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Today to eat
It was a little raw vegan:

Mamey/Date vitamixed smoothies with some kale
Zucchini slices/olive oil/apple cider vinegar
Orange juice squeezed
Coconut mylk/rawcacao/dates

Weight 118

I am so sad today.





JUNE 14
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Today all I had was Oj and watermeon juice

My scale is broken, everyday it got higher and higher and I am like I know
I am not this heavy when it hit 120. Then 122, then 124 and I was juice fasting.

Whew. Thank god. I was worried. I look like a stick.


 I went to  book signing today and met Oscar De La Hoya for like a second.
 I freeze in front of celebrities. He said Hi and I blushed and ran away. He
talked to my friend before me for like a whole minute. He was so nice and signed
 his new book I bought for her.

They talked about Mexico and Puerto Rico. He was very nice to me and waved at me goodbye.




Last night I saw THE CURE in concert. I was so very very happy. VIP section. I was so happy. By the night's end after 4 encores, I was dripping in sweat, I had so much fun. Happy really happy fun!

CELL PHONE PHOTOS:



Lots of goth/industrial girls.






I am the happiest when I eat all fruit. My stomach feels the best,
meaning I feel the best. It's like how my stomach feels, I feel. good,
equals good. I love fruit, its so safe and sweet and nice.

People always worry about greens this greens that. Greens are fine,
but fruit is so superior, to my happiness.
I have experience. I make the same mistakes over and over and get
 the same result. I guess when one is used to a certain way of eating,
 anything else that brings discomfort is felt immediately. I am hyper sensitive.

There are flowers in my room, I am listening to this I bought today:
http://ec1.images-amazon.com/images/I/31BNRHMNA9L._AA240_.jpg

From NEW TIMES:

Diehard fans of the Cure were in luck this Friday the 13th when the band
performed a set lasting more than three hours, including four encores and
 jammed full of hit songs spanning the band’s 32-year history.

The internationally-acclaimed band drew an eclectic crowd of everything
 from Hot Topic gothed-up preteens to South Beach clubbers and
corporate-minded baby boomers. Even though the BankAtlantic Center
 was only open to half its capacity; it appeared almost sold out.

I am so very happy. I am!!! For real, I feel wonderful and everything is
clean and spotless.





Monday

http://www.standardhotels.com/miami/

 I went to the Standard at Miami Beach, a hotel designed by Balasz, the
 same guy who does the Chateau Marmont and etc etc, married to Uma
Thurman, etc, very cute man.

The place was amazing , amazing, I never saw more models in one place.
 It was so hot and beautiful, the whole place screams COOL

Turkish style baths with hot seats, steam rooms, mud baths, etc..

I had thai coconut water, apple juice squeezed, and other juices like sugarcane


I got a massage on the deck looking out over the water, boats and yachts
 riding by my massage table.

Some photos I took at lunch where I had tomatoes and apple/ginger juices.


I saw tons of naked people is mud



This was actually an ADULT PLAYGROUND, a hotel for hedonists and swingers.
It was down the street from The Standard.


The restaurant I sat in had really cool chairs






Cool chairs at LIDO



Skinny girls everywhere


Swinging chairs


Where I had lunch



Anyways in the standard i saw this room, its like a bath and these stone seats are hot to the touch and topless girls and male models sitting naked on them
http://www.townandcountrytravelmag.com/cm/shared/images/standard-miami-spa-sp07-de.jpg





Cherry coconut mylk and my hemp coconut purse


I had for dinner at INDOCHINE, this restaurant by Tobacco Road,
 a Naruto with avocado and cucumbers.

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I am everything. I am. I am reading this amazing book called
CLICK HERE AMAZING AMAZING REALLY GOOD BOOK
.
 This book is so amazing. I can't put it down. SO many quotes I want to quote here.
 I got a personally signed book too!!! God, wait until I have time to
write about this book!!

I feel its my new bible to life. I deal with existence using these ideas. I
really have an eye for genius.

I am so everything. I am wonderful. I have the most amazing life.
I cannot tell you.

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Fruit, greens, who knows.

I know when I eat fruit I am the best. So what if I have a little cilantro
here, or there. Its just nothing.
but fruit, fruit is happiness in my belly. FRUIT IS FOR ME.

These days I only eat if I have to. Not hungry. Watermelon juice, and
 oj have been meals to me.
Has to be fresh. Raw.

Last night I had a sugarcane juice with a little powdered raw cacao.
 God I was talking all night. I was so happy.


I am so amazing. awesome, beautiful, radiant, shining, intelligent,
 I am way way better than what I thought was better than me.

HA I have so much more than life. I have life and I can live it.

Next step a car, a smart car!! I have alot of things on my list.
My trip to MV, Lasik, getting my license, and belief in the
 cult of the individual.


I am so awesome I cannot stand it, I am beautiful and unique and
just so lucky.






I made this
AVOCADO AND YELLOW SQUASH PATE WITH BELL PEPPER DICED






From VEGGIEMUNN.com

Juice with Pineapple, watermelon and agave
 and Tomato Basil SOUP, that is my Sony
reader I was reading in background


Marinated tomatoes


ZUCCHINI SOUP WITH SPIRALIZED ZUCCHINI in it






What a great stanza in a song I like by the CURE:

Rape me like a child
christened in blood
painted like an unknown saint
there's nothing left but hope...
your voice is dead
and old
and always empty
trust in me through closing years
perfect moments wait...
if only we could stay
please
say the right words
or cry like the stone white clown
and stand

Here he is a RAW MODEL in Details magazine.
http://api.ning.com/files/Cceu1ge7qZL-MpXzKZEk3XDIju*7fs1ITz7r5RsEhi8_/11719950.jpeg

Very uplifting to me to read his blog.

This guy is a raw model http://rawmodelcom.blogspot.com/





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Also I saw this photo, its pretty huh?

http://www.thehollywoodnews.com/artman2/uploads/1/thespirit_giantsand2.jpg

I put it on my wallpaper, very beautiful. That is me. Bad girl.

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I had last night blueberry and banana smoothies.

I took my coworker to the "best restaurant in Coral Gables"

( MIAMI NEW TIMES) called La Cofradia

http://www.lacofradia.com/

My coworker was giggling and freaking out and taking cell

phone photos. She said she never has been to a restaurant this

nice. She called all her friends and boyfriends, mom, etc..She went

on and on how I look so good and I am doing so well and what is my

secret, etc..She was really happy.

There was all this artwork and ceiling paintings, and big light fixtures

and this wall that glows blue. I am used to fancy restaurants so I was ,

I felt a little, like it's no big deal at all. HARDLY. I think I have seen a

zillion better restaurants myself. It takes a lot to impress me, but

I was really touched by her enthusiasm.

She pointed out as we left all the guys staring at me, she would laugh

and go, "Look he almost got hit by a car looking at you!". She would

laugh and she pointed them all out to me, and I never notice. Me with

my dilated pupils, demon eyes, silk dress. It's the young ones that stare.

I walk down a street alone some days and any particular suit will stop and

stutter, " NICE WEATHER?" and its raining. I laugh and he will try to talk

to me at the light again. I see him walking and I literally see that he

cannot physically stop trying to talk to me.

I am very very shy. Miracle Mile is a pick up place

especially around lunchtime. Since my teens I have had an onslaught of

male attention and I don't think it will ever go away. That is life for us girlies.

But the difference is, I am aware of my power. I am aware

of what kind of attention it is too.

Anyways my coworker told me how much my boss talks

about me, he says I am very creative.

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Last night I went to Cheesecake factory with mom

and got a made to order Guacamole and got a side

of tomatoes and chamomile tea. I ate it with a spoon.

We gossiped.

I LOVE GOSSIP!! I LOVE IT

Doesn't everybody??

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Life is beautiful. For me. It really is. I am so special.

I slept next to my mother. We lay in bed and slept. I wore

a paraguay tshirt and a dress underneath.

There is a thunderstorm today.