This blog was meant for me to find the way in life that is good, that is right for me. I cannot lose sight of my plan, to be the best I can be and to do what is right for me. Also about being happy and getting what I so badly want. Winning.

I want to reconnect with the me that is the best, I want so much. I want to be good, I want to love myself I want to be happy and reconnect with the me that is unique and means something. I want to be loved.



SO I am not answering my phones, nothing. I am going away, and that is it.
Avocado and date smoothie


Watermelon juice



So I am going to go to Costa Rica for Memorial day weekend. I am doing a watermelon juice fast until I get back.
I will bring my tribest travel blender. I will be going to the Coast this time so I should have magical photos. the coast is where its all at and I will be on tours too.

I am then going to start planning to go to Dubai. I want to go there so bad, it looks so fun. I tell everyone, I WANT TO GO TO DUBAI! MBH has been there.

You know, in Marilyn Monroe's days, a hotel room cost 6 dollars, where her and Dimaggio had their honeymoon, and she was starring in all these films and only got $1,700 a week and half of that went to her coach, who cost 500$ a week and when her coach wanted a raise she had to sell a mink somone gave her,  to keep her, and back then there was no money for nothing. These days we have alot of it. Back then also, rich people were rich and people worked really hard to get places, things were not handed to anyone. You really had to be GOOD at what you did, you HAD to make money. There was more incentive. Also back then people were sent to jail for communist ideals, like lots of people in Hollywood lost their careers over these HUAC communist witch hunts, which are good, because communism is evil, but these days noone cares about it.

I see in movies lately ALOT of capitalist propaganda in movies. Good and bad. When a movie comes out it is broadcast into the entire world. There will be blood, Iron Man, etc, I predict a wave of it.



I just realized, that whatever I want I get, but the thing is, I will always be me wherever I am and the real me, alway feels I need something better.


My mom brought me pearl, coral and gold earring set from Paraguay.



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May 21

TURN OFF MY RADIO IN THE SIDEBAR first




Tomorrow I fly away, I am so happy. I am, I just want to be happy and free on a beach all weekend in Costa Rica, the nice part. I do need to get away and just have a change of atmosphere. I do, I need to work and figure out what I need to do.

I have to put my book aside, its such hard work! It is. I need to rewrite the outline all over again. I have pages and pages and pages. Its too much. I will take my laptop with me. Surfing is so distracting.


I am making juices. I am sitting at my desk, my apartment is clean, shiny floors.

I may not sleep. I may stay up and ponder some things, what shall I do? For myself..

Ok, I drink way too many juices. Everyday its juice juice juice. I need to start being creative and start making recipes, maybe even do a fruitarian recipe book, to occupy myself, please, I can't expect to make money off a thing like that but it would give me purpose for a little while.

I want to make myself work.

I know what to do, today I was 117.

I cried a little, I did, a few things made me sad. I want to forget about them and just be happy, I want to be good.


Do the last one first, this is the CBS News story from Monday, I'll send the
longer interview with Dr. Haley in a minute.
NBC: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0pEnKSVkr-g&NR=1
Kennedy: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zrIM2hwrLoc&feature=related
CBS on Polling concession: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aV2WVbXEFWY&feature=related
Jenny McCarthy on Larry King: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-5WTaLnDPY4&feature=related
Oprah: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d2lx3MHtI2o&feature=related
CBN: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tSC5Tkp8qZA&feature=related
Weldon: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aHtuILnzYZ4&feature=related
Bernadine Healey [former NIH Director on CBS today]:
http://www.cbsnews.com/blogs/2008/05/12/couricandco/entry4090144.shtml
CBS on the cases today:
http://www.cbsnews.com/sections/i_video/main500251.shtml?id=4090455n

This is hugely important in the politics of this issue, the fight for the
"hearts and minds." She's the highest ranking former high-ranking federal health
official to come "out of the closet" on our side. In the politics of change on
an issue, this is a good sign, when the big guns "jump ship" and side with us.

http://www.cbsnews.com/stories/2008/05/12/cbsnews_investigates/main4086809.shtml

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/david-kirby/dr-bernadine-healy-dont-d_b_101421.html


http://autismparents.net/fighting-the-autism-vaccine-war-by-bernadine-healy-md/

[a story she wrote for US News]









In Avenue Q there was this funny song, this puppet was looking for his PURPOSE when the letters of PURPOSE turned into PROPOSE, in his mind, and he was so freaked out he ran to his love and broke up with her when she caught the bouquet at a wedding. He imagined this monster coming at him in a wedding dress.

Anyways she sang this sad song
'There is a fine fine line between love and a waste of time"

Its a cute play but its with puppets. yeah, puppets.
This song is funny, this monster is a pervert
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7qICy5yScew

This videogame BIOSHOCK knows what I am talking about, This game is awesome, I played it before
WATCH the whole thing, its creepy, but very real evil with in our culture and politics :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qbI7gxxbYpo

I had to stop talking to him. I want to find raw foodists who are brilliant Not people who drank the koolaid. Who are POD PEOPLE. Who are not just repeating what Joy Behar says on The View.  

" I still don't think we can afford to have any kind of that — any Republican in the White House for another eight years. The environment can't tolerate is it. The economy —the earth..ahhh "


McCain is probably the friendliest Rep. nominee to democrats ever! Since when should we care about THE ENVIRONMENT, a non being, non entity that has no voice, does not exist, and certain people can make up any kind of rules in the name of a nothing? A ZERO?
..they can because its "ALTRUISTIC". And ALTRUISM always is evil.  Its control.

Always those ideals are clues to dictatorship, communism and socialism. Total poverty and loss of freedom.

Don't get me started on HILLARY

 (This quiz below from website:
http://gop3.com/2007/10/17/hillary-clinton-communist-quotes-quiz/ 

A little history lesson: If you don’t know the answer make your best guess. Answer all the questions before looking at the answers. Who said it?

1) “We’re going to take things away from you on behalf of the common good.”

A. Karl Marx
B. Adolph Hitler
C. Joseph Stalin
D. None of the above

2) “It’s time for a new beginning, for an end to government of the few, by the few, and for the few…and to replace it with shared responsibility for shared prosperity.”

A. Lenin
B. Mussolini
C. Idi Amin
D. None of the Above

3) “(We)…can’t just let business as usual go on, and that means something has to be taken away from some people.”

A. Nikita Khrushev
B. Jose f Goebbels
C. Boris Yeltsin
D. None of the above

4) “We have to build a political consensus and that requires people to give up a little bit of their own..in order to create this common ground.”

A. Mao Tse Dung
B. Hugo Chavez
C. Kim Jong Il
D. None of the above

5) “I certainly think the free-market has failed.”

A. Karl Marx
B. Lenin
C. Molotov
D. None of the above

6) “I think it’s time to send a clear message to what has become the most profitable sector in (the) entire economy that they are being watched.”

A. Pinochet
B. Milosevic
C Saddam Hussein
D. None of the above

Answers:

(1) D. None of the above. Statement was made by Hillary Clinton 6/29/2004
(2) D. None of the above. Statement was made by Hillary Clinton 5/29/2007
(3) D. None of the above. Statement was made by Hillary Clinton 6/4/2007
(4) D. None of the above. Statement was made by Hillary Clinton 6/4/2007
(5) D. None of the above. Statement was made by Hillary Clinton 6/4/2007
(6) D. None of the above. Statement was made by Hillary Clinton 9/2/2005″




(from
http://wmugop.blogspot.com/2007/05/hillary-communist.html)


Here are some choice Hillary quotes:

"The unfettered free market has been the most radically disruptive force in American life in the last generation."

"We can’t afford to have that money go to the private sector. The money has to go to the federal government because the federal government will spend that money better than the private sector will spend it."

"Many of you are well enough off that [the] tax cuts may have helped you. We’re saying that for America to get back on track, we’re probably going to cut that short and not give it to you. We’re going to take things away from you on behalf of the common good."

"Too many people have made too much money."

Clinton is a socialist through and through. Her policies and her words reveal her as being in favor of massive redistributionist taxes, widespread nationalized programs, government intervention and micromanagement of our economy.

Hell, maybe she's just pandering to the far left to get the Democratic (Socialist) Party nomination, but I find that unlikely. She's a socialist, the real deal.