I generated these 20 day and pretrial complaints the other day and we sent them to court by courier. It turns out my boss did the credit card slips wrong so they could not process them at court, and they were dated for today, so I had to run on the trolley to the courthouse under 20 min. I got there, stood in line, saw documents everyone was carrying, I understand all of them. This one guy sad, had a document, MOTION TO SELL MARITAL BOAT. He looked really sad.  I saw lawyers speak to each other in Spanish, checking me out , when I had my head turned, and saw the room they call the "zoo".  I fixed the problem with the lady in Attorney's room,  and left in a hurry. A suited lawyer ran out after me, I was fast. he caught up, surprised me and I looked back up at him,  and he said something so nice,
 " I would be so mad at myself if I did not get to meet you, what is your name?" I told him my name,  he looked so eager and we shook hands, he told me he knew I worked in law office because I knew where to go, inside the courthouse.  I said Yes. He seemed really genuine..and he asked me to lunch, I said no but took his card. He was tall and handsome, a little smiley, harmless. I googled him online and saw his bio. He has a nice office. Going to the courthouse is definitely not a pick up place though. I told him I maybe will have lunch with him some other day. I looked him up

Education:	University of Miami School of Law, J.D., 1999; Florida State University, Bachelor of Science, 1986.
Member:	The Florida Bar; United States District Court for the Southern District of Florida; United States District Court for the Middle District of Florida; United States Court of Appeals for the Eleventh Circuit; United States Court of Appeals for the Federal Circuit; Cuban American Bar Association; Dade County Bar Association.
Born:	Miami, Florida
xxxxxx started with the City Attorney�s Office in XXXXXXXX He is assigned to the litigation division. Before joining the City Attorney�s Office, xxxxxxxserved as an Assistant Public Defender in Miami-Dade County for approximately four years.

I found this, 2 days after surgery, I could barely move. My grapes tattoo is cool.



I ate some grains, raw soaked ones:
I made this, last night I soaked some wheat berries, grass seeds pretty much and , you are supposed to soak in water and wait until they have little tails but I saw rabbit tails, I threw 1/2 cup in Vitamix with date, large juicy medjool date. It was the best oatmeal/sweetgruel/cereal I ever had, sooo good. And I was so full and satisified. I put too much water in at first so I strained it, and who would have know, wheatberries make good mylk too.


The David William Hotel place is furnished, so I can only live there if I sell my furniture. I do not want to. I am still looking. Maybe I will. It is nice place.

I walked down Almeria and took some photos. That street has nice trees.



Miami and its waters and its shadows, That remind me of me things I am fond of.



Well, since I had all this butternut squash leftover, I blended it with flax seeds, and last night dehydrated them, ready today.

Here I put the crackers with mashed medjool dates and papaya. The bottom kind are just flax seeds, not as tasty as the butternut squash ones, above, half blended flax seeds. They were a little sweet. I had a few more,  now I am so full. Very tasty bites. For hardcore raw vegans. Not raw raw , but dehydrated under 100 overnight.



Me with fruit smoothies

My boss calls me at all times of the day, all hours, and I always answer, and he is always freaking out about a file or something he lost or can't find, or wants to know what I meant when I said this or what needs to be done tomorrow. I deposited more checks today. Everyday they come in.  I did the tapes and quickbooks, I went to courthouse and I also did some Time Matters quirking.There is somthing wrong with WORD so I had to delete the
Normal.dot template. It didn't fix it, I called tech support and called two tech guys, all busy. For breakfast I had sweet raw gruel, see above.

J, the law office clerk told me his friend is working a club at Sobe if I wanted to get in I could, with my friend, I said maybe, knowing I wouldn't. Why do I even pretend I might? I never go to clubs.  He talks to me all the time in the office. I like it. he told me his life story, today. How he lived in the streets, once, and how his stepdad killed his mom and how him and his sister want to kill each other because she is on his side. His eyes look like shark's. I see his street side, underneath his professional clothes.( Except for that DUMB tattoo, it' so stupid, how can you write the date when you met your fiancee on your arm, next to an astrology sign. Right there loses all my respect, its laughable. Not street smart at all, but street dumb) Anyways, I might feel sorry for him, pity. He is like a lost boy who had no mother. His eyes are shark eyes and when I look at him I see nothing hidden.

But I am going to go to a book reading tonight. I got invited, my someone who works at Books and Books as I rode my bike by. He wore a velvet jacket. I met him at the free french movie and he kept talking me, inviting me back. Please! Books and Books was my home last summer. Some guy who wrote a memoir about his famous mother tonight at 8. I should wear black.

I feel so self conscious about not being able to drive or have a car and it is well deserved, I feel so small, because I can't. I know lots of people I know of, even Ayn Rand, never learned to drive. But I want to , when I see my ideal self, it's in a black luxury car and I have a nice clean place and I look beautiful and have a great boyfriend and a good job as a writer.

Everynight when I lie down in bed I look in the mirror. I look more and more like a renaissance painting, my hips are fuller, they never were, I always had a boy's body until lately.
I have curves for sure.

I went jogging last night, at nigt, in the dark , down tree lined streets and I thought alot. I thought about how evil does not want to be consistent, but always shows up when things are good, to just sneak in there. How it is powerless. It is just a parasite on the good. Ayn Rand gives me a lot to think about.

The other girl at work is warming up to me. She eats alot, good for her, she has a tub for a stomach. She always talks about her boyfriend and some days he is jealous and other days she is in love, but they spend every day together. How nice. She has a photo of himm and her on her screensaver and they are sitting in some sort of luxury car, but its not theirs but at a car show. lame. She has red hair.

Today one of our clients sent us  fruit flower basket, isn;t that cool? that really was nice and expensive of him. I ate all the grapes and before I left, I took off all the fruit on sticks, pineapple cut out to look like a flower with a melon ball in the middle, and put them all in tupperware to eat tommorrow.

So far I have not spent any money today. On anything. I have papaya, orange, date and kale pudding, like yesterday, to make if I am hungry later on tonight. I might get fresh squeeed OJ at Jamba Juice.

Look Trees.

Jan 25

Last night I watched Celebrity Apprentice again. I am totally rooting for Carol. Ivanka is so hot,  my god, and when she speaks she never smiles, so sexy, I like that. She is so cool. She never looks stupid. I am so glad Gene Simmons is gone. Last night they voted off some softball olympic champion, yawn. Carol is too cool, and so hot for 50, and RAW too, but they never mention it on the apprentice. She does eat raw meat though.She says she can't function without it.
 so hot.


Last night at the Book reading, my god it was so depressing. This guy's only good points was that he lived in Paris and New York, other than that all he talked about is death and said once you write a book it is no longer yours and he refused to read from his book but just talked about how when you have cancer you pretty much are gonna die and your doctor becomes your magician.
Stupid.

Anyways I picked up a photography book by Helen Van Meene.
She photographs ugly people and they look kind of cool.


HELEN VAN MEENE PHOTOGRAPHS

HELEN VAN MEENE PHOTOGRAPHS


HELEN VAN MEENE PHOTOGRAPHS


HELEN VAN MEENE PHOTOGRAPHS


HELEN VAN MEENE PHOTOGRAPHS



HELEN VAN MEENE PHOTOGRAPHS



Check her out next time in bookstore, very comforting in a strange way. I like the one of the girl with the stretch marks on her belly, in the woods. Can't find it online. Glorifies ugliness, but well, there is a pity it evokes. There are other things I see like innocence.





Without work, all life goes rotten. But when work is soulless, life stifles and dies.’

— Albert Camus

‘Genius is the capacity for taking infinite pains.’

— Thomas Carlyle

‘The average person puts only 25% of his energy and ability into his work. The world takes off its hat to those who put in more than 50% of their capacity, and stands on its head for those few and far between souls who devote 100%.’

— Andrew Carnegie

‘No human masterpiece has ever been created without great labor.’

— André Gide

 

I don’t believe in inspiration. I believe in work, because while one works one’s creativity is opened.’

— Giacomo Manzu

 I DID REALLY WELL TODAY AT WORK, I SHOULD ALWAYS WRITE IN CAPS LOCK. FOR BREAKFAST I HAD PAPAYA, DATE. TWO TANGERINES AND SOME KALE PUDDING, YUMMYY, I TOOK SOME TO WORK, GREEN GOO.

AT WORK I HD FRUIT SLICES, GRAPES AND STRAWBERRIES. I DID MY COMPLAINTS LISTENING TO LEONARD PEIKOFF'S PODCAST. I COULDN'T HEAR IT THOUGH IT IS WAY TOO SOFT, I HAD A PHOTOCOPIER GOING NEXT TO ME, PRINTING OUT THESE THINGS. STAMPING AND CONFORMING ALL OF THEM AND GETTING SIGNATURES.

EWW I BIT INTO A STRAWBERRY FROM THE FRUIT FLOWERS BATCH,   AND INSIDE WAS STUFFED, HIDDEN A MARSHMALLOW. WE GOT YESTERDAY.
OUR WORK FRIDGE IS SO FULL. EVERYBODY EATS FOODS LIKE PASTA SALAD, TUNAFISH SANDWICHES, POTATOES AND RICE, THE FAT GIRLS EATING THE LEAST. THE OTHER FIRM ORDERED BAGELS WITH CREAM CHEESE FOR OUR OFFICE ALONG WITH A NOTE TELLING US WE CAN'T USE THE BACK DOOR. YEAH RIGHT, SO FAR A ZILLION PEOPLE DISOBEYED AND NOT FROM OUR GROUP, THEIR OWN OFFICE.

LOOK AT THESE 6 INCH HIGH HEELS,
http://www.orientvisual.com/6inchforever/pumpsframes.htm




Jan 26


I met this girl yesterday at book reading. When she walked in I was like, What is this? She was so alive and she talked just like me, excited and fast and she was super hot. She is from Columbia, works at Telemundo and has a book, look how hot she is CHECK OUT HER PHOTO GALLERY
http://www.ximenagonzalez.com/english.htm

Anyways she was saying the same thing I have been saying for years, except people listen to her.

About how we need to go back to the cavewoman is us and say, " What is this white flour, white sugar, I can't process this!" She said if you eat meat, the rule is, " If you can't hunt it or fish it yourself, don't eat it" lol, you should have seen the room. She talked about how soy is bad for us, mimicks hormones. She talked about Dr. Weston Price who studied teeth of white civilized people versus natural diet savages. Anyways she was so cute I couldn't stand it. She wore a minidress and platforms, just like I do.

I eat all my food raw and organic, but , sorry no meat, hunt or not. I can't kill animals. Also she said grains we can't eat, I loved my sporouted ground raw wheat dish I made and I felt great and full and I loved it, and had no reaction except happiness for 72 hours later. I think she means cooked grains.
I didn't get her book or signed, because I was hungry and had to make raw zucchini hummous before the supermarket was closed. She was late so it didn't start until late. I will buy her book later.


My card reader does not read my memory card, it is so strange

I went to a farmer's market today, and I bought a lot of stuff, 6 lb papaya, microgreens, papaya flowers, fresh squeezed OJ, canistel ( eggfruit) and dandelion leaves. I also got saopdilla. I went to whole foods and went crazy, Organic bananas, sunflower sprouts, tahini, all sorts of seeds, grains, and truly raw nuts. I got a brush and zucchini and lemons. Sage. 

I got THE FIRM workout dvd cauze the girl was cute on the cover. Its all squats and strange positions in sit ups and weights.

I might see a movie tonight. DO not know yet.

I lay on my floor naked talking on the phone all morning. I then cleaned my kitchen. Ate. Drank.

I love Paradise Farms, when they come to the farmer's market in Coral Gables, I am so happy. I took lots of photos. Later I will post when able to, I have to find out how come I can't read this card, at Kinko's it can, but it costs 5 bucks.
 





Sunday

Here are some photos from the farmer's market yesterday.

These are tasty, I forget what they are called we used to eat them at Glaser Farms


look how cheap


Peppers


At the paradise farms table they gave out these, papaya and sapodilla, the brown, all organic

All sorts of trees for sale


Yellow tomatoes




I had sugarcane juice today on south beach, it wasn't purple cane juice though


Purple bell peppers


Round eggplants


Fruit smoothies on Lincoln Road




I got this stuff



That's sapodilla, canistel, avocado, buckwheat greens, sage OJ fresh made and zucchini for my raw zucchini hummous recipe.

monster papayas
I went to the beach today. Pamela Anderson says the secret to a great body is to go to the beach as much as possible because the more you are in a bikini, the more conscious you are about your body and try to take care of it more. She was on a beach everyday but I can do every Sunday. She needs to get back in a bikini I think.

Anyways I woke up this morning and did the FIRM BOOTCAMP video.

I got picked up by Blue, he is an architect for Miami Public Schools in a small car called Kompressor. I wore a long greenish dress.

I met him at this Lebanese festival the night before. It was fun. I had to leave early to catch Ximena's book reading.

I didn't have a bikini so I had to make do with underwear and a little tie shirt.

We lay in the sand and talked about nothing. I curled up on my towel and listened to the wind blow. The waves and the ocean made noise and the sun went out and inside clouds. I was cold and hot. It was 75 degrees, not too hot. For winter at all. I felt nice. I like the beach.

South beach people

I had cherry soup this morning. It was made with equal parts cherries and water and lemon juiced, blended with 1/3 part dates.

I made such an awesome soup. Green soup. Avocado, half with lemon juice and Buckwheat sprouts,dandelion and sunflower sprouts, half garlic, cayenne, date and water. So tasty.

There was an antique show we went to. Lots of old stuff.


We went to the holocaust memorial in South Beach behind the Jackie Gleason theatre, where he used to film his show:


I have been eating these with my zucchini hummous, sprouts flax and butternut squash crackers, sunflower sprouts etc



This is a fave snack of mine, dates with raw gound sesame seeds/tahini


zucchini hummous I made with zucchini, tahini, lemon juice, and sage

I ate it while I worked out last night to my dvd.

This was sooo tasty, I made flax crackers and I added tahini cherries and dates




This is my smoothie everyday at work, two tangerines, kale, papaya and dates


I also went to the Miami Beach botanical gardens.


My friend K at 10 pm, gets me out of bed so we go and break in and climb fences to get to the University of Miami track so she can run an 18:54 min. 2 miles. She made it at 20 min. She has a test Monday for the army. She was upset and tried to say I counted ahead one lap.

When she was in m apartment, she got naked for me and showed me her body because she wanted me to see her before she lost weight. It was funny seeing a naked girl in my room.

I had this salad, it was so tasty. Buckwheat greens, sunflower, pumpik seeds, celery, cherry, heirloom tomatoes and a dressing avocado/lemon juice/cayenne/date/half garlic






I take good flower photos


I like the reflection in the glass


I am up listening to my blog radio, in a nightgown, in bed. My friend K just left, she was on my bed forever on the internet looking up her facebook and seeing who wrote her. She is coming here to have breakfast at 7 am. She likes my smoothies. Can you imagine? I got to see her again ? Just kidding, she is so much fun.

It was cold this morning, I wore a white fuzzy sweater. I prefer to be alone lately. I do. I liked going out to the beach yesterday though.

At work I love my desk that smells like vanilla


January 28th


Raw foodism, is not me, I am me.

I have done alot in the name of raw foods, alot. But I do come first. Raw foodism is second to me.  Me, this thing, this thing..
this thing that won't go away that every year gets better in minute increments. Does it get better? Of course it does. I can now say I live in reality. When I am nervous, I look outward, not inward, that is a big change. I also feel self supportive and when I am not, I see this too. I know when I am making a mistake these days. I know it. It's not this gnawing at the back of an unknown but out here in front of me. I know what to do.
I know the difference between feelings and what I know as facts. I know when there is a contradiction there is an error in my thinking and to rethink things. Ayn Rand calls it checking your premises. What is me? What is me in what I do, and well, I know I am more than a raw foodist. I am a writer. I write everyday. What is love but an abstraction, can I do without it? No, I can't because I need to find reflections of myself. The ones I want to see. Not the ones I do not want to be or see.


I was thinking you know how I have this ideal man in me, I try to find, well, what f, he is what everyone is looking for, what if my ideal woman and my ideal man are the same as every body else's, but the details are different? This vision of strength, fortitude, ingenousness, willingness to learn what one does not, patience, health, beauty, strength, and self esteem. What if he is ideal man, and woman, and when we settle for less we cheat ourselves, or when we act like worms, we cheat of being that?

What is the ideal woman? I have to get into this later, I will be thinking of it.

I had the best salad, it was sooo good. Eating has been such a deligth since i am back to raw vegan, such a delight, I use no salt either and things like dates lemon juice cayenne, makes up for it, and what a delight buckwheat sprouts and sunflower and dandelion all is!




Jan 29th
At the Miami Botanical Gardens, on South Beach, I took these shots of:

tomatoes


rosemary


aloe


sage

 oregano


You could have a picnic there!

Beautiful flower


garlic chives


Last night my friend K
came over and we had smoothies with tahini, dates, starfruit, banana and vanilla drop. She took a nap on my couch.

We actually sat through ELLEN and GOSSIP GIRL revisited on the CW.

This morning she shows up at 7 am for breakfast and she used my internet. She failed her ROTC situps test this morning by 3 situps. SO by 7 am she had run a 9 min mile and done all this stuff so she was energized. I was lazy in bed. I made a smoothie for work, papaya, tangerines, dates and sunflower sprouts.  She drank some. She went to poop in the bathroom after that. It was funny.