That is me in ATRIA, laughing, having the time of my life and loving everything all the time.
I am so happy when living it up with good people. I treat myself so nicely.


Edgartown is all American city






Seafood is everywhere.




I climbed a tree, I actually climbed a tree.




Sailboats


Nice houses


Lighthouses sure are beautiful. Useful too because at night there was such a fog over everything.



Lovers enjoying the day









Really patriotic stuff



Where I got my fruits...



The weather was perfect and the air very dry






Look a birds nest of sort sorts. What a nice place.



Llamas in lawns, this is the life



Yellow Tomato salad
at ATRIA



I got breakfast in bed


Laid on the beach




I lay out and got some warm sun, its so pristine here




Lots of grass to watch sway.

Good place to just be and love life.



 I got a ton of BlackDOG stuff like bags and raincoat. I did. I got black dog stuff.

Beautiful house




I drank chamomile tea and had fruits and pistachios


Look how cool the church is:


High tea time




I sat right there every morning






Read the Omnivore's Dilemna, GREAT BOOK





Went to CT




Saw Old buildings




Wednesday June 25th

Today I get my Lasik done. A little nervous. In 2 hours I get a laser on my eyeball, without being out to sleep, while awake!!
How? HMM
I am dying to find out. They cut a flap out of my eye. And shoot laserbeams inside, all when I am awake
and when I sit up I will see perfectly. How on earth am I going to watch myself get eye surgery?

I will have to take a Valium for sure.

No Makeup no hairspray? I cheated a little bit. I
am going out to eat first with a friend.

I look so beautiful today. I do. I feel hot. I love myself.
I do, I am so incredible.

Look a NEW RAW FOOD RESTAURANT in MIAMI

http://lifefoodgourmet.com/

Is that cool or what? I know John TOO. He is sooo awesome and very handsome.
RAW vegan cheffing and making food is NO picnic and he is so cool about it. He also
has that THING Charm? SOmething that will take him far in our little corner of the orthorexic
world.

Anyways/ Here I am waiiting to be picked up.

I wore my new Victorian Corset
 I want to show it off, its so pretty. It's not even tight.
If I eat something and burp I throw up my food, lol.
Pretty tight!!

Here I sit listening to Classical music in my capacious living room.

This guy I knew in Buffalo, not from school but from the MINI PARK
on Elmwood avenue..afterschool kids hangout..
which was where all the skateboarders hung out, I would go there with my friends
when I was little. Anyways there was this guy who hung out there,
I let him have my iguana when I was in Buffalo...
he remembered me and lookd me up!
 And he called me yesterday.
He is a Sheep Herder in California. That is so cool. He lives in China part of the time too.
Wow, I asked him to write about his expereince and he said he makes movies.
Interesting.


When people remember me from when I was young, I feel kind of grateful.
I always thought I was INVISIBLE when I was young. That is how I was and felt.
Invisible. When someone from my childhood calls me I feel, so thankful they remembered
me and knew I existed.


So yesterday to eat I had
smoothies of mamey and blueberry / date
watermelon juice
Orange juice

That is all, I felt great.

I got a DVD in the mail called THE KENNEDY SCANDALS> OOH I can't wait.

I am so turned on, to life. I am. I am turned ON




Thursday LA COFRADIA restaurant Coral Gables, they made me:


Last night I went to Cofradia, the best restaurant in Coral Gables. While my escort was on a conference call
trying to make a 30 million dollar deal effortlessly.
They made me fruit plates


I had some Chamomile tea while my escort had a Pinot Grigio and Salmon.

I went in to Lasik, 220
Alhambra Circle, paid cash, signed papers
and they gave me a Valium. I was put in a waiting room
that was dark and cold.
A Doctor came and told me what he was going to do.
He said it would take 15 minutes. I said, " I don't want to know what you are going to do".

I was so scared but very excited. I felt like a little girl.

I sat down in a cold room, on my back,
with a machine over me,
with shoe booties and hairnet and watched them drop stuff in my eye, and then put a lid speculum in
then put something on my eye and the Doctor said, " Suction" and the lady pressed a button and I felt pressure.
Then I saw a light I was told to look at and it made a noise like clicking. Then with tweezers
I saw them take my eye and flap it over, I panicked and he said, "LOOK AT THE LIGHT DO NOT MOVE"

Then, I saw nothing. I moaned hugging my teddy bear.

MOAN MOAN MOAN!

Then the noise again and I smelled burning and I was very very scared. They were laser beaming the insides of my eye!!
Then the flap on my eye again, I could see, but blurry.
I saw tweezers all over my eyeball.

Then the next eye. I watched my own eye surgery.

After it was done,
I could not see anything but for a few seconds. Burning, tears, lots of tears.
I went home and called MUMMY. I had to go to Mom's and beg
for painkillers, which cured me of everything, I slept. She gave me some good stuff.
With Watermelon juice and blueberry/banana/date smoothies.

I ordered her Chinese food for helping me out.

This morning I went to my post op appt and guess what?
 I NOW HAVE 20/15 vision!
 
That is better than 20/20!!

And its lifetime guarantee.

Perfect vision is different than contacts. This is the real deal. Its overwhelming, so
much to absorb
to take in.
I have lifetime guarantee. This is real. I feel, there is more to me than me, but the
 entire world full of details.
This is real, I REALLY HAVE perfect vision after a lifetime of dependance on conacts,
yuk. I could never wear those again.

I am so happy. I can see, even where the contacts aren't. Forget contacts, do Lasik!!
I feel clean, I feel good. I feel young and fresh.

Today I had some soaked sunflower seeds and
some banana/avocado/ date smoothies.
 I left all my fruit at MOM's so I have to go to store.

 

Turn off music in my sidebar,

watch cute youtube videos

this is soooo funny
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j-ljW5YEdao

The Mc Donalds French fries do not decompose!!





Cucumber wraps



Peter Jennings on how Americans are FAT, this is so good. Like the OMNIVORE'S
DILEMNA book that calls us the CORN PEOPLE




Fattest kid in the world 7 year old 400 lbs
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UKlSagF77SU


How I am going to handle existence: Life is love , life is sex, sex is magic and everything. I want to turn on life, like an electric wand.

That is how I am going to see life as.

Also, whenever faced with a decision, whenever, I will choose the one that benefits me, always. Me Me Me ME
That is my god. I am my god, my everything. And how I decided what is right and wrong is
conscience pangs and also the pride I feel. The goodness I feel.

In solitude. I am pure. I am rain. I am kisses and I know who my ideal man is. Look what i got in an email?





Friday

Look another raw food restaurant in Miami




Last night to eat:

 I had 4 oranges
pint of blueberries
box of strawberries
and avocado with a little soy sauce

This morning I had 7 Oranges
SUGARCANE JUICE

Now I drinking watermelon juice. I will drink that all day long.

My phones are turned off. I want to be still, read and heal. I take eye drops.

I am healing my eyes, laying in bed so very happy, I am, happy an wonderful.

People in my life are so lucky. So am I. There is so much greatness within me, as well as beauty, love , honesty
and a genuine appreciation for life.

I am sedentary these days healing in bed, reading, watching documenatries and Marilyn movies.
I have a dream life. My phone is ringing these days and I get such nice comments.

My surgery on my eyes went well. I can see everything.

I have never ever been happier. I know what I want, I know what my instincts are. I follow them,
I don't fight nature but go with it, I follow nature, my god is my instincts.

Only I.. am home. I am home, whereever I am- I am home and I want to be safe and protected and guarded.


I trust myself, I do, I trust in me. I can count on myself. I can.

I have flowers on my desk. I am wearing a 14k gold sailboat necklace with diamonds and wearing nothing else but the radio. I have my blanket with little snowmen printed on them, I have a globe of the Earth next to my laptop. Candles and fruit juice cups strewn everywhere.

I will finish the best book in the world,
 I am getting introduced to author tomorrow. I hear the author sleeps
 with the same girl that Jack Nicholson is sleeping with.

Manana is going to be a very special day filled with excitement. Lots of happiness.
Lots of beauty and bodies happy. Meaningful encounters.


I got offered to be introduced to another author by the way but I refused a trip to NYC.
The author of this book which the makers of FIGHT CLUB movie are turning into a movie.
BOOK





Saturday
Waiting to be picked up. I look awesome. SKin tight dress, heels, brand new Mac makeup. Life is so great.
I really am content. I am going out, yay My dress is skin tight and striped black and violet, over $200 and down the side are ruffles.

I love lying in bed reading but I love to be taken out as well, taken out and treated like a lady, like a woman, spoiled and waited on. By a Great amazing hot and very alpha male. Treated to anything I want. Impressed with stories.
Life is an act. I know what it is I want thanks to Michael. The author. I have adopted his philosophy. Its so clear to me now. I love life. My phone rings and I ignore it, too many wonderful a-list first class people begging to be with me, talk to me, invite me to travel and tell me how great I am.

I had oranges all night and watermelon juice. My tummy felt acidic a little bit so I ate some sprouted sunflower seed mylk with dates and cacao.

I have it all, whatever I want. Love, passion, challenge and easy friends.

I am so lucky!!!
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I talked to Michael. What a great person. A real genius. I hear secretly he likes to take alot of ex. Hope he doesn't hurt his brain.

Going out now, listening to IN YOUR HOUSE by the CURE. My fave band and perfect man, Robert Smith.