goya paintings , very
violent as well.
I wonder what it means
I went out with my friend, we went to her house,
snuggled up and watched La
Vie En Rose. So sad, then we watched romantic
chick flicks at my house. She told
me tonight she is so glad I am her friend. It was nice,
but I don't like hearing stuff
like that. I took this of her today, 6 hours ago.
She
took alot of me too. I bought her dinner. She can
eat. She is so pretty. I
looked at her prom pictures at her house.
This is this cool pool I saw , the edges come up
on glass so it looks like it is spilling over.
This was last
week.
It's funny how I can sense things. I notice every
thing. That is RL. I felt a little tension in
the way he was
talking with his client, that day, and they had a fight
soon after. I equalized this photo.
I posted this, now its gone, so I put it back up.
I just think it is a nice picture.
I made it white like I am glowing. and I blurred
out some skin blemishes. I used the burn tool
around my eyes.
I was experimenting here with a new eyeshadow
technique. No like this one. I did this one night,
I tried new makeup and took photos. My bras are
too small they push up like that.
Why do I love
makeup? Who knows
I just got my Mac turkish delight lip gloss in the
mail. I also got leonard Peikoff's "Ominous
Parallels". I
think
he is so smart. It is about how Nazi germany
came to power. The people voted Hitler, when
they had
a chance
to leave, the majority stayed, people liked him,
they vote for him many times. It also compares
that
system, statism, to
what is happening in the USA. I will let him
explain himself and see if I agree after I am finished
reading it.
This ginger apple salsa recipe I made
I made huge bowl of it., It was good. I do not
know why I put cayenne on this bowl. Not nice.
I have been eating mad avocados lately.
Have a big belly. Drinking lots of OJ, I got 6
watermelons. I think I will juice fast this week
for fun. Makes my mind race! Lots of
Oranges I eat, cut in fourths. I want to be really
really strict with the fruit thing. This
week, I will be.
This is old, I may have posted this a month ago.,
I made my dress pink
Review of book I am reading
"Ominous parallels"
This book answers the plaguing question:
How could it happen? How could ordinary people,
seemingly decent Germans, turn into goose-
stepping, Sieg-Heil-ing robots, eager to obey
any orders, even to administer the "final
solution" — the Holocaust?
This book answers those questions, and makes
the rise of the Nazis finally intelligible. The cause,
Dr. Peikoff demonstrates, lies in certain philoso
phic ideas — the anti-reason, anti-self, anti-freedom
ideas that were already deeply imbued in German
culture long before Hitler's rise.
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Germany was the “land of poets and philosophers”
—an educated, industrialized, civilized nation that
took
pride in its artists, thinkers, and culture. Yet it
first appeased, then elected, then obediently
followed a man who led it into a global, syste
matic campaign of aggression, racism, horror,
and mass extermination that defied all reason,
values,
and precedent.
Dr. Peikoffs thesis is that the seemingly
incomprehensible madness of National Socialism
seized Germany not in spite of, but precisely
because
of, her “poets and philosophers.” The “ominous
parallels” are that similar ideas—and the cultural consequences—are sprouting in America today.
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As a Jew, I have watched, read, and visited countless accounts of the Holocaust - but not one of them
correctly identified the ideas that brought it
about or the ideas that will prevent it from
happening again. In some cases, I was first
shocked by the accounts of survivors and
then horrified when they offered as a
solution the same ideas that created the Nazis.
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Excerpt from Chapter One.
The Nazis were not a tribe of prehistoric
savages. Their crimes were the official,
legal acts and policies of modern Germany
— an educated, industrialized, CIVILIZED
Western European nation, a nation renowned throughout the world for the luster of its
intellectual and cultural achievements.
By reason of its long line of famous artists
and thinkers, Germany has been called
"the land of poets and philosophers."
But its education offered the country no
protection against the Sergeant Molls in its
ranks. The German university students
were among the earliest groups to back
Hitler. The intellectuals were among his
regime's most ardent supporters.
Professors
with distinguished academic credentials,
eager to pronounce their benediction on the
Fuhrer's cause, put their scholarship to work
full time; they turned out a library of admiring volumes, adorned with obscure allusions
and learned references.
The Nazis did not gain power against the
country's wishes. In this respect there
was no gulf between the intellectuals and
the people. The Nazi party was elected to
office by the freely cast ballots of millions
of German voters, including men on every
social, economic, and educational level.
In the national election of July 1932, the
Nazis obtained 37% of the vote and a
plurality of seats in the Reichstag. On
January 30, 1933, in full accordance with
the country's legal and constitutional principles, Hitler was appointed Chancellor. Five
weeks later, in the last (and semi-free) election
of the pre-totalitarian
period, the Nazis obtained 17 million votes,
44% of the total.
The voters were aware of the Nazi ideology.
Nazi literature, including statements of the
Nazi plans
for the future, papered the country during the
last years of the Weimar Republic. "Mein
Kampf" alone sold more than 200,000 copies between
1925 and 1932. The essence of the political
system which Hitler intended to establish in Germany was clear.
In 1933, when Hitler did establish the system
he had promised, he did not find it necessary to forbid foreign travel. Until World War II, those Germans who wished to flee the country
could do so. The overwhelming majority
did not. They were satisfied to remain.
The system which Hitler established — the
social reality which so many Germans were
so eager to embrace or so willing to endure —
the politics which began in a theory and ended in Auschwitz — was: the "total state". The term
, from which the adjective "totalitarian"
derives, was coined by Hitler's mentor,
Mussolini.
In place of the despised "private individuals," the Germans heard daily or hourly about a different
kind of entity, a supreme entity, whose will, it was
said, is what determines the course and actions of the state: the nation, the whole, the GROUP.
Over and over, the Germans heard the idea that underlies the advocacy of omnipotent govern
ment, the idea that totalitarians of every kind
stress as the
justification of their total states: COLLECTIVISM.
Collectivism is the theory that the group (the collective) has primacy over the individual. Collectivism holds that, in human affairs, the collective — society, the community, the nation,
the proletariat, the race, etc. — is THE UNIT OF
REALITY AND THE STANDARD OF VALUE. On this view, the individual has reality only as part of the group, and value only insofar as he serves it; on his own he has no political rights; he is to be sacrificed for the group whenever it — or its representative,
the state — deems this desirable.
During the Hitler years — in order to finance the party's programs, including the war expend
itures — every social group in Germany was mercilessly exploited and drained. White-collar salaries
and the earnings of small businessmen were deliberately
held down by government controls, freezes,
taxes. Big business was bled by taxes and
"special contributions" of every kind, and
strangled by the bureaucracy.
But the Nazis defended their policies, and the
country did not rebel; it accepted the Nazi
argument. Selfish individuals may be
unhappy, the Nazis said, but what we have established in Germany is the ideal system, SOCIALISM.
"To be a socialist", says Goebbels,
"is to submit the I to the thou; socialism is
sacrificing the individual to the whole."
By this definition, the Nazis practiced what
they preached. They practiced it at home and
then abroad. No one can claim that they did not
sacrifice enough individuals
LOOK SOMEONE IS COMPARING NAZIS TO ENVIRONMENTALISTS, I DO AGREE, I hate green people. Uh. I have more rights than Planet Earth, and I want it to stay that way. Who makes anyone the authority on planet earth, who thinks they
are big enough to speak for it?
Don't I have as much say, since I live here too?
From Click
Environmentalists as Socialists
Many environmentalist leaders today began their activism in the socialist New Left on university campuses beginning in the 1960s. They hate
private industry and capitalism in general.
They oppose private property and seek government control over every aspect of the economy, as is shown in their everyday advocacy.
Contemporary environmentalism is in fact a collectivist, anti-private property movement
that long ago left the common-sense concern
most Americans have with avoiding harmful pollution to individuals and their property,
which used to be the meaning of protecting the "environment."
Environmentalism today means government controlling the environment - meaning literally controlling all of our surroundings-which in turn necessarily entails government control over
people.
The early ecology movement was characterized
by its conceptual
subordination of the individual to the "ecological" whole in biology,
paranoia over human interference with the earth,
a philosophically abusive misuse of science as the handmaiden of its ideology,
a romanticized notion of human survival under primitive "natural" conditions,
and a political agenda calling for rule by a
"scientific" elite representing the ecologists'
value system. Their "back to the earth"
philosophy
became a key platform in the National Socialist
Party (Nazis).
It is not an accident that the Green Party first flourished in Germany and Europe before being imported here.
In practice there are only two main kinds of socialism, neither of which permits individual freedom and private property:
communism, in which the state owns the property,
and fascism, in which private property is
nominally recognized but is in fact controlled
by the state.
The environmentalist movement has favored both approaches - as we see in Maine every day - but the latest calls for massive government ownership of land across rural Maine clearly represent the
former
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From WIKIPEDIA
Eco-socialists generally believe that the
expansion of the capitalist system is the cause of social exclusion, poverty and environmental degradation through globalization and
imperialism, under the supervision of
repressive states and transstatal structures; they advocate the non-
violent dismantling of capitalism and the state, focusing on collective ownership of the means of production by freely associated producers and restoration of the Commons.[1]
Eco-socialists are critical of many past and existing forms of both Green politics and socialism.
They are often described as Red Greens - adherents to
Green politics with clear anti-capitalist views,
often inspired by Marxism
Green party is evil, they want to be the Masters of the Planet, do not let them.
Vote for Capitalism! Meaning man is free from other men! Say no to the Green Party!Capitalism, It is why we have FREEDOM !
Look, this is what the Green party
wants

They are anti -capitalist, meaning I am no longer important, what is important, is the environment, the earth. Who is in charge of planet earth? Who is the authority? Who wants all the power over the individual?
It is anti capitalist, meaning anti freedom, meaning they can make up whatever rules in the name of the planet. Meaning they can take away our freedom, by aggression. Because the earth is more important than my rights? As if they know something I do not know, about earth. I just live here.
As a rule, one should never give power and individual rights away. nothing is more important than my freedom. I should not be made to do anything I do not wish to do, or believe
Plus those socialists always come in a friendly guise, like brother love, good for all, our planet, the community and etc. The point is, it takes the spotlight off you and your rights, to take care o something outside yourself, therefore you do not matter. All monarchies, all tyrannies all mass genocides, were all under friendly guises. Don't let the government take care of you, take care of yourself. Capitalism is right and moral, and great because it protects you from other men and especially government.
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"Capitalism" is a totally different approach to government, from socialism— private property, representative government, individual rights, unregulated free markets to trade and sell, etc., exist in a capitalist system primarily for the purpose of allowing the minds of individuals to rise to their fullest potential, unhindered, to fulfill their own "selfish" ends ( man's pursuit of happiness), "neither sacrificing themselves to others, or others to themselves" according to free will of all, and all of the values that these individuals create— all the wealth, the technology, the innovations, inventions, etc., that they bring into existence, and all of the incalculable benefits which society experiences as a result of this, are noted and appreciated, but are secondary results, and not the primary justification for the existence of the capitalist system.
The primary justification is the sanctity of the individual; the triumph of "right" over "might" or force, and recognition of the fact that a human mind requires freedom to think on its own, and not to be forced to pursue goals which are foreign to it; and the recognition that Man is not a "sacrificial animal," to others, or the state, but is rather an end in himself."
1/8/2008
I am now Assistant Manager
of the law office I work at, and still on my probationary period. The other girls told me, with such slithery anger, and they said they are not angry with me but pissed nonetheless because it is so unfair! They have been there longer and I did not mention they are always absent and on myspace. I feigned ignorance. Lol. The only reason I am not the manager is cause the old lady has been there 8 years. She is too busy to be Office Manager and only wants to work 4 hours a day. I am the real one. That is how I act anyways, soon it will just be.
Plus I am the voice on our new phone messages. I sound too uptight because my boss was staring at me asking me to repeat it until it was perfect.
I slept 12 hours last night. I can do that. I do no know many people who can. The night before I slept 4 hours. I get cranky if I sleep too much, and the next day, time goes by slower. We'll see.
Yesterday all I had was watermelon juice and Oj.
Today I might too, Juice fast was necessary. Over the weekend I had a ton of guacamole and tomatoes with so much salt. I weighed in at 120. I am usually 110. This morning I am 113, yesterday 118. I like being 110 that is my ideal weight, I am short, and all my clothes fit me right at that.
I got my Nars blush makeup in the mail, pink.
I wrote some of my novel yesterday. I like doing it. It's really long. Ideas I want change all the time.
I was thinking, what makes people irresistible, what makes me drawn to them, I am surrounded by dead faces with empty personalities all day. I see tons of women, all fat, all ugly, all..well, boring as hell to look at. What makes someone unique and beautiful and inspiring? Is it self confidence, or self love? Or are people just mirrors to everyone else?
There was a study of the perfect woman and the one who had all the right proportions, I mean, they ased pygmies and indians, and civilized people, anyways the girl who was universally the most beautiful, was Marilyn Monroe. So that is what the world thinks of beauty, united. The perfect face. Now is it the face or the energy behind it, the joy and inncocence she beamed, heroic in its own way.
Or the sexuality> the fun and aliveness of play?
She could n't have been acting, it was her, it was a real her, I think. I read her autobiography, I could not read it, she writes like a 10 year old, it was much more than that, it was , well, was it anti reality? And if so, wouldnt that be destructive? But she wasn't a destructive force, she was life giving, so I am confused. I have to think this out and think about it.
We share an office , well, it's huge, a whole quarter floor of large building, with real estate lawyers. The girls all wear no makeup, are overweight, have bad skin. There is an Indian Layerette that is pretty. There is an italian lawyer the girls love, but I don't find him attractive. I like American types. We are litigation.
I brought my camera. I have to sell my boss's old loveseat on craigslist. It's real new, but leather, which is gross. I am going over to the Brickell Offices to help clean up after work and photograph it..
Since me and the other girls work closer, things and behaviors are mimetic. They copy each other and if one works harder, everyone does, its contagious. Before our offices were all far away from each other. We are close here. I can hear their phone conversations and I can hear them talking in the boss's office which is close. I hear all of them working hard. That is good. Before the
I am just drinking Oj so far. I had 1/3 of an ounce of wheatgrass, by dare at Jamba juice, I wanted to vomit. It was Nasty.
My boss gave me the Brooks Brothers catalog, it is very nice, the heels are too short in shoes and the suits are all wool. I like the cashmere wool turtle necks but that is not vegan. They look nice. I may go to the consignment shop for designer turtlenecks this afternoon.
The boss told me today I can tell his clients I am his assistant. So I am technically the assistant office manager and the legal assistant. Nice. I admit, its a little more of a Peter Keating type accomplishment, meaning my appearance and social skills are nice, excellent, but I do not want my life to be like that, just smiles and looks. I dress nice and am pretty. I would like to be known for my work. I learn stuff all the time, but I want to do the real important stuff. I took the trolley to the Gables courthouse yesterday. Our courier was not to be found.
Part of the Peter Keating Personality is bragging too, yet somehow, inside not feeling it is deserved. Bragging about names, titles, awards..yet he felt it was all undeserved inside and somehow he felt people knew. Or did they?
Looks are not important, the meaning of life is one's work. To be known for your work, that is genius, that is really hard, anyone can be a charmer!
How do I become a heroine? How do I keep my ideals that do not turn friable when a person is in front of me. What is this lacuna I feel, this space I need to find, for me? To fill. This perfect space of me as whole as possible.
I also helped my boss, pick out his business cards. I liked Eggshell and raised black ink, on canvas paper. I wanted a gold border but he said no..
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What is it I want to do but dedicate myself to my work. My work, I am a writer. What am I to accomplish? Overcome, find the right ideas for and to. I want to scrabble through my brain, and find the most heroic sentiments. For myself, for life.
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Guess what? I am looking at an apartment in the David William Hotel in Coral Gables, tonight. It would be perfect for me. It is convenient and close to everything. A one bedroom. I would be so happy there. Its a sister hotel to the Biltmore.
""The David William Hotel was acquired by a group affiliate and re-opened in the fall of 1997. Their has been enthusiastic acceptance of its refurbished 116 rooms, meeting rooms and updated restaurant Donna’s Bistro, which has received acclaim from area newspapers such as the Miami Herald. This property is particularly appropriate for longer term travelers such as training groups, movie production crews and extended stay guests who value that each unit offers kitchen facilities. Organizations based in the Downtown Coral Gables, the Miami International Airport Area, and Downtown Miami are attracted by the properties upscale Coral Gables location and the hotels extended stay amenity package.""
I need to exercise more. Now that I am getting a place I need to save my money, jogging is free so that is what I will do. Should I do this in the mornings or at night. Maybe I will prompt my ipod with an audio book, and jog to that. I do not like to think about running, I just like to do it. I get alot of oxygen and I get really inspired and I love the Granada golf course..
I want to go shopping for juice food too. I want to juice greens with apples or cucumbers. I just want them. I love apple juice. SOmetimes it gets clogged in the screens.
I have a coconut I can make coconut mylk with ,but I need water for that, not tap. Maybe I will get a water purifer. 3 watermelons I bought at Publix were bad. I need garbage bags. I am right by the kitchen at work so all day I saw and hear people. I saw Boston Market mashed potatoes, I saw chicken baked with limes, they ate the limes too, I saw an old lady with chopped tomatoes and cucumbers. I overheard one fat girl say she is experimenting with vegetarian food. I smelled chicken and there is a fridge full of diet coke.
I come in to my desk, through the kitchen. It leads to the hallway. When you walk in the reception area there is a large HDTV screen playing CNN, and a book on skyscrapers and some magazines on the table. There is a large conference room in the back, not ours, and the floors are all wooden, shiny and dark brown. When we moved it was nerve wracking.
1/9
Why do I keep checking my email? Why do I keep checking for messages on my phone? What am I looking, waiting for? What? it is not worth even looking. Nothing is there, noone is coming. The only thing I am waiting for is my perfect self to come and love me, my beautiful self to come and protect me and to love me.
Who am I? I am the speaker and the listener. I am the one I talk to and the one who talks to me. I am the one who loves me and I am the one loved by me. I am more precious and important than anything. I am so valuable, but, why? What have I done that makes me valuable? Am I valuable just cause I
exist? That is ridiculous. Everybody exists. That is a given, I do not think one is valuable just by existing, that is like everybody else? I think it takes more than being alive to be valuable. One has to do something important, important to life. I have to be special. But by what? Am I important to myself? why? Whst have I done to impress myself?
They say we are our own worst critics, I disagree, I think we are OUR ONLY HONEST critics of ourselves. Everybody else doesnt care anyway and always just tell you or agree to what you want to hear. Noone cares about you unless you have something they want in value. We are the only accurate critics of ourselves.
I saw the movie ATONEMENT, man what a depressing movie. I wandered around the supermarket afterwards and cried. For no reason, dead drowned girls, and impossible real love affairs in my mind. Keira is the most beautiful woman in the world, she is more precious than I am to me. I am so into beauty.
What is it I want for myself, and whatever it is, is it important enough. Imagine the thing, that matters most to you, discovering it has no value.
I want the best for me, in every area of my life. I want it and I want to give it to me. I want a meaningful everything, and I want to be rich, not from my looks, but from my brain. I want to be special and I want to do what has never been done before for reasons that are beyond me and more important than I.
At work, Myspace girl sent my boss an email, asking for a raise, he forwarded it to the other lawyer, saying he is sick of her, and nasty jokes about how she should do more legal complaints rather than verbal complaints. He accidentally hit the reply button and it went to her. All morning I had to calm her down, she was crying and freaking out, threatening to quit, saying we are not appreciated, and we are taken advantage of, etc.. I admit I got caught up.
I got mad at my boss. I ignored him, and didnt say goodbye to him. He called me later hysterical. Well, not really, he just wanted to know why I didn't say goodbye to him. I was kind of mad. I am very bossy to him lately. I lose my patience with him. He wastes so much time on stuff like labels and cards and I can take care of all that. He knows I want to be in charge of all administrative stuff, which he likes to do. Like labels and ordering stamps, He is a lawyer not an office manager. Let me handle that stuff.
I went to whole foods, and bought three watermelons, berries, pineapples, some really raw cashew butter and tons of oranges.
Who am I, what do I want? And why? I want a car, and I want a nice place and I want everything all for myself and I do not want to share any of it, and I want to get it all on my own.
What else do I want, I do want a lot of money at work, but do I deserve it? Am I that much better of a worker? Am I calm enough or caffeined out ? Am I too bossy? Am I beautiful, to myself? If I am not beautiful to myself, then I am not beautiful. I do not want to be what I hate about women, I want to be what I love, the impossible kind of beauty. Tall skinny, with no smile lines ever. But then what about growing old, will I love myself then, will I be a pretty old lady?
Myspace girl is obese, but has a devoted hisband, not bad looking who loves her, and always buys her stuff, bought her a car, takes her out all the time, movies, etc, comes to work, always is on the phone. He works night shift and she day shift and they have tons of kids. I asked her what her secret is, and she gave me the blow job sign language.
Yuk. I told her I hate doing that and she made a comment like that is why you have been single for so long. Yuk, I don't care. No guy is good enough for me to do that to. Disgusting. Maybe I am too much of a prude. I really am too much of a hermit, and I like being alone and I would rather be alone than doing that to some guy. Yuk.
I am disgusted with 99% of men. I want my hero to appear. I want sex to be much higher than getting some guy off by degrading myself on my knees..That will never work for me. I am much more valuable to myself than that. What for? Tell me?
I want it to be attainment of something valuable. I want real love. I want it, but it is much more, it is like getting a pet, a HUGE responsibility.
Maybe she is just making up stuff. SHe does cook, I mean she makes him stuffed shells and sheperds pie and vodka sauce with pasta and lasagna. She is so overweight. She loves me now. Myspace girl is my best friend at work, what have I become? I am so two faced. I can't stand people. The old lady I am friends with also, how did that happen? I used to only have models as friends, now I have old fat legal secretaries as buddies.
Thank god for my 19 year old friend. I need her more than ever now. SHe is like a fresh breath of air. She can suffocate me all she wants, she calls me non stop. Comes over, sleeps over every night. I like her. I do not want to be with anybody else.
I feel, estranged, like tonight, watching ATONEMENT I realized I spent my whole life thinking other people are what mattered, and what they thought of me. I thought I had to fit in, I always did, and I always sought approval outside of myself.
I think I am immune to that, or immune from falling in love. Once I fell in love with me, there is no higher love. Nobody else deserves me. Once I fell in love with me, I am so precious to myself, how could I have ever sold myself at so low a cost? How could I put up with some of the men I enslaved myself to? For what? For their approval and love. How and why? I know better now.
I think love is beautiful, but it is a huge responsibilty, one bigger than ourselves and if we are still kids at heart, it may be too big for us.
I only love that which is a high value to me. I love only exceptional men. The ones who are better than most. By talent, looks, or accomplishments.
What I get in life, is what I get for myself. I will never degrade myself ever again, for someone else. I will never.
I got alot of my mom's curse, willing to please curse, I need to snuff that out. They ( other people) are not important, I am. Noone deserves me, or can ever appreciate the stuff I do for them, noone can appreciate what others do for them. Only what they get themselves for themselves.
I am talented. I need to appreciate myself, all the stuff I have done for others, I need to do for myself now. For the first time in my life I can say, noone deserves me. It used to be the other way around. I thought I was wrong somehow, that whatever failure I had, was because of me. Everyone else was right and I was wrong. I was wounded and hurt all the time, why? I do not know anymore, silly. The only failure of mine, was that I failed myself, and I put others before me. People are disgusted with themselves, me putting them before me, the thought is abhorrent to them.
What is my life, my job, my work? What is my work? This blog? My legal stuff? My novel? What for? What is it worth? To whom?
AM I in the middle like everyone else, doing good stuff only sometimes and bad stuff other times, and always in the middle, mediocre? What if I want to be all good? Then I have to choose good, meaning I have to suffer alot at first.
"Alot of laws that are put out to fight sexism are sexist, and alot of laws that are put out to stop racism, are racist." Some guy named Prodos said that, I like it.
Does anyone ever evaulate the relationship one has to oneself? The conversation between I and I? Is it friendly, is it benevolent or complaining and harsh? That is the only real relationship that matters.
That is the only real relationship. being with yourself 24-7. Isn't it the greatest thing ever? Or is it hard , is it hard to look in the mirror? Why is that so important? Why is it so hard to see? Because I cannot hide anything from myself, I am either proud of myself or ashamed, I cannot fool myself, I can fool others all day every hour and if others think highly of me, or LOVE me, if I do not love myself, I will be repelled by that.
Loved for what? What am I loved for? Doing good work, having values like virtue, self respect, good choices, drive and goals for the betterment of me? Loved for beauty? Loved for being alive ( I don't think so, last one, people don't love each other for just being people. People love values people have inside that are considered good to them. I don't love bums on the streets but love heroes and amazing men because of what they DO, or choices they make )
I love myself, I do, I love myself more as I have a relationship with myself. How have I missed this all my life? Is it fruitarianism or is it Ayn Rand's ideas who helped me so much?
I may change to raw vegan this year, I have not decided. Too much temptation to, and when my mind wants something it has to have it. I will always be high fruit, 90% or higher. It probably still makes me fruitarian, but I like to have integrity and be honest, like a purist in all that I do.
Here are some interviews I have been listening to
#1, #2, #8 ( I read all three books they are discussing) #46 looks real interesting. I am not that into political stuff too much, I am more concerned with me and day to day stuff, although I know ideas are powerful. There are out there exactly the ideas one has inside, don't settle for anything less.
# 51 I may listen to as well. I agree that the internet should be completely free, a little censuring, ruins the entire thing, the entire integrity, and if people start saying what is right and wrong, who is deciding? They can say anything! men's minds need to be free, free to choose on their own. Its what makes great men great.
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. Um, this little boy is obviously a capitalist, probably saved himself from (death by) starvation or from predators by working, what is so wrong with that? 